thanks for all the reviews and here is myversion form my beta which has made the story look much better sorry if u were expecting a new chaoter
I never thought I would hear that voice again, well not so soon. I couldn't help it, I started crying when I walked into his arms, which went around my waist in a protective style. God I loved him. I knew why he went away. Because of Alice's problem. But I still never forgot about him. Especially all the letters he sent me over the past year. Which I secretively went back to the house monthly to get.
"Bella." My Greek god spoke to me. I still couldn't believe it was him, he was back in my life, now I had someone to turn to, help me through this pregnancy. I turned around to face him. He looked worried and terrified at the same time. I hope he doesn't make himself feel bad. I knew he must have found out from Rose, she was the only one I told. That's why we had been getting along so well before they left.
"Bella, why?Why didn't you tell me?" I looked him straight in his gorgeous topaz eyes, I wish I didn't just do that, it all came out then.
"I'm sorry, I got scared and I didn't know what to do, that night , was the best night of my life and I didn't wanna ruin our first moment. I was going to tell you. But then Alice got really ill and I couldn't not let you go with her, to help her. I would have felt bad if I made you stay with me and not your family. And your family needed you, she needed you, all of you. I..I…I.." I tried finishing, but then everything started to go black around the edges. Before I felt my body fall forward into Edwards tight embrace, I heard him shout, "Bella, What's wrong, Bella" before I finally succumbed to the darkness.
As she finally realized I was the one standing behind her, I heard her sobbing. I pulled her tighter to me, but being careful at the same time not to hurt her or the baby. Wow baby, my baby. Something I never though was possible. Not until now . I finally found my voice, I wanted to tell her so much, I wanted to just wisk her away from all the trouble, that I have caused her over the past years. I know I shouldn't even be with her in the first place, but I love her to much, which is selfish of me. " Bella" I finally spoke out over my thoughts.
At that moment she pulled away from me and turned towards me, bringing me into a bigger hug. I couldn't help but feel worried, and terrified at what was to come, she is my angel and my soul mate, I wouldn't know what I would do if anything happened to her. After a while Bella finally started to stop crying, so I spoke again. "Bella, why, why didn't you tell me". I shouldn't have brought that question up right now. In the middle of this dingy, dirty alley, but I thought I would get a few answers before the family turned up. I thought she wasn't going to tell me. Then she looked me straight in the eye, and everything blurted out.
"I'm sorry, I got scared and I didn't know what to do, that night , was the best night of my life and I didn't wanna ruin our first moment. I was going to tell you. But then Alice got really ill and I couldn't, not let you go with her, to help her. I would have felt bad if I made you stay with me and not your family. And your family needed you, she needed you, all of you. I..I…I.." she started telling me between sobs once again. She still thinks she not apart of the family, if Esme and Carlisle could, they would have adopted her, the very first time I brought her to the house.
She kept talking, But this time something was wrong, I could feel it, she was standing here pouring her heart out to me and something wasn't right, I looked down to see Bella look me straight in the eyes once more before she started to sway forwards into my arms. I held her tighter to keep her upright, but that was no good, "Bella, What's wrong, Bella" I shouted/whispered at her. As I saw here collapse in front of my very own eyes I was sent into a panic, where was Carlisle and why was everyone else taking so long, before I knew it Carlisle was by my side, telling me to take Bella to the car.
He told me she was ok, but he also told me she looked physically and emotionally drained, plus the pregnancy can't be easy for her either. I was sitting beside my angels sleeping form. I wondered if this had ever happened before, if this was why she had so many bruises and marks. Which I had found covered half her body.
'This was all my fault' I thought, before I just sat there and pulled my angel into my arms and started humming her lullaby.
Next chapter up soon… sorry for the wait..