Love Is Not Enough

Summary: Sometimes "Always" doesn't mean forever. Jack and Sam struggle with the aftermath of their final captivity at the hands of Ba'al. (Sequel to Agony of Spirit.)


Chapter One: Dear Sam

It had been a difficult day. Sam O'Neill was looking forward to a quiet evening at home with Jack. He'd been so down lately. She was glad to be getting home at a reasonable hour; maybe they'd have time to talk.

Then she saw the letter.

It was tossed haphazardly on the nightstand. The three short letters of her name called out to her in Jack's familiar scrawl. The feeling of foreboding descending on her heart was all too real. Something was very wrong.

She was surprised to find her hands trembling as she opened the unsealed envelope. With a growing sense of unease she began to read.

Dear Sam

You know me. I'm a coward when it comes to this stuff. That's why I'm taking the easy way out and writing you this letter.

First of all, I want you to know I love you. I don't think I'll ever stop loving you. All I want is your happiness and your safety.

That's why I'm leaving. I can't give you what you deserve anymore. Maybe I never could.

I know we talked about age not being a factor here, but it is. There's no point in denying it anymore. The last few weeks, months have proved that to me. The other night, well that was just salt in the wound.

I'm taking an extended leave from the Pentagon. They're being more understanding than I expected and giving me all the time I need. Please don't try and contact me. I want you to get on with your life, and if you come after me, you never will.

You still have time to be with a man who can give you the love and security you deserve.

I want the best for you. I don't ever want to stand in your way. If I stayed that's what would happen, like it did in Ba'al's prison.

Maybe the damned snakehead did me a favor, showed me what I was letting you in for, a future of caring for an old man. I won't do that to you.

Be happy, Sam.

Jack

Sam sat silently holding the damned letter in trembling hands. She read it, again and again, hoping it was all a tragic mistake. She could feel herself shutting down. She couldn't deal with the pain that threatened. Denial was a wonderful thing. This was a mistake, it had to be.

TBC


A/N: More to be explained in upcoming chapters.

Sorry for the huge delay in starting this sequel. I had considered saying goodbye to the fanfic writing altogether, but decided to give it a go for awhile again.

Most of you have likely forgotten Agony of Spirit .There will be recaps in the next few chapters of the most important plot points as I take you back to look at the motivations behind Jack's letter to Sam.