Okay people, this is my first Twilight fanfic. No flames please.
It's post Eclipse, basically Bella catches Edward and Tanya together before the wedding. She ends it with him and heads of to New York to attend Columbia Uni. Bella will find herself and become comfortable within herself and there will be some surprises ahead when she finds out that her parents are also a part of the supernatural world. Bella and the Cullen's will reunite five years later, and we will see if our star crossed lovers are truly meant to be. Hehe. This is not a Edward/Tanya ship fic even though it might seem it ok. I'm 100% Bella/Edward fan, sorry. I do not own Twilight and there are some part of Bella and Edwards dialogue that belong to the people at One Tree Hill. Hehe, see if you can guess which parts. Ha!! Please review. I'll update faster lol.
At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Give or take a few. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just not facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good, and some are good struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world, six billion souls. And sometimes…. all you need is one. -One Tree Hill.
Looking into the full-length mirror I couldn't help but feel awed by my appearance. Yes, Alice had done well. I couldn't believe that in less than twenty minutes I would be Mrs. Isabella Marie Cullen. Edward and I had been having a rough couple of weeks, I felt as if he was pulling away from me. Alice said it was probably wedding nerves, I pushed it aside yet something still felt out of place. Rolling back my shoulders, I shrugged away the feeling of uneasiness. Edward had come to see me last night, professing his love for me, calming my fears. There was nothing to worry about, right?
Turning back to the mirror I ran my hands down my dress, smoothing the creases. I smiled warmly as I looked at the dress. It was a one-piece strapless, full skirt gown with corset closure. Embellished lace motifs decorated the bodice and the full tulle fairytale skirt, the light gold colouring giving it a real classic feel. Looking back at the clock, I saw it was almost time to go. Sighing lightly I slipped into my shoe's three inch heel's if you would believe, Alice finally won that battle I silently laughed to myself. Tying the ribbons into bows I straightened back up, took one last look in the mirror before heading for the door. It flew open before I had the chance to reach the handle, revealing a very excited and bouncing Alice. I laughed at her energy and drew into the embrace she had me in. She pulled away slightly and ran her small hand across one cheek, I smiled at her kind gesture.
"Are you ready Bella?" She asked sweetly.
"As I'll ever be." I replied.
Taking hold of my hands she lead my down the hallway. We had decided to hold the wedding ceremony at the Cullen's home, it was big enough and it would be the first one here. The ceremony would be held in the back garden under the trees then the reception would be in a marquee situated at the bottom end of the garden.
We made it to the second floor when I had a sudden feeling of dread, halting mid step I turned to face Alice.
"Alice, is Edward still in his room.?" I asked quietly my voice quivering slightly.
"Yes, I think he is. Why?" She replied cocking her head to the side looking confused.
"I just need to see him." I said.
"But you can't, it's bad luck." She exclaimed angrily.
"Alice please I really need to see him, otherwise I don't think I'm going to be able to do this." I looked at her pleadingly.
She sighed then pulled me into another embrace "Ok then, but hurry." She smiled.
I hugged her quickly before turning and heading to Edwards's room. I got there quickly not realising I had practically ran there. I reached for the handle and opened the door quietly. I stood frozen at the door, unable to move away from the horrific scene that was unfolding before my eye's.
The room filled with soft pants, and moaning as Edward and Tanya kissed passionately. She ran her hands up and down his back. Wrapping her creamy legs around his waist as he thrust into her slowly, she let out a breathy moan as he kneads her breast with his hand. Pulling her legs higher up his waist their movements became more frantic and erratic, his thrust became more aggressive and erotic moans filled the room.
A strangled cry escaped her lips and the two lovers froze in their movements. Their eye's locked, Edwards eye's met betrayal and fury. Finally finding the courage Bella swiftly turned on her heels and fled the room. Dashing down the staircase and out of the house, she braced herself against the door. She breathed in deep breaths, tears stung her eyes but she refused to let them fall. She felt the door nudge her slightly and she turned to see who it was. She gazed into a pair of topaz eye's that held pain, and regret. Edward tried to pull her to him into and embrace but she pushed him away.
"How could you?" She screamed at him.
"Bella let me explain please." He pleaded with her.
"What could you possibly have to say that could explain this." She said with such anger.
"I was scared to hurt you, ok. And I know that I sound pathetic right now but it's true. You want so much from me and I don't think that I'll ever be what you want. I know I promised to try with you but I am scared, scared I'll hurt you or worse kill you. But you don't seem to understand that. And Tanya was there for me she understood, we never meant for any of this Bella. I love you, it was a mistake. Please forgive me." His voice soft and pained at the start with an edge Bella knew only to well.
"So it's my fault now. You know what Edward that's bullshit. If you never meant for it to happen then you should have confided in me, explained to me what you were feeling." She bit out angrily.
"I've tried alright, but you never want to hear it. Through out this engagement it just seems like you've been waiting, waiting to push me away. I love you Bella, I just don't know how else to say it for you to believe me." He breathed out pain evident in his voice.
"How about not sleeping with someone else, damn it Edward. How about how you show it? I am not pushing you away Edward, I'm holding on for dear life! But I need you to need me back; why wouldn't you tell me about your fears and why won't you ever let me all the way in." She screamed at him, pushing at his chest as hot tears cascaded down her porcelain cheeks.
"I can't be Tanya for you Edward. I'm human and breakable, I make mistakes and I'm stubborn but I love you. So much that it hurts. And I get that you were scared of hurting me Edward, but I trusted you enough not to after everything. And I get fear I do, because I always feel that I'm not enough that I'll never be enough for you. And you proved me right Edward. I gave you my heart, my whole heart. That's all that I can give to you, and if that's not enough….then I'm not enough for you." She told him sadly her voice filled with emotion.
"Bella…" He croaked, he tried to reach for her but again she shrugged out of his way. Looking up she met his eyes, her chocolate eye's filled with deep pools of pain.
"I love you Edward Cullen, and I probably always will but I can't keep doing this. It's suffocating me, I can't breath anymore." She whispered, reaching for him she brushed her soft lips to his cheek before pulling away. With one last glance she fled to Phil's Mercedes, thanking for small mercies that her step dad had left his keys in the ignition. Stepping down on the gas she fled away from the Cullen's, away from Edward and away from his betrayal.
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytaleI'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me wellThis is a big world, that was a small townThere in my rear view mirror disappearing nowAnd its too late for you and your white horseNow its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now.
White Horse - Taylor Swift.