Stephenie Meyer owns all things pertaining to Twilight, I just play in her sandbox.


After trying to attack Bella on her birthday and the farewell of his family can Jasper get a second chance. Can he live on his own and resist the urge for human blood. *Sequal to my one shot story titled One Drop which should be read for better clarity*

This story was originally titled A Second Chance For Love but with editing I decided to change the title. It was on here before as that title. It is the same story just now better edited.

This story is because of Emerald_Rosalie whose belief in it since the beginning still astounds me. She is my muse and inspiration and I could not have done this without her. Thanks Emerald, I can not tell you enough just how much you ROCK!

Thanks to the lovely BlueBella for doing a pre-beta of this story for me. Your time and work for this story has my utmost appreciation and heart felt gratitude.


by Evanescense

Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drive me
Into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If I will it all away

Don't turn away (Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide (Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes (God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light (Never sleep never die)

I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away

Don't turn away (Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide (Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes (God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light (Never sleep never die)

Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet my end

Don't turn away (Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide (Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes (God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light (Never sleep never die)

Chapter One: Guilt

I stood in the doorway of our room and watched my sweet Alice in a flurry. She tossed one outfit after another into her designer luggage. Items of clothing flew out and others added in their place. The discards littered the floor, thousands of dollars cast off like rags. Breath caught in her chest several times and her sadness hit me like a Mack truck. Bella was her first real friend and she had to leave her behind because I could not control my bloodlust. My senses were still reeling from the drop of Bella's blood and it had me trying hard to shake the euphoria from my mind and her taste from my tongue.

"I'm so sorry Alice, if I could take this night back, I would, if only to take away your pain." Stopping her stride, I pulled her into my arms trying to capture her pain as my own. She sighed against my chest and her pain did soften some but guilt quickly replaced the others.

"What do you have to feel guilty for my love? None of this was your fault." My fingers made small circles on her back and tried to calm her down.

"I saw tonight happen, Jasper. At first, it was all happy, everyone was happy and, Bella was opening her presents. You leapt at Bella, the same as in my vision. I did not believe my vision Jasper, I did not want to believe it. You've been doing so wonderfully around Bella, and I did not want to believe that you could hurt her. I believed in you so much that I refused listen to the truth."

Her sadness turning to anger was a slap to the face. It did not take me feeling her emotions to know what she was getting at.

"I'm so sorry Ali if I knew what came over me I would tell you, but I don't. However you want me to make it up to you, Ali, I will." I whispered the words in her hair and tried stilling the swirling emotions coming off her.

"I believed in you, Jazz. I convinced the rest of the family that you were not a danger to Bella, that you had the hunger under control. You made me believe in you so much that I did not trust my own vision. Now our family is breaking apart."

"It's all right Alice. We know that sometimes your visions do not come through clearly. I didn't know that I would go after, Bella, so easily for one drop of blood. None of us did. You are not at fault here, Alice."

"I know that, I do. It was an accident and not any of our faults, but Jasper, Edward is making leave anyway. Because of your actions, Edward does not feel as if Bella is safe with us. He loves her so much, Jazz, but now, Edward is going away and he might never come back. Edward's heart is being ripped out of his chest because I swore to everyone that you would never hurt Bella." Alice pulled away from me turning her anger at me now mixed with disappointment and regret.

"What do you want me to do, Alice?" I hated that her back was to me and her disappointment in me was so strong it was choking.

"There's nothing you can do, Jasper. The damage happened it's over. Edward is not going to listen to anything now. We will do what he asks and leave. Maybe in the long run it will be the best."

She turned and looked her eyes so full of emotion that it was hard to grasp them all as she stared at me.

"Where do you want to go?" I would do as she asked, finding someway to make it up to her.

"Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie and, Emmett, are going to Denali. Edward will not tell me where he is going and I..." There was a pause at the last one and looking at her, I knew she would be crying if she could. I blocked her emotions and focused on my own.

"Ali, where we will be going?" I tried to make it seem as if I had not heard her right.

"I'm going my own way for a while, Jasper." Shame forced her to look at the floor standing stock-still which was unusual for her.

"Do I get to ask why or where, or are you like, Edward going to decide for me?"

It was hard for me not to clench my own hands in anger. I had lived off humans for longer than some of them had been vampires and they expected me to turn the urge for human blood off like a switch.

I had fed off humans in the past and was now at fault for tonight. Where was Edward's responsibility in this whole mess? He had wanted to kill Bella, himself, he had openly admitted it. Edward, had killed humans as well, but he was exempt for whatever reason. Hell, Edward had come close to killing Bella last year when he barely controlled himself in enough time to save Bella's life.

"I do not know. I need time away, Jasper. I am not trying to decide for you, but I need time on my own. My visions have been untrustworthy lately and I need to figure them out. I love you, Jasper, but until I get my mind cleared I think it is best if we separate." Sighing she sat on our bed and clasped her hands in her lap. She would not even look at me.

"I did not hurt her, Alice!" My voice was loud and harsh. I could not contain the anger that was welling up inside. All this was because I had lunged at, Bella. Just thinking her name made the blood sing on my tongue and I turned away from, Alice, before I could give away anything with my eyes.

"That is not in doubt, but you could have killed her. It was a paper cut, Jasper, not blood pooling on the floor. You lost control over something insignificant. A separation will be good for both of us."

Alice continued her unmoving position, even when a knock came to the door.

"Hey man, Carlisle wants to talk to you in the library." Emmett, had bags in his hands and Rosalie was behind him tugging on his arm.

From, Emmett, all I felt was regret and sorrow that this was happening to our family. He looked at Alice and did not say anything. Emmett knew what was going on. He was not that dense. Rosalie was pissed off and feeling justified that what she said would happen, did. She shot daggers at me and tugged Emmett from the doorway.

Just wonderful they all knew that Alice and I were separating before I did. What the hell was going on here? It could not be all because of tonight. Something else was going on here and I wanted the answers.

Leaving, Alice, behind I did not bother shutting the door and went straight into Carlisle's office. The door was open and, Esme was not around. She was packing to leave too; she always did what, Edward, wanted.

I closed the door behind me and went to stand in front of the massive desk. Carlisle, was staring out the windows and into the surrounding forest. His sorrow was palatable and his disappointment in me almost undid the last of my resolve.

"I'm sorry that it came to this son. If I had known this would be the ending, I would have discouraged him and his love for, Bella. We should have all been more considerate of you during your transition into our way. All we can do now is to leave, Bella, behind to a normal life. We have gotten too familiar to human society and this is the debt that we have to pay." Carlisle, did not turn around and for an instant, I wish I had Edward's power and could read his mind. His emotions were at such a loss. They did not speak of hope only sorrow, sorrows for us all.

"Alice has told me of her feelings for space and I am asking that you come with the rest of us to Denali. She will join us when she is ready as will, Edward, when the time comes. They were both so close to the young woman that this is hard for them. The only we can do for them are to give them their time. It will not be an easy road for any of us, but this is the best choice." Carlisle turned to look at me then. His eyes were not accusing me of any wrongdoing only disappointment in the actions I had taken. It was the look of a father to his son.

"I feel, Jasper, that our life style has not been easy for you. My time at the hospital has always been so precious to me that I feel I may have overlooked your problems in the past. Though I will say, we have never had this unique a problem before. The young woman has been a distraction and a detriment for us all. We care for her but it was unjust of us to believe she could habituate with us so freely without paying some price."

"Esme and I are leaving as soon as possible. I would like you to hang back and talk to, Edward. I know that even through his anger he would be appreciative of your apology. You may be the only one who can make him see reason and come with us instead of going on his own. I have tried to raise you all in our life to the best of my abilities, but I fear in many areas where I have been lax and lacking. I am sorry my son."

I looked in his eyes and felt the love he had for me as a son and knew I would carry that with me always. It was not often a son knew what his father felt of him. We were all lucky to have, Carlisle, as the father of our family no matter the dynamics. I went to speak and he stopped me with a hand. With his emotions I did not think right now, he wanted any apology from me.

"We'll talk later in Denali, right now there is much to do. I need you to grant me one favor Jasper. One favor and then we can put this all behind us." He was gathering papers from his desk now, readying himself as well for our move. I could only nod my head at his request. "I know it will hard for you to do after last night, but I need you to apologize to Bella for us all. We never meant to hurt her but it will be better without us to destroy not only her life but also her chance of normalcy. You will have to wait until, Edward, leaves of course, but I would like her to know the rest of us care for her."

"I'll do as you ask." The words formed almost hoarsely in my throat. Turning I left the office shutting the door behind me. I lingered there for a moment knowing once Carlisle thought I was gone, his guards toward my power would lower and I could get his real feelings on the matter.