I woke up quickly. It was Sunday and Edward was gone hunting. I would see him tomorrow. After I showered and dressed I went down stairs and went outside to check the mail. On my doorstep was a Fed Ex box from mom. It was about mediumsized, I picked it up and it was sort of heavy. I then proceeded to the mail box and got out the letters and such and then I hurried back into the house. I opened the box slowly. What was inside were,

My pink Victoria secret pajamas, bless her.

A bunch of Video casset tapes

My pink jewlery box

My photo album

And a manilla folder that had pappers over flowing.

And a few walmart picture packages.

And a giant teddy bear.

I took the box to the living room and sat it down. I took one of the cassett tapes and put it in the VCR.

On screen.

A young Bella of about 10 years old was singing in the church choir.

"We sing a song in the sanctucary! We sing a song to give you the Glory! We sing our song to give you the praise and we will praise you for the rest of our days"! They sang. Young Bella stepped out from the choir stand and went to the she began to sing:

Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
and Who told the ocean you can only come this far?
and Who showed the moon where to hide 'til evening?
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?

Well I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives:
All of creation testifies
This life within me cry
I know my Redeemer lives, yeah.

The very same God that spins things in orbit
runs to the weary, the worn and the weak
And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken
They conquered death to bring me victory

Now I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within we cry
I know my Redeemer, He lives
To take away my shame
And He lives forever, I'll proclaim

That the payment for my sin
Was the precious life He gave
But now He's alive and
There's an empty grave.

And I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life within me cry
I know my Redeemer,

I know my Redeemer
I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
I know that I know that I know that I know that I know my redeemer lives
Because He lives I can face tomorrow
I Know I know
He lives He lives yeah, yeah I spoke with him this morning
He lives He lives, the tomb is empty,
He lives I gotta tell everybody

Everyone clapped.

The screen went blue. I turned it off. It was too hard. That was 7 years ago. I sobbed.. as I remebered. My little brother Aaron, he was four years old and my oldest brother Ryan was fourteen. They were both dead now.. I couldn't..stand it. My little brother would always stand up and clapp for me even though the song wasn't over. I sobbed even harder. I had never told any of the Cullen's about my brothers. I know Ryan would have loved Emmett...and Alice woudl have loved Aaron and he would have felt the same. Aaron would have been 11 and Ryan would have been 21..and now they could never be, it was all my fault. I sobbed even harder...It was all my fault that they were dead. Damn it mom! why did she have to send me this box. I thought I could forget but no. My past came back to kill me...how could I do this. I dug deeper into the box and pulled out the jewlery box...it was the same one Ryan gave me for my twelfth birthday.. Ir emeber, I promised Aaron a bird for his eleventh birthday. Now he would never get it. Damn it! I hate myself. I truly do. I cried all day looking through my items. By night fall I hadn't eaten at all. my stomach growled. I took the box upstairs and rested on my bed. I didn't even deserve to live. I shoved the box under my bed. I took my shoes off and threw it at the mirror on my wall.

"I hate you! I hate you!" I yelled at my reflection and I broke down into sobs again, "Im so sorry" I whispered again as I hugged the bear to my chest...I hate you so much, and that's exactly how Charlie found me that night, curled up in a ball with Aaron's teddy bear clutched to my chest.