The morning passed slowly. I was impatient to see Alice, though I wouldn't be able to really talk to her with Edward there.

The world was on fire, no one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
And I'd dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
And I'd dreamed that I'd need somebody like you

Alice usually beat us to lunch; she didn't have to keep pace with a sloth like me. But she wasn't at the table waiting with a tray of food she wouldn't eat.

No I wanna fall in love
And I wanna fall in love
..with you

The day passed slowly but finally it ended.
I was finally left alone with my thoughts, but too alone for comfort.
Usually Alice was beside me, trailing cold fingers along the length of my body.

What a wicked game to play
To make me feel this way

Everything felt perfect.
School was going well, Charlie was easy to live with, I was close to Alice. Intimately close.
Every night she would climb in through the window and wrap her solid arms around me.
Every morning I would wake up with them still there.

What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you

Then I cut myself at my own birthday party.
It wasn't Jasper's fault, it was mine. I knew this. So did she.
She started drifting away, keeping a distance, barely speaking.
She stopped the nightly visits.

What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way

Every night I would be left to comfort myself.
My arms wrapped tightly round my stomach to suppress the gut-wrenching ache.

What a wicked thing you do
To make me dream of you

I tried and tried to think of ways to make it up to her.
No one was hurt, I couldn't understand why this had changed everything.
I couldn't understand why it had changed how she felt about me.

And I wanna fall in love
And I wanna fall in love
..with you

She disappeared. Went to Alaska. She didn't even tell me.
One mistake and she runs off. She runs off without giving a damn how I feel.

The world was on fire, no one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do

It was like being sucked into a black hole.
I could barely breathe.
I could barely think.
I could barely function.
Every night I was tormented with nightmares about her leaving for good.

No and I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you, no

Then I realised she had left for good.
I wouldn't admit it but somewhere in my mind I knew it.
I knew I had to start attempting to live again. To breathe again.

And I wanna fall in love
But I don't wanna fall in love
..with you

I gradually got used to her not being there but I would always look for her in school.
I would always glance toward where she used to sit, or where she used to park.
I refused to give up hoping that maybe she would just appear again.
Every thing would go back to normal.
We could forget it all.

This world is only gonna break your heart
This world is only gonna break your heart

"Alice isn't coming back," I realised.
"No. They're all gone."
"Alice is gone?" My voice was blank with disbelief

Nobody loves no one