A/N: Okay, so I wrote this because I was re reading New Moon and I found that I was really pissed at Bella for the way she reacted. Also I had to go see a counsellor recently (it's part of my course) and for some reason we got talking about a break up I had a few years ago…and these two things made me thing that Bella should be more angry, then I thought about Jacob…and well this is what happened. It's a little extreme but I sort of wanted to see where it will go. Tell me your thoughts because I'm not all that sure whether it's worth pursuing or not. Bella seems quite a lot OOC but there is a reason.
English people, think a bit like Effie from Skins, but angrier and with less girlie friends.
Also the song lyrics are terrible, but you get the point of them.
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight. Or Skins.
He isn't going to like this. Rosalie's thoughts came to Edward, with a mixture of fear and a certain amount of reluctant awe coming through in her thoughts, and he went downstairs to see what was going on.
Quick he's coming. Alice. He sped up. By the time he got to the living room his family were all standing around the television, yet it was switched off. All of them had a very neutral look, too neutral.
"What's going on?" Edward asked.
Leave it Edward. Alice pleaded with him. Just leave it alone now.
He went around his family reading each of their thoughts. Some were more controlled than others: Esme was keeping this secret, but was incredibly worried about him, Jasper was focusing on Alice's face, Emmett seemed to be the only one that was very amused by whatever was happening, and there was a little bit of surprised pride about it, Carlisle's mind was blank and Rosalie didn't really seem to care all that much, staring out the window and wondering whether her family was ever going to stop with this annoyance.
He grabbed the remote from Rosalie's hands and clicked on the TV. It was on a music channel, and his smooth forehead wrinkled as he tried to make sense of this. None of his family moved, but they had all shouted a mental 'No!' as he had switched on the TV.
"Going back to our main story today," the music newsreader was saying "the hot new act on the circuit 'Once Bitten Never Shy' are exploding onto the scene with their single 'Not waiting'. Their outrageous bad girl lead singer Bella Swan already hitting the headlines with crazy stunts such as coming onto stage via motorcycle through a flaming ring and her offstage on again off again relationship with notorious bad boy and bassist for the band boyfriend Rob Norton. I'm not sure what we'll be seeing from this new band but I can say at least from me, I'm excited, and this is not the last we'll be hearing from them. That's the news, and here's a sneak peek of their new video for their new hit single 'Venom'.
The screen went black, and then there was a heavy bass beat, followed by drums. The scene slowly began to appear, with Bella standing in a room full of mirrors, and it horrified Edward when he recognised the scene that she was recreating.
I doubt you would
Even if I thought you could
It's all your fault
But you already knew that.
Edward noticed that she was wearing a very short plaid skirt and tights with holes in. She wore a black tank top that was ripped so high that Edward could see flashes of her blood red bra, and her hair was cropped into a short bob, dyed black with a multitude of colours in it. She was wearing heavy make up and her lip and nose were pierced. Fury ripped through him at the idea of his Bella showing off so much of her body just to everyone: he'd never seen so much of her before, even late at night in her room.
Ice cold skin
Kisses like a lunar eclipse
You'll never guess
The venom hiding just behind those lips
As she sang this bit she threw herself into the mirrors, and they smashed as she came into contact with them. As she fell to the floor, she camera was suddenly above her, lying in the broken glass.
You're a monster
But not in the way you think
I feel so used
Was I nothing but a meal to you?
There was a quick flash of the next part of the video, where a man appeared, and there was a close up on his blood red eyes, but then the video faded and the newsreader was back.
"It looks great doesn't it?" She grinned, and wrapped up the programme. Edward had seen enough. He looked around at his family, and saw from their thoughts that they hadn't heard the song before, either.
"That bitch!" Rosalie stood up. Edward shot her a warning growl. "Edward, can't you see what she's doing? She's pissed off we left and she's going to expose us! You can't tell me that song didn't have any familiar qualities to it?"
"Although I don't agree with the sentiment." Carlisle shot a disapproving look at Rosalie. "It has to be said, she does seem to be trying to catch our attention, Edward."
"Yeah, I sort of got that." Edward frowned. Above all else, he was worried about the idea that Bella was in a relationship with a notorious bad boy. What the hell does she think she is doing?
It was like a punch in the gut, her words were hardly subtle, and the meaning behind them was clear: the love of his life hated him. He'd fucked her up in a major way. It had been years since he saw her. Six to be exact and everyday had felt exactly like the first. It was the worst thing about being a vampire: emotions just wouldn't change.
"You've got to deal with this, Edward." Rosalie stood close to him, her perfect face incandescent with beauty. "You've got to stop her."
"I know." Edward said, staring at the TV screen.
"Fuck!" Bella wiped her nose and came up from the table, picking up her cigarette. Rob grinned.
"You like that baby?" He asked.
"That's some good shit." She answered, shaking her head to clear her thoughts.
"Yeah, I know." Rob grabbed her hair and kissed her roughly. Bella kissed him back and then pushed him away.
"I've got to go." She told him.
"Aw baby, don't say that, I was thinking we could have a night in." He pouted, and then crawled back onto her.
"Not tonight." Bella told him, pushing him off again. "I've got stuff to do."
"Just fucking stuff! Things I have to do." Bella told him. "You can't come either so don't ask."
"Why not?" Rob was getting angry.
"For one thing it's going to be fucking sunny tomorrow!" Bella reminded him, gesturing out of the window. "For another thing I don't want you to come."
"Fine but I'm going to find out your secrets." Rob told her. "Love you Bells."
"Fuck off." Bella told him. "I'll see you tomorrow after the sun sets. We've got a gig."
"Yeah yeah I remember." Ron muttered. "Fuck off to your fucking secrets."
Bella had put her coat on, not that it covered much more of her than her top did. She stood by her car on the side of the road by some woods, getting more and more impatient.
"Bella." A small voice come from the woods.
"I won't bite you." She told him. "You can come out of the trees."
"Did you bring some clothes with you?"
"Fuck Jacob it's not like I haven't seen it all before." She reached into the backseat of her car and grabbed a bag, throwing it into the shadows. A minute later a clothed Jacob appeared. "Now what do you want? I haven't spoken to you since I left that deadbeat town."
"Everyone is worried about you, Bella. Seth and Leah are trying to help your dad out but he's devastated."
"Is that all?" Bella rolled her eyes. "For god sake Jacob don't you think I know? You'd think he'd be happy, he's got new kids who aren't fuck ups now." She shuddered to think that Seth and Leah were her step siblings.
"Then what the hell do you think you are doing?" Jacob was angry. Bella rolled her eyes again, unperturbed.
"I'm living my life, Jacob. I'm living it for me and I'm having fun. You should be proud of me."
"Bella, this isn't the only way."
"Oh, you sound just like my mother you know that? Everyone was all like 'Bella you need to go out and start living life' so I did and now everyone is pissed at me!" She walked away for a second, and spread her arms out. "You really should all be proud of me! I'm a success! My new single is going to be a number one hit just like my last one! I have the whole fucking world at my feet! I can do anything you're all bitching because I did it without any of you!"
"Bella, your songs are too risky." Jacob told her. "You're going to provoke someone."
"Like I care." Bella scoffed. "I write about my feelings, and I have a lot of those."
"But you're going to expose them." Jacob told her. "I was the one that told you about them, so you'll be breaking the treaty. You might get them in trouble, singing about your love-"
Bella was in his face, bearing her teeth. "I. Fucking. Hate. Edward. Cullen." She hissed at him. "Got it?" Jacob hung his head. "I'll sing about whatever I want, you had your chance, and you weren't so concerned about his feelings a few years ago when you were fucking my brains out every night of the week."
"No, you wanted to talk, we talked." Bella told him. "I thought you were different, I thought you understood."
"I did understand." Jacob told her. "When it was driving motorcycles, and when it was getting off our faces on booze, but not when you're taking drugs and fucking strangers!"
Bella nodded. He was still pissed about that, it wasn't even like they were still together anymore when she did that. She was twenty one and she went to a bar and went home with someone, big deal. It happened to have been the best thing that ever happened to her, she got a record deal out of that night.
"Let it go, Jacob." Bella told him. "I'm going now, I've got stuff to do."
"Yeah I bet." He growled.
"You're one to talk, Jacob Black." She accused. "I've see some of the stupid shit you and your pack pull, at least you have people that understand you. That actually care whether you're happy or not."
"Would I be here if I didn't care?" Jacob snapped.
"No, if you cared you'd be at a bar with me living the good life, not sulking in the shadows trying to drag me off to somewhere I was miserable!"
"I want you to come home where people want to know you're safe!" Jacob told her. "People who love you!"
"Yeah?" Bella was angry, she approached him again. "People who love me, yeah? Like you?" She walked up to him, placing her hand on his chest and looking into his eyes. "You want to reignite things, then, Jake?" She looked around. "We're alone, come on, no one will notice." She grabbed him, running her hands over his arse and inhaling deeply. "No one has to know Jake, and you can take me right here, just like old times."
"Bella." Jacob said her name firmly, and held her away from him. "You know I can't."
"Oh yeah." Bella said, furious with him now. "That's right, you've got the fucking love of your life waiting for you at home, don't you?" She shook her head. "Good for you, Jake. Some of us aren't so lucky."
"Bella, please I still care about you!" Jacob told her. "You know it wasn't my fault! If I had the choice you know what would have happened!"
"Yeah, but where does that leave me?" Bella shouted at him. "You want me to come home, and watch you and your wife, and watch Charlie and his new wife, and everyone being perfectly fine without me? You want me to be miserable in a place where no one really needs me?" Bella shook her head. "I don't regret leaving, I'm living my own life and I'm doing well, thank you, I've got nice cars and nice houses and I can go, do, say and be anything I want."
"We both know that this isn't what you want." Jacob growled.
"You don't have the right to say that anymore." Bella told him.
"Are you high right now?" Jacob asked her, horrified.
"Fuck off Jacob." Bella ran to her car and slammed the door shut, the tires screeching as she drove off.