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Chapter 1: Long Night
"I miss you already." She said.
I could see it In her eyes that she didn't want me to leave.
"I don't need to leave. I can stay…" I said.
In that instant all I could hear besides the silence in the room was the rapid thudding of Bella's heart, the broken rhythm of our breathing, and the whisper of our lips moving in synchronization. I remember telling her how much my desire for her blood has weakened but it still pains me. Every touch, every embrace, every kiss sends a burning feeling in my throat. But knowing that I almost lost her makes me resist temptation, she is my one and only, I was made for her, as she was made for me.
I couldn't help but gaze at her beauty so I opened my eyes. I couldn't believe that she would want to be with me, a monster. After opening my eyes she met my gaze and we stared at each other. Looking into her eyes was like looking into her soul, her pure, innocent soul.
She continued to pull my face to hers again.
"Definitely staying," I murmured once my lips were free.
"No, no. It's your bachelor party. You have to go." She said while running the fingers of her right hand through my hair and pressing her body tightly to mine.
I stroked her face with the back of my left hand, it was so warm. She was giving me mixed signals. Her body wanted me to stay but her lips were telling me something else. I didn't want to leave her all alone, I was quite content with staying here with her all night.
"Bachelor parties are designed for those who are sad to see the passing of their single days. I couldn't be more eager to have mine behind me. So there's really no point." I said with a partial smile on my face.
"True." She breathed against my throat.
After our passionate embrace, I laid down on her bed and took my shirt off. I continued to pull Bella next to me being extremely careful with her. To prevent her from freezing to death I wrapped a thick afghan around her body, but she still somehow found a way to intertwine our bodies together.
She began to run her warm hand down my ice cold chest, tracing across the flat planes of my stomach, just admiring my physic. I couldn't help but enjoy this moment, she sent a fragment of a shudder through my body. She came closer to me and carefully pressed the tip of her tongue against my lips. This was pure bliss for me but I couldn't take anymore, I had to control myself so I pulled away.
"Wait," She said, gripping my shoulders and pulling her body closer to mine. She then preceded to kick her leg free from the afghan and wrapped it firmly around my waist. "Practice makes perfect." She continued.
That statement made me laugh.
"Well, we should be fairly close to perfection by this point, then, shouldn't we? Have you slept at all in the last month?" I couldn't recall, all of our nights seemed to go this route.
"But this is the dress rehearsal," She reminded me, "and we've only practiced certain scenes. It's no time for playing safe."
Once she said that I couldn't help but wish she didn't. I told her we would try but she just doesn't seem to get it, I don't want to hurt her, but she keeps insisting.
"Bella…," I whispered with regret.
"Don't start this again," She said. "A deal's a deal."
Couldn't she see how badly I wanted her, but I just couldn't risk putting her life in danger.
"I don't know. It's too hard to concentrate when you're with me like this." I hesitated. "I can't think straight. I won't be able to control myself. You'll get hurt."
"I'll be fine." She said with confidence.
"Bella…" I tried to finish my sentence but she quickly pressed her lips against mine. I continued to kiss her, but soon realized that by kissing her I was giving up.
To get her mind off of the discussion at hand I brought up our wedding tomorrow.
"How are your feet?" I said.
"Toasty warm." She said with a grin.
I was a little taken back by this.
"Really? No second thoughts? It's not too late to change your mind." I said with a teasing smile.
"Are you trying to ditch me?" She said jokingly.
I chuckled. "Just making sure. I don't want you to do anything you're not sure about."
"I'm sure about you. The rest I can live through." She said.
I slightly hesitated again before speaking, could she really live through the rest? What about her life? Her family? I wouldn't want her to make the wrong decision.
"Can you?" I asked quietly. "I don't mean the wedding--which I am positive you will survive despite your qualms--but afterward…what about Renée, what about Charlie?"
She signed and said. "I'll miss them."
But what about her friends too?
"Angela and Ben and Jessica and Mike." I said
"I'll miss my friends, too." She said with a huge smirk on her face. "Especially Mike. Oh, Mike! How will I go on?"
No matter how much I knew she was only joking I still couldn't help but feel jealous of Mike Newton. I just couldn't believe that she would give up her family and friends for an eternity with me.
She began to laugh but then had a stern look on her face.
"Edward, we've been through this and through this. I know it will be hard, but this is what I want. I want you, and I want you forever. One lifetime is simply not enough for me."
"Frozen forever at eighteen," I whispered.
"Every woman's dream come true," She teased.
"Never changing…never moving forward." I said.
"What does that mean?" She said surprisingly.
I was thinking back to the time we had to break the engagement news to Charlie.
"Do you remember when we told Charlie we were getting married? And he thought you were," I was having a hard time with the last part. "…pregnant?"
"And he thought about shooting you," She guessed with a laugh. "Admit it--for one second, he honestly considered it."
I didn't answer, I couldn't bear the thought of Bella not being able to have her own children.
"What Edward?" She said.
"I just wish…well, I wish that he'd been right."
She gasped and made an odd sound.
I truly did wish Charlie was right, I wanted that for us.
"More that there was some way he could have been. That we had that kind of potential. I hate taking that away from you, too."
Not only was I taking away her life forever, but I was also taking away her potential for another life.
After hearing that from me, she waited there In silence.
"I know what I'm doing." She said.
I was shocked by her response.
"How could you know that, Bella? Look at my mother, look at my sister. It's not as easy a sacrifice as you imagine."
"Esme and Rosalie get by just fine. If it's a problem later, we can do what Esme did--we'll adopt."
As much as I loved Esme and Carlisle for adopting me and my siblings it just wasn't right for Bella, I wanted her to have her own children, she just didn't understand. The anger and frustration in my voice became noticeable.
"It's not right! I don't want you to have to make sacrifices for me. I want to give you things, not take things away from you. I don't want to steal your future. If I were human--"
I was interrupted by her hand. She gently placed It upon my mouth.
"You are my future. Now stop moping, or I'm calling your brothers to come and get you. Maybe you need a bachelor party."
She was right, I was moping.
"I'm sorry, I am moping, aren't I? Must be the nerves."
"Are your feet cold?" She said.
"Not in that sense. I've been waiting a century to marry you, Miss Swan. The wedding ceremony is the one thing I can't wait--"
Just as I was about to finish my thought I heard Emmett and Jasper's thoughts from almost a mile away. They were coming rather quickly to escort me to my "bachelor party." By this time I was hoping to stay the night with Bella.
"Oh, for the love of all that's holy!" I said out loud.
"What's wrong?" She said, alarmed.
I couldn't help but grit my teeth in frustration.
"You don't have to call my brothers. Apparently Emmett and Jasper are not going to let me bow out tonight."
She clutched me closer to her for one second then with apprehension she released me. I wish I knew what she was thinking at that moment.
"Have fun." She said.
Out of nowhere Bella began to shudder and I realized it was from Emmett's rude, but deliberate, scraping on the glass. It sent goose bumps through her entire body. I wanted to kill Emmett.
"If you don't send Edward out, we're coming in after him!" Emmett said teasingly.
"Go," She laughed. "Before they break my house."
I was content in staying with her but I knew if I did Emmett wouldn't let me hear the end of it. I couldn't help but roll my eyes.
I got up from Bella's bed and put my shirt on, fluidly and swiftly to a human's eye. I turned to Bella and leaned down to give her a soft kiss on her forehead. I wasn't partial to leaving her, but she wanted me to have a good time.
"Get to sleep. You've got a big day tomorrow."
"Thanks! That's sure to help me wind down." She said sarcastically.
"I'll meet you at the alter."
"I'll be the one in white." She smiled.
I couldn't help but chuckled.
"Very convincing." I said just before springing through the window and landing next to Emmett. Once I finally went down to Emmett and Jasper, Emmett couldn't help but yell obscenities to me, out of good fun, of course. That was Emmett for you.
"You'd better not make him late," Bella murmured to be sure Charlie didn't hear.
In that instant Jasper leaped up to Bella's room to reassure her. I could hear him from below.
"Don't worry, Bella. We'll get him home in plenty of time." He said.
I could hear Bella shuffle in her blankets to sit up properly.
"Jasper? What do vampires do for bachelor parties? You're not taking him to a strip club, are you? Bella said.
I couldn't stop laughing, but it was nice knowing that I wasn't the only one who gets jealous.
"Don't tell her anything!" Emmett growled.
"Relax, we Cullens have our own version. Just a few mountain lions, a couple of grizzly bears. Pretty much an ordinary night." Jasper said.
"Thanks Jasper." Bella said.
I was pleased that Jasper had calmed Bella down, I just hoped she got enough sleep tonight.
The rest of the night past by like an ordinary night, as Jasper said. All three of us hunted in the Californian mountains taking out a total of eight mountain lions and six grizzly bears. Although I was having fun with my brothers I couldn't stop thinking about Bella.