Nobody Wins

Part Three – Losing the Battle and Winning the War

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Summary: The battle had already been fought, but the war would be a bloody one, a fight for her heart and her own fight to find herself.

Disclaimer: I don't own Gossip Girl.

Lyrics: Far Away by Nickelback

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"Please try to understand."

"I do," Nate smiles then sighs. "You really do love him, don't you?"

Blair smiles. "I do." She laughs a bit. "A little more than a year ago, I still thought you were the one for me, and I thought you felt the same way."

Nate has a reminiscent look in his eye. "I did for a while."

"We're different people now."

"Do you ever wish you could just go back?"

She thinks about it. "Not anymore. I like who I am now."

He smiles again. "You've done pretty well, Blair."

She laughs then gets serious again

"I called Vanessa. She agreed to talk to you."

He raised his eyebrows. "Why would you do that?"

"Some things change. And I would be lying if I said you two were terrible together."

He snorts.

"Thank you, Blair."

"No thanks needed," She takes no credit for her good deeds. "Some things are just meant to be."

"I still…"

"I know." She says it one last time. "Always have, always will."

She gives him one last kiss on the cheek and leaves for her other half.

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A little more than a year ago, Blair never thought of Chuck Bass romantically.

It would be a stretch if she thought of him as a decent human being.

But they were one in the same, and that's what made their love so painful.

Through pain came beauty, if you waited long enough.

And the time was finally here.

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This time, this place
Misused, mistakes
Too long, too late
Who was I to make you wait?

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She comes to his door with the roses he tossed into the snow.

They're frozen, but he doesn't care.

He doesn't say anything for a while as she stands there in front of him.

"It's my turn to apologize." Blair held out the roses. "I was hoping that I could be the same person that I was a year ago. And I can't."

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Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know…

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"I accept your apology." He whispers as he grabs the roses.

He opens the door for her, but she stands on the outside.

"There's something else."

"What else could there be?"

She took a deep breath. She was tearing up, but she wasn't sure if it was because she finally made her choice or because she was taking the biggest risk of her life.

"Please," She pleads. "Don't ever break my heart again."

And that's all she wants.

"I never wanted to." He smiles, a genuine one, something she hasn't seen in a long time.

She lets one tear of relief fall down her cheek as she kisses his lips, tasting what she hadn't in so long.

It was special. She found it with no one else.

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That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long

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"I've been waiting for this moment for so long," She laughed. "And now, I don't know what to do."

"Make it up as you go along." He suggests coyly.

"Sounds like fun." She smiles brightly.

"You're beautiful, you know."

She blushes. "So I've been told."

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So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe, and hold on to me, and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
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Fin