Desperado


Disclaimer: I don't own NCIS or the song.


Author's Note: I was on a fic writing spree! This is a song-fic. You have been warned.


Desperado

Why don't you come to your senses

You've been out ridin' fences

For so long now

Tony held out his hand to Ziva and watched her face. He offered her so much with such a simple gesture. She had faced every thing that violence, espionage, and war could throw at a human and she had remained sane. This was only through the meticulous construction of her thick walls.

Oh, you're a hard one

But I know that you've got your reasons

He knew that he couldn't expect her to just let that wall come crashing down. It was there for a reason. She would be broken if it weren't for that wall. He knew that the very part of her that kept her from him, had saved her life before. She couldn't just let go.

These things that are pleasin' you

Can hurt you somehow

She had fought so hard to be stoic throughout her entire life and she had never been happy. Now she was here and was happier than she had ever dreamed of being. But she had let her wall fall into a state of disrepair. She punished herself on the inside for this. Was happiness really worth emotional weakness? Could she stand to risk everything just for herself?

Don't you draw the Queen of Diamonds, boy

She'll beat your if she's able

Know the Queen of Hearts is always your best bet

Wealth had been shown to Tony since the time he was an infant. In his younger days, he had always been drawn to material possessions. He was with the women who looked nice, dressed nice, and were easy to get drunk and naked. Now, here he was. Holding his heart out to a woman who didn't even own a television. A woman who didn't give a damn about material possessions. She had her heart, and that's all he wanted from her.

Now it seems to me some fine things

Have been laid upon your table

But you only want the things that you can't get

He could have any woman in this room, any woman in the world; but he didn't want them. He wanted Ziva and didn't even see the rest of the women anymore. All he saw was her and her wall. All he needed was her heart. And yet, that was the thing denied from him the most.

Desperado

Oh, you ain't getting' no younger

Your pain and your hunger

They're drivin' you home

He had been searching his entire life for something, but he hadn't ever known what it was. Now, here he stood, with his hand out to Ziva and he realized that all he needed was for her to take it and be with him.

And freedom

Oh, freedom

Well, that's just some people talkin'

Your prison is walkin'

Through this world all alone

Ziva knew that if she took his hand, everything would change. She could have what she had envied on the faces of every other couple in the world. She had been locked behind her walls for her entire adult life, now she realized that he was standing there with a sledgehammer. All she had to do would be to let him try. She didn't have to be alone anymore. He could set her free.

And don't your feet get cold in the winter time?

The sky won't snow

The sun won't shine

It's hard to tell the nighttime from the day

She thought about why she wasn't taking his hand. What did she really have to lose. It certainly wasn't anything good. She had nothing to lose and the world to gain. All that she had in her life had been wrong. Now she was being offered something that was so purely right. Her life had been nothing but a depressing mess. At the time, they all seemed to prove a point and provide happiness and pride. Looking back, she realized that none of that had lasted. All the happiness from the fights, the assassinations, and the battles had been fleeting.

You're loosin' all your highs and lows

Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?

Though to anyone else, his hand looked empty; Ziva saw what it really held. In his hand was the chance to let go of the past. Forget everything that she had witnessed, forget everything she had ever done. In that hand was a new beginning. What was keeping her from taking it? What was she so afraid of?

Desperado

Why don't you come to your senses?

Come down from your fences

And open the gate

He had stood outside her walls with a sledgehammer for so long, he needed to take a swing and he needed to take it now. With his hand outstretched to her, he asked, "Dance with me, Ziva?"

It was a small step, but even small steps will get you where you're going. And maybe they needed to take small steps. Maybe things needed to go slowly. Maybe this was all they needed for now. It was all he wanted right now. To start tearing down her walls, one swing at a time. He didn't have to tear down the whole thing, all he needed was to make enough room for a gate.

It may be rainin'

But there's a rainbow above you

He knew that she had lived a life that most would call horrible. He knew that she had done things that would make most people call her a monster. He knew that she had witnessed things that would break most people. But that didn't matter anymore, all he could see was who she is now. And that was beautiful.

You better let somebody love you

You better let somebody love you

You better let somebody love you

Before it's

Too late

"Of course I would" she said, reaching out and taking his hand. He led her out to the dance floor and wrapped his arms around her. She wrapped her arms around his neck and buried her face in his neck. "Thank you," she whispered. He just smiled and kissed the top of her head. They didn't have to be alone anymore.


A.N.: This song is Desperado by Johnny Cash (from Arkansas, like me!).

However, to me, this song will always be sung by Jeremiah. He has an amazing voice.

Therefore, this fic is for Jeremiah and his amazing voice. He was the first person I ever heard sing this song. I heard the Jeremiah version before the Johnny version!

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