Please take kind to me for this is my first Bleach fanfic and I have barely gotten down how to spell Ulquiorra's name, haha.
Also, Gin is a twisted little 'cough' but for some reason I like his character so he will have more of a role in this story than any of the Arrancars.
This story shouldn't be too long, 5 chapters max. It was originally a one shot plan but I decided against that. The first chapter is a bit of a bore because it repeats some of the usual, but I hope you can put up with it until it gets more to the point.
I changed the title and summary because I decided to combine it with another idea. The M rating will start in the second chapter.
Summary: When you are in the worst of situations you seek out the best in people in hopes of making it through, even if it hurts you more in the long run.
Disclaimer: I do not own Bleach, nuff said.
Broken Purity – Chapter 01
Orihime sat on the huge white couch silently as she thought about the recent events. She couldn't believe she was a captive of the enemies' side now. She tried to stay strong but as the weeks went by, with no news as to anyone coming to save her, the willpower to be strong and live was slowly slipping away.
She stared at the cold food on the plate in front of her as she gently pushed it around with her chopsticks. She knew Ulquiorra would get mad if she didn't eat her food. He was like a robot, always saying the same things over and over again.
"You have to eat, Woman. This is not for you but because Aizen needs you to be healthy. If you don't eat it, I will force it down your throat."
She remembered the first time he gave the threat. He actually gave her three options then, eat it herself, get it forced down her throat, or strap her down and set up an I.V. He never again gave that third option and she wondered if it was because he really despised her or just thought the threat of choking her to eat would work more.
Never-the-less, she really didn't feel like eating today. She had been feeling a little weak lately and she wondered if the reason was because she was feeling lonely. She spent most of her days locked up in a small room with no sunlight. The only thoughts that kept her company were ones of how her friends thought she betrayed them by her own will and the mixed emotions of hurt and love for them.
The door to her room squeaked open and in walked Ulquiorra. He took one glance at her plate and then turned his full attention to her.
"Woman," he said in his usual tone, "I thought we went over this."
Orihime sighed while relaxing back on the couch. "Yeah, yeah, I need to eat it or you will force it down my throat."
She didn't dare to look in his direction after talking back so she kept her attention to her hand that slowly traced circles on her stomach. It had gotten much smaller even though she ate all the food they gave her.
"If you know, then why aren't you eating it?"
There was a bit of silence for a while. Orihime wasn't sure if she should just tell him the truth or lie to him and say she would eat it. Over time she had learned that, while Ulquiorra was a dangerous man and could kill her in an instant, he most likely wouldn't do much to harm her as long as Aizen wanted her alive. He was probably the only one she felt most comfortable around, and that wasn't saying much because that bar was set really low.
The thought that Aizen might send someone else to take care of her because Ulquiorra couldn't get her to eat crossed her mind and she made her decision.
"I will eat it," she finally managed to say sitting up and grabbing her chopsticks. "I was just taking my time today."
Ulquiorra kept looking at her as if to say he didn't believe her but he said nothing more and turned to leave, shutting the door behind him.
Once again she was left in complete silence but something wasn't the same. It was like the weight of the world finally crushed down on her and she didn't know exactly what emotion was trying to come out. It was all too much for her that she ended up throwing up.
After puking her guts up she started to feel a little better, but the tears finally began to flow. "What is wrong with me?" she said in exasperation.
Then she laid back down on the couch exhausted mentally and physically, passing out cold.
Ulquiorra stood outside of the captive's room for awhile after he had come out. He felt that something wasn't right with her. She looked to be getting weaker and thinner even though she was eating the food.
He thought about the possibilities of her finding a way to hide the food, but then realized it would have been impossible to do that. Then he wondered if it had to do with her surroundings.
Really though, he couldn't care less about her wellbeing. But at the moment her life was his life, and if he couldn't accomplish such a simple mission as keeping her alive then he knew that Aizen would see him as worthless and possibly dismember or kill him.
Thinking about it was starting to get him annoyed. He couldn't believe how weak humans could be.
Just as he was about to leave he heard a strange noise come from the captive's room. He had a feeling the next few days were going to be even more annoying as he opened to the door to see what was going on.
There he saw Orihime passed out on the huge white couch and the evidence of what had happened.
When she woke up her vomit had been cleaned up and Ulquiorra was in her room. She wished he would show emotion in his voice or his face so she could at least guess if he was mad with her or not. It was always safer for her to decide that he was though.
"I'm sorry," she blurted out, but it didn't come out as strong as she had hoped. It cracked with the dryness of her throat.
"You're testing my patience, Woman. Did you do that just to spite me?" He walked closer to her, reaching the side of the couch in no time.
Orihime backed herself into the couch as much as she possibly could. She was terrified of what he would do. She still felt a little sick and didn't think she could handle him forcing food down her throat. "No! I didn't do it on purpose. I swear!" Tears began to fill up her eyes but she forced herself to keep them in check.
That's when another wave of nausea hit and the bitter aftertaste of vomit grew prominent in her mouth. "Uuuhhhh... I think I'm going to be sick again."
Ulquiorra just stood there as she puked a second time right at his feet.
She didn't know what she was expecting him to do - yell at her, run away, or hold her hair back (or not). His emotionless stare should have been expected but the words that came out of his mouth weren't.
"Humans are so disgusting."
Okay, maybe they should have been. Orihime decided she was too tired to even glare at him, so after grabbing the glass of water and rinsing her mouth, she laid back down on the couch and turned her back to him.
"You expect us to clean this up again."
Orihime said nothing.
"Fine, but you will regret this." He motioned for some servants to come in and take care of the mess. As he was walking out of the room he said, "Get her something to throw up in this time." There was a click of the door and he was gone.
Orihime flipped over and watched the servants clean. She felt a little sorry for them but wasn't going to say anything because they would just be rude.
Weeks went by but Orihime wasn't eating much. She finally stopped throwing up most of her food but she knew she wasn't eating nearly enough to try and get her healthy.
Ulquiorra would now stay in her room and watch her eat to make sure she would swallow something, but he always seemed very unhappy about being there. The only way she could tell was because he would verbally complain about it all the time.
It was almost time for him to bring her food again. She really wasn't looking forward to it because she got the sinking feeling that he was losing patience with her. She knew even Aizen was getting annoyed because she was too weak to be of any use. She felt her time of being alive was very limited now.
The door to her room swung open in a big hurry and Ulquiorra came storming in with a plate full of food.
Orihime's eyes got big. She knew it, no more nice... well, nicer Ulquiorra.
"You will eat all of it this time, Woman. Then you will take a bath. You reek like the trash you are."
This time Orihime felt like talking back. She didn't know what was coming over her. Maybe it was the fact that she felt she was going to die soon anyway, or maybe she was just letting out some of her steam on him even if she knew it was going to come with great consequences.
"I will not be able to finish all that no matter what you say and I don't feel like taking a bath. What does it matter to you how I smell? I'm sure there are plenty of Arrancars around here that smell a whole lot worse."
Just when she thought she was done she added, "And I'm not trash."
That's when she saw it, an actual flicker of emotion in his eyes and she began to regret what she had done already. He was beyond angry and was probably doing all that he could to not kill her right then.
He walked up to her and grabbed her by the arm, pulling her up from the couch with great force. She winced at the slight pain and knew it was probably going to leave a bruise. She tried to keep him from dragging her across the room but her attempts were futile. His strength was so much more.
Knowing she was in for something big, Orihime finally had to ask, "What are you going to do to me?"
Instead of answering her, Ulquiorra grabbed her body and picked her up like a bag of potatoes. Then he opened the door to her cell and walked along the long corridors.
Annoyed for being ignored and manhandled she started to squirm and squeal. "Put me down! I can walk on my own!"
"If you don't shut up, Woman, I'm going to knock you out cold."
Orihime immediately stopped squirming. She didn't think being unconscious would be a good idea at the moment. She had no idea where he was taking her or what he was going to do. She sighed and tried to make herself as comfortable as possible. It was a futile attempt since she had no place to put her arms. She was tempted to just let her arms and legs hang down like she was dead but thought against it when she noticed other Arrancars around giving them weird looks.
She sighed in annoyance that she wasn't even facing to the front. She wondered if he did that to keep her from seeing where she was going or if it just happened that way. Looking down she realized all she could see was his butt. For some reason this amused her and she started to think stupid thoughts like, 'I wonder if Arrancars have gas?' or 'It's tempting to smack it like Chizuru does mine all the time at school before Tatsuki knocks her out.'
Just when she was about to giggle she smelled something nice. It was a clean smell and she wondered if it was soap or something else. She could never tell in a place like this.
Then he stopped and Orihime wondered what was going on. She heard the swinging of a door and then they started to walk again.
The room was steamy and the smell got a lot stronger.
Finally it dawned on her what was about to happen so she began to squirm again. To her surprise he let her go, but it was right into the water, clothes and all.
"Clean up or have me clean you up," he told her as if it wasn't already obvious what he wanted her to do.
Orihime stared at him, feeling weird being soaked with hot water in her clothes. "Great, what am I going to wear now?"
Instead of answering her, like usual, he just glanced to the side which brought her attention to something white draped over a chair. It looked similar to the outfits they wore and she sighed, realizing how much more she was going to look like a traitor.
After time she noticed that Ulquiorra was not leaving the room. "Um, are you planning to watch me?"
He glared at her and said, "I have to make sure you really clean yourself."
Orihime sighed in frustration. "Well as long as you stay in here I won't start."
Once again she saw a flicker of emotion go through his eyes and she started to wonder if it was really anger or if it was something else.
"Look Woman," he said as he bent down to get closer to her face, "I'm giving you two options, bath yourself or have me do it. This is not negotiable. Be glad that you actually have two choices. I won't repeat myself again."
Orihime wasn't going to back down. There was no way she wanted to wash in front of him and if she was going to have to be naked in front of him she was going to make him work and not just watch.
"No." She crossed her arms to try and give it more of an affect. "I might be a captive here but that doesn't mean I have to humiliate myself by doing something so private in front of someone."
"Fine then, Woman." Ulquiorra walked up to her and ripped the shirt she had on in an instant.
Orihime gasp as she saw her school uniform fall to shreds in the water then quickly covered her front and turned away. "Okay! Just, could you please turn around?"
"I have no reason to listen to any of your requests. What makes you think I care about anything you want?" Ulquiorra began to reach for her but then noticed she was shaking.
Confused, he pulled back his hand and wondered why on earth she would be shaking when she was in warm water. He knew he didn't feel the same senses as humans but he was pretty sure the water was a good temperature. Closing his eyes, he knew his next move was going to be something he would regret. "Fine. I will leave, but you only have five minutes before I come back." And with that he walked out of the room, shutting the door behind him.
As soon as he was gone Orihime rushed to peel off the rest of her clothes and lather up soap in her hair. She was really grimy and even though she resisted the bath in the first place it was actually really nice getting to clean up. She was even feeling a little better because of it.
When she felt she was as clean as she could get in a short amount of time, she hopped out of the water and started to dry herself off with a towel she saw hanging on the wall. Then she quickly grabbed the outfit on the chair. At first she was a little confused as to how it was suppose to go but it wasn't long before she realized which way was front and which way was back.
Thankfully she was used to having to get dressed quickly after taking a shower. She got plenty of practice when she was running late to school.
Just like Ulquiorra said, he was back in five minutes, but what shocked her most was that he knocked first.
"I'm coming in," he said as he opened the door.
Orihime turned to face him with a look of appreciation. She knew he wasn't going to care if she was happy he was actually considerate for once, but she felt she wanted to let him know anyway. "Thank you for knocking."
He said nothing as he stared at her for a few seconds.
She started to get anxious when it had been well over a minute and he still hadn't said or done anything. Just when she was about to ask him something, he spoke.
"That surprisingly suits you."
Orihime was stupefied. She wasn't sure she should be glad he said that or not. On one hand it was kind of a compliment, but on the other hand it was saying she suited the role of a traitor and actually belonged there.
Ulquiorra was actually serious in what he said. He was glad to see her in something that covered her up. It gave her a more mature look, compared to that silly short skirt she was wearing before. Noticing her quiet state he decided they had more than enough time in the bathing room.
"Come," he said motioning for her to follow him out the door.
She did as she was told and quietly followed him back to her cell. She didn't really want to go back but she was glad the he was letting her do her own walking this time. She figured that she earned a little more trust after cleaning up so quickly.
As she neared the room she started to feel really weak. She stumbled a bit and slowed in her step. She now had a strong urge to get to the room and lay down and she wondered if the way she was feeling now was because of all the excitement she had.
Ulquiorra noticed her falling behind and turned just in time to see her stumble. "What is wrong with you, Woman? The walk isn't that long."
When she looked up at him he noticed the dullness in her eyes and the heaviness of her breathing. Then he looked around and noticed all the smirks and evil looks she was getting from the other Arrancars. Figuring it would be bad for her to pass out in front of all of them like this he quickly went over to her and picked her up.
Orihime would have struggled if she had the strength, she couldn't believe she was being carried again, but she was thankful that he wasn't carrying her like a bag of potatoes this time. It was a little awkward though, being held like a child or more like a bride but she didn't have much time to feel awkward about it because it wasn't long before she fell asleep.
It had been two weeks since her bathing incident and Orihime really wasn't doing well. She didn't have much of an appetite and when she did eat something she would sometimes throw it up. It was like her body was giving up on her even though she was trying so hard to fight it.
Feeling exhausted Orihime slowly rose up from the couch. She felt a bit dizzy but knew Ulquiorra was going to be in soon so she didn't want to be laying down still. She took a look at her arm and noticed that the small bruise was already starting to fade. She was quite surprised when she saw how small the bruise was after she thought for sure it would be something big and painful. It made her realize just how much he held back his strength in dealing with her.
Just on time she heard a light knock on the door and then the squeak that signaled he was opening it and saw Ulquiorra walk in. He had a bowl in his hand she figured he was going to make her eat.
Her stomach flipped at the thought of eating and she knew it wasn't going to stay down. Tired of throwing up, she was going to do her best to keep from having to eat it.
Ulquiorra walked up to her and put the bowl in her face. "Eat this now."
Orihime shook her head back and forth. He brought the bowl closer to her face and she turned her head away.
"I can't." Orihime was desperate. "Please don't make me."
"I don't care about what you want. Eat it or I will force it down your throat." Ulquiorra grabbed her head and forced her to look at it.
Orihime eyes began to water up and out of instinct she screamed and flung her hands up, knocking the bowl out of his hands and spilling it all over the floor.
She sat very still knowing that was a big mistake on her part.
Ulquiorra turned and left but right before he slammed the door behind him he said, "This isn't over, Woman."
Orihime stared at the mess on the floor and feared what he was going to do next.
Ulquiorra was completely annoyed and frustrated that he wasn't able to stop her from knocking the bowl out of his hand. He had gotten careless thinking she would be too weak to put up much of a fight.
"It seems she is giving you more problems than you expected."
Ulquiorra turned his attention towards the voice and saw Ichimaru Gin. "Ridiculous."
Gin moved his body in front of Ulquiorra to keep him from leaving. "Oh?" he said in a questioning voice. "I thought you went in there with a bowl and now you have come out with a new little stain on your outfit. It seems to me she didn't eat it like you instructed." He began to give a little cackle knowing it would annoy the arrancar more.
To his dismay, Ulquiorra didn't give him much of a response. "And your point is?"
Gin bent over closer to his face as if he was going to tell him a secret. "Oh nothing... it's just, I think I know of the perfect way to get her to eat that."
Ulquiorra wasn't sure he wanted to hear it but he knew that Gin wasn't going to leave him alone unless he heard him out. "Fine. What is it?"
Gin let out another cackle and cracked open one of his eyes. He bent all the way over to Ulquiorra's ear and whispered some stuff into it.
Ulquiorra listened carefully wondering why he had to whisper in the first place but figured he was just trying to get more entertainment. He wasn't too comfortable with having the snakelike man so close to him though.
As he was listening to what he had to say his frown got deeper. He had to be kidding. But once he was done telling him, Ulquiorra could see that he was seriously giving him that option.
"What do you think?" Gin was now fully smirking.
"I think that is disgusting," Ulquiorra said in a dead pan voice.
"Really? Well, do what you want but I have a feeling my method will be the best way." After saying that, Gin turned to leave.
Ulquiorra stood there and watched him leave, thinking he was probably right. Then he internally cursed himself knowing what he had to do and couldn't believe he was actually going to listen to Gin.
Orihime didn't move much after Ulquiorra left. She wished she could find a hiding place. It made her feel like she was a little kid trying to run away from her parents trying to make her eat vegetables.
She stared at the door waiting for Ulquiorra to come storming back in with rope or something.
She was half right. He opened the door with great force showing that he was not happy, but he didn't have any rope in his hand. Instead he just had another bowl filled with the stuff he was trying to get her to eat. She was confused, wondering how he planed to make her eat it.
It wasn't long before he reached the side of the couch and looked down at her.
Then he did something unexpected. He took the bowl and put it up to his mouth, taking in a mouth full of the liquid. She watched in awe, wondering if Arrancars could eat, but then she noticed something even odder. He wasn't swallowing it.
She felt his grip on her arm as he pulled her up. Then he grabbed her chin and tilted her head up and did something that shocked her to no end. He placed his lips on hers and forced her mouth open; dropping the contents of the stuff he had just put in his mouth into hers. With no way to escape she swallowed the bitter tasting liquid.
Her eyes were wide open the whole time and so were his so she had to stare into his green, emotionless eyes. Keeping his hold on her arm he took another mouth full of the contents and repeated his actions.
Orihime was in too much shock to give much of a reaction. She couldn't believe this was his way of forcing her to eat.
He continued these actions until all the contents in the bowl were gone. Then he let go of her arm and let her fall back into the couch.
That is when she noticed she was starting to feel very light headed and could hardly keep her head up. As she began to fall over she managed to ask, "What did you give me?"
She didn't think he was going to answer but just before she was out she could have sworn she heard him say, "Medicine."
Orihime eyes slowly stirred open with a grogginess that made her wish she wasn't waking up yet. Feeling an odd sensation on her arm she tried to lift it but it wouldn't budge. Confused, she looked around and noticed she wasn't lying on the white couch, instead she was on something that reminded her of the nurse's bed at school. That was when the memories of what happened before she passed out came flooding back. She tried to sit up quickly in fear, but a strong hand was holding her down.
"Careful now, you wouldn't want to rip that out of your arm."
Orihime looked in the direction of the voice and froze in fear, sitting on a chair next to her bed with a grin, was Gin. Terrified of what was going on, she looked at her left arm that felt weird and saw it was being tied down and a needle was sticking out of the place where her arm bent.
While she was trying to figure out what was going on, Gin decided to continue, "You see, if you move and the needle jerks that machine gets really noisy. Plus, you wouldn't want to rip your pretty skin."
Orihime turned her attention back to Gin and shuddered at the look on his face. "What's going on?"
"That's an I.V. Your arm is strapped down to keep you from jerking it in your sleep."
Orihime looked around the room, expecting to see a certain someone but never did. "Where is Ulquiorra?"
Gin's grin got even bigger if that was even possible. "Why do you care, he is just another monster who is being told to look after you? Is my company really that bad?"
For some reason, Orihime felt a little anger at his comment about Ulquiorra. She racked her brain to try to figure out why, but the only thing that kept coming to mind was the feeling of his cool lips on her and the piercing stare when she was so close to him.
Instead of answering his question, she did what he did, by answering his question with another question - although she knew it wouldn't make him happy.
"Where is he?" Her voice was sore so it hurt to try and talk with force.
Gin's smile faltered, but only a little bit. Most people probably wouldn't have noticed but Orihime knew it was safer to pay full attention to her enemies' mood swings.
"He is out on a mission."
Orihime said nothing to this. She hoped that he would get the hint and leave but he did no such thing.
"So, how was it?"
Orihime blinked in confusion. "What?"
"The kiss. You know, it was my idea."
Her stomach flipped and her mind raced. So, the only reason he did that was because Gin gave him the idea and now everyone would probably know about it? The idea of it all didn't sit well with her.
"Did it feel like a brush with death? I can only imagine what it would feel like to be kissed by a monster."
There it was again, the slight anger at the mention of calling Ulquiorra a monster, but this time she knew why. It was because it was Gin calling him the monster, which she found very ironic.
"That's funny." She finally replied to his taunting.
It was obviously a reply he wasn't expecting because he looked a little taken aback.
"You, of all people, calling someone else a monster?"
Gin sat back in his seat and his grin got wider. "Oh? Why do you say that?"
Orihime turned her head away from him. She didn't want to see any more evil looks from his face.
"While it is true that Ulquiorra is not human he is only acting on orders and never seems to do anything just for pleasure."
"Wouldn't you call that a monster?" Gin asked, but seemed very interested still.
"I'm not finished." Orihime stated blankly.
"Ulquiorra was once a human, that can't be forgotten. He was a human who was hurt in some way because no human becomes a hollow by choice, whether it is loss of sanity or forced into it. But you - you're not a hollow, yet you do these cruel things and you follow a man who is as evil as the Devil himself." She paused, expecting him to do something about what she was saying, but kept her head turned away.
"So, in that respect doesn't it seem that you are more of the monster while Ulquiorra is just a victim in your little game?"
It was very quiet after that and Orihime was beginning to sweat nervously. She wondered why she had to be such a big mouth and tell him all that.
"You're right. Perhaps, I am the monster."
She wasn't expecting that answer at all.
"It sounds like you pity Ulquiorra though. I doubt he would enjoy knowing that when it is you who should be pitied."
Orihime's minded racked at the thought of pitying an Arrancar. It couldn't be possible, right? She was the captive but when she thought about it wasn't Ulquiorra a captive as well? It was all so confusing, but it helped her to realize something, that she wasn't really afraid of Ulquiorra and that alone was enough to keep her confused.
Tired of looking at the blank wall she turned her attention back towards Gin and regretted it. He had such an evil smirk with a terrible glint in his slightly opened eyes. "I like you Orihime-chan. You have some guts considering your position… or maybe I should call it a death wish."
Orihime swallowed hard but couldn't turn away from the crazy gleam showing in Gin's eyes.
Before she knew it, Gin was completely back to normal, well, what was normal for him, and stood up. "You should get some rest now. You don't want to be hooked up to that thing forever." Then he left, with a small chuckle.
Orihime breathed a sigh of relief. She could have sworn she just lost some of her life span with that conversation. The stress of it all had made her feel really sleepy, so she closed her eyes and prayed she would have sweet dreams.
To be continued…