Category - Series
Rating - M
Setting - AU reality
Characters/Pairings - Dean, Sam, OFC, John, Bobby, Dean/OFC
Spoilers - Seasons 1 - 3
Summary - Dean and Sam's lives have always been a little difficult, and now with Dean's pregnant girlfriend thrown into the mix, life is about to get a lot more interesting for the Winchester brothers.
Notes - Third installment of the 'Colored lights' series. Please read the first two stories 'How Life Should Be' and 'Connection'. I have added in some of my favorite storylines from seasons 2 and 3, and added a twist to them. However these are not in the same order as they are in the show but I think it works. I've tried to put some more, um, smut in this story so some chapters will have a higher rating that others, but I will let you know at the start of these chapters. ENJOY!
Disclaimer - All things relating to the Supernatural series it the property of Eric Kripke. No copyright infringement is intended.
EXPECTING CHAPTER ONE - COMING TO TERMS
CHAPTER ONE - COMING TO TERMS
Dean heard Sam shout but refused to open his eyes, or loosen his hold on Pepper. He wanted to get his head around the situation properly before he dealt with his brother, father and of course Bobby. For the moment though all Dean could do was try to make Pepper comfortable. He'd always felt like that, as if he needed to protect her even though she was one of the strongest women he had ever known. Dean sighed when he could hear the others moving closer to the Impala.
Well, the peace they received by being alone was nice while it lasted. Dean cracked open one eye and looked out of the window confirming that it was his Father, Bobby and Sam who were coming towards them and not some old pervert or young car jacker. Sighing once more, Dean opened his other eye and turned away from the window to look down at Pepper. He gently nudged her until she lifted her head up and opened her eyes.
"I think they may have noticed that we're no longer in the room." He joked with a forced smile on his lips as he tilted his head to the window.
Pepper leaned forward just slightly so that she could see past Dean's shoulders. She took in the three men heading their way and let out a long shaky breath. If Dean could, he would start the Impala and drive away, but then that would not help the situation. Besides, the added stress probably wouldn't be good for Pepper. See there he goes wanting to protect her again.
Dean cleared his throat and wound down his window when the others were close enough. He did not miss the fire of anger that still shone in Bobby's eyes, or the look of confusion mixed with shock in Sam's. John's expression and eyes were a lot harder to read to Dean. He did not look angry like Bobby, or confused like Sam. He looked...Well, Dean really wasn't sure and it really was not what he wanted to be thinking about right now.
Bobby moved a step closer and bent down just slightly so that he could get a look at Pepper.
"I think we should talk." He told her.
"Are we all done with the yelling and the physical violence?" Dean asked, trying to keep his voice calm and steady.
Bobby shot a glare towards Dean. He opened his mouth to say something, most likely some more threats towards Dean, when Pepper leaned forward and spoke cutting him off.
"Okay," She said quietly but quickly. "But...can we talk at home?"
Bobby nodded his head and stood up straight. Pepper sighed before getting out of the passenger side of the car. Bobby and John stepped back so that Dean could get out as well. All the while Bobby was sending just a hint of a glare towards Dean.
"Um," Pepper began, looking from Dean to Bobby and noticing the looks Bobby was giving Dean. "Granddad, I meant that we should all go and talk."
"What?" Bobby demanded, his gaze immediately finding hers.
"Please." She pleaded.
John watched Bobby and could tell that the older man wanted to protest this but instead he kept his mouth shut, most likely because he didn't want to upset his granddaughter or maybe he knew there would be no point in arguing.
A long silence stretched out in the group until after several minutes, Bobby spoke.
"I'll meet you back at the house." He told Pepper, before making his way over to his truck.
John looked intently at his eldest son and tried to get a feeling of what was going on inside of his head. While John had kind of planned for this to happen, and he knew that Dean would be a great father, he didn't know if this was something that Dean would immediately be in to or something that he'd have to get used to. Although the fact that he seemed to be possessive about Pepper gave a little hint.
Finally, John sighed. "I guess I'll see you when at Bobby's then." He turned and was about to head to his own truck when Sam's voice stopped him.
"You're gonna stay?" asked Sam.
John turned around very surprised by this. He was sure that his son's would know that with something this, huge, that he would stick around and be apart of it. Sure he had missed on so many things (too many to think about) but this was a baby! He would definitely be sticking around.
"For this, yeah." John replied simply before turning back around.
Sam nodded. He, Dean and Pepper waited until John had driven down the road after Bobby before any of them even moved let alone speak. Sam looked at the people in front of him and saw that they were just as shocked at this news as he was, probably even mores so.
"So, ah, we better grab our stuff." Sam suggested
Dean nodded and turned around to Pepper. "Do you want us to give you a ride?" He asked.
"No." She shook her head slowly, "I drove my car here, so I should probably drive it back."
Again, she nodded. Dean was still for a moment before he turned back to Sam and said, "Okay, come on, Sam."
Dean and Sam headed back to the motel room to get what little stuff they had in there. Sam was beginning to feel uncomfortable in the awkward silence that had engulfed them. He had so many questions that he wanted to ask Dean but he knew that he wouldn't get any answers, at least not now anyway.
By the time they finished, Pepper had already left and the sun was just setting. Everyone had been so wrapped up in what was going on that none of them noticed the time. Sam slipped quietly into the passenger seat after throwing his stuff in the trunk and waited for Dean. Dean got in and started the car with out a word.
"Dean?" Sam tried when they were on the road.
"Sam, just..." Dean snapped. He sighed and softened adding, "Just leave it, for now. Okay?"
Sam nodded and turned to look out the window.
The Impala pulled up outside of Bobby's house, next to John's truck and Pepper's car. It was now dark outside yet the moon and the stars gave off enough light so that Dean could see Pepper leaning against her car. He didn't know how long she had been waiting out here as he walked towards her. Sam slowly followed him but didn't get too close.
"Hey. Dad and Bobby inside?" Dean asked.
"Looks like it." Pepper nodded.
"Are you ready to go in?" He carefully asked her.
She let out a short breath, "guess I have to be don't I."
Dean gave a short nod before allowing her to lead the way up the stairs and to the front door.
Inside, Bobby and John were waiting for them in the living room. Both men standing on opposite sides of the room and it was clear that not one word had been spoken between them this whole time. No one looked ready for this conversation yet everyone knew that it could not be avoided.
"Um," Pepper began, biting her lower lip slightly.
"I'd really rather talk to you alone, Pepper." Bobby said tightly. "Afterwards Dean and--"
"--No, I..." Pepper sighed, "I'd rather have Dean here. If, if he wants to."
She turned to Dean, who smiled slightly and nodded. "I'll stay."
She needed him and Dean wasn't about to turn his back on her. He'd never seen her like this before. Bobby wasn't happy about this but kept his mouth shut.
"We'll go and wait outside." John suggested, "Come on Sam."
Sam quickly followed his father outside wanting to leave the house and the conversation that was about to take place there as soon as possible.
Outside, Sam moved and sat down on the porch steps while John remained standing at the bottom, leaning against the porch. Neither of them said anything because they didn't know what to say and each had too many thoughts running through their head to voice any of them.
John realized that he should have considered everyone else involved when he had thought about how great it would be to see that little granddaughter from his dream. Because really he had only thought of himself and Dean, or at least the Dean in the dream. Once he had found out that Pepper was Bobby's granddaughter, John should have thought about this scenario. He couldn't blame Bobby for being royally pissed at Dean, heck if it were John in Bobby's position he would be acting the same way.
John wished that he could just skip forward in time to when the baby was born. Just from the short dream he had had he knew that the baby would be able to melt all of their hearts. He tilted his head towards the house hoping to be able to catch a bit of what was being said inside but failed.
Sam leaned forward and placed his chin in his hands. He was trying to get his head around this. His brother was going to be a father, with Bobby's granddaughter...it just didn't seem real and Sam couldn't see a way that they'd be able to get used to it. He doubted that Dean would simply drop everything and become your typical husband and father with a steady job and a white picket fence. Then again, he really had no clue what Dean was going to do.
This was going to be a very long night.
"You wanted to talk, so, talk" Pepper said, as she prepared herself for what her grandfather might say.
By this point, the three of them had moved a little closer to the middle of the room, none of them feeling comfortable enough to sit down. Pepper stood with her arms folded protectively over her stomach and Dean stood just behind her and off to the side. He knew that while she wanted him there with her this was a conversation mostly for herself and Bobby.
"Alright." said Bobby. He took a deep breath and mentally tried to prepare what he wanted to say but after a moment, it didn't matter. "I just don't know how you two could be so stupid." Bobby blurted out.
"It's not like we planned for this to happen." Said Pepper. She paused, her eyes closed briefly and she sighed. When she opened her eyes again she looked back at Bobby. "Look, I know that we didn't really make the best choice here."
Bobby quickly turned on Dean. His face setting in anger once more. "I knew I should have kept you away from her right from the start. You may be a good hunter boy, but you're still like every other man out there who just wants a quick--"
"--It's not like that!" Dean snapped, interrupting Bobby.
Did Bobby really think that little of Dean, that he believed that Dean would use Pepper just for sex? Sure Dean had done this with some of the women he had met but he would never ever do it to Pepper.
"Anyway, Granddad, what could you have done?" Pepper asked. "Either way Dean and I probably would have been together regardless."
"You're a smart girl, Pepper." said Bobby, turning back to look at her. His eyes softened and Dean was glad that at least Bobby was directing all of his anger at him and not Pepper. "You should have known better." added Bobby.
"I know." Pepper agreed softly. She dropped her head and looked down at her feet.
Dean frowned as he watched her. She shouldn't need to feel like she should apologize to Bobby over something that really wasn't her fault (well it was but she still shouldn't apologize to Bobby for it).
"God," Bobby sighted suddenly in frustration. He ran a hand through his hair roughly. "I'm just so disappointed. I promised your mother when she died that I would look after you, and I let...this happen."
Pepper's head shot up and she looked at Bobby in disbelief.
"I can take care of myself" She snapped.
"Obviously you can't!" Bobby shouted.
"Look, this wont be as bad as you're making it out to be, Granddad. Yes it's going to be difficult for everyone involved but it's not like it's the end of the world." Pepper pointed out passionately. "I mean, Mum was only a few years older than I am now when she had me."
"Yes, but I didn't want you to ruin your life like that!"
Pepper's face immediately fell. Her mouth open slightly and her eyes grew wide with shock as she tried to blink away her tears which fell silently one by one down her cheeks.
Bobby looked at her and took in the full impact of his words. He felt like he had been stabbed in the gut as he watched his granddaughter cry because of him. While he was speaking, he hadn't realized what he was saying and once he did, he had already spoken and couldn't take it back.
"Are you..." Pepper paused and swallowed the lump forming in her throat. "Are you saying that I ruined my mother's life just by being born?" She asked her voice strained with emotion.
Dean watched Pepper helplessly. He never liked seeing women cry and he really didn't like seeing Pepper cry, especially if it meant that she was hurting in some way and by the look in her eye, Dean could tell that she was deeply hurt by what Bobby had said. Dean knew that he should say something but he couldn't find the right words. Apparently neither could Bobby, who was standing their speechless.
"Pepper, I...." Bobby tried but found that there was no way he could apologize enough for what he had said.
Pepper shook her head, turned and walked past Dean and out the door.
"Pepper?" Dean called after her but his only answer was the closing of the front door.
Dean stood silently and stared after her. He knew that he should go after her and see if she was all right but he couldn't just let Bobby get away with that without saying something. He spun around angrily towards Bobby, shooting a dangerous glare towards the older Hunter.
"I didn't mean that." Bobby mumbled mostly to himself.
It was as if he had forgotten that Dean was still in the house. Dean took one look at Bobby and knew that there was nothing he could say that would make Bobby feel any worse then how he was already feeling. Yet this didn't stop Dean from lashing out.
"Yeah, well you shouldn't have said it then, now should you?" Dean snapped.
"Don't use that tone with me." said Bobby, his anger taking over again. "You're still responsible for this. You got her pregnant. She wouldn't be in this mess if you hadn't hurt her."
"My god, Bobby!" Dean shouted angrily. He'd had enough by this point and no longer cared what Bobby would say or even do to him.
"What?" Demanded Bobby.
"You are such a hypocrite. You keep going on about how I've hurt Pepper, but in all the years that I've known her, I've never made her cry like that."
With that, Dean turned and stomped out the door leaving Bobby standing still, too shocked to say or do anything else.
As Dean stepped outside, he immediately noticed that Pepper's car was gone, which was not a good sign. He then saw his father and brother staring at him from the bottom of the porch stairs. Obviously, they had heard the last bit of yelling that had occurred between himself and Bobby, but Dean didn't know if they had heard what Bobby had said to Pepper.
"Dean, is, is everything okay?" Sam asked timidly, not wanting to get his brother more riled up if he could avoid it.
"Did you two see Pepper?" Dean asked, purposely ignoring his brother's question as he walked down the stairs.
"Yeah, we were standing here when she came out." Sam replied. "She seemed pretty upset-"
"-Of course she's upset!" Dean snapped. He quickly sighed and shook his head, "Sorry, Sam." After all, it wasn't Sam's fault that this was happening. "Do you know where she went?"
"We don't know, she didn't say. She just drove off."
"And you let her?" Dean asked turning on Sam. "If she was obviously upset than why did you let her drive!?"
"We did try to stop her, Dean." said John. "But there was nothing we could have done, or would you have preferred it if we'd tackled her to the ground and forced her to stay?"
"No, sir." Dean nodded. He paused and tried to collect his thoughts. He needed to find Pepper, fast, but he had no idea where to start looking.
"Son, why don't you go look for her." John suggested, bringing Dean out of his thoughts. "She went down that way," he pointed to the left. "I'm sure it wont take you long to find her."
"Right," again Dean just nodded.
"Sam and I will stay here. Maybe Bobby has an address book with numbers of Pepper's friends we can look at."
"Okay. Thanks dad."
John walked towards Dean and placed a strong hand on his shoulder, trying to reassure his son with just that gesture that things would work out. He squeezed Dean's shoulder once before stepping back and heading to the front door.
"Dad?" Dean called out hesitantly.
John had yet to tell Dean how he felt about this and it made Dean nervous not to know. Anything has huge as this was should have made John start yelling the way Bobby had but instead he just seemed eerily calm. Perhaps he was in shock and that was why, well that was the only explanation that Dean could come up with.
John sighed and turned to look at Dean. His hand just above the doorknob. "Just go and find Pepper, Son and we'll talk later."
Dean simply stood still and watched as his father walked into the house. When the door closed again, Dean shook his head and quickly made his way over to the Impala. He tried to ignore Sam, who was following him. He really didn't want Sam tagging along while he searched for Pepper, because when he found her there were things they needed to say to each other that no one, even Sam, should hear.
"Dean, maybe you should just give her some time alone." Sam suggested. "You know, give yourself some time to think as well."
"I can't do that right now."
Dean grabbed the door handle and pulled the drivers side door open, but Sam's hand shot out and grabbed the door from the other side, stopping Dean from opening it further and not leaving enough space for him to slip inside the car. Dean let go of the door and glared up at his brother.
"Come on, Sam. Let go!"
"Dean, you just found out that you're gonna be a father. Do you have any idea what you're going to do?" Sam asked. He needed some kind of answer to all the questions running around in his head. "Don't you think that you should take some time to think about this? I mean this thing changes everything--"
Suddenly, Dean grabbed hold of the door and used all of his strength to pull it from Sam's grasp and slam it shut. He took a menacing step towards Sam, giving him the filthiest look Sam had ever seen.
"It is not a thing, Sammy." Dean hissed angrily. "It's a baby."
Sam stepped back and gawked at his brother. Dean ignored him once again in favor of getting into the Impala and driving off, leaving Sam staring after him, mouth opened, and a bewildered look on his face.
Dean quickly glanced at the side view mirror and took in his brother. He shook his head and redirected his eyes to the road. He couldn't think about his brother right now. He needed to focus on Pepper so that he could find her. Pulling out his cell from his pocket, Dean quickly dialed her number and waited but all he heard was the recorded voice over telling him that the number had been switched off. He muttered a curse under his breath as his own phone gave a low beep signaling that its battery needed to be charged.
He tossed the phone onto the seat beside him and drove a little bit faster
When John entered the house, he found Bobby sitting on the sofa with his head in his hands. The older Hunter didn't even flinch when he heard the front door open and close. John carefully walked over to him.
"Pepper's taken off somewhere." He said. "Dean's gone to look for her."
Bobby grunted in response to Dean's name. He was still angry with Dean, and well all the Winchesters but at the moment, he was more angry with himself for what he had said to Pepper. He was meant to be the one person in her life that she could always count on no matter what, isn't that what he'd always told her when she was little? Now he didn't know if she would ever talk to him again. Dean was right, he was a hypocrite, and poor Pepper was taking the full hit of everything.
John sighed and looked around the room for a second. He didn't know what he should say.
"I do kind of understand how you feel, you know." John tried, hoping that this would cause another fight between them. He was getting too tired of fighting about this and they'd only known for one night.
"Do you? Really?" Bobby demanded, his voice dripping with sarcasm.
"Bobby, you're not the only one who's affected by this. Dean is my son and that means that I'm going to be a grandfather, whether I'm ready for it or not." There was a pregnant pause before John continued. "I never thought I'd live to see the day when I'd become a grandparent. This is a shock--"
Bobby scoffed and nodded his head in agreement.
"--But I have faith in Dean." John added. "I don't believe that he would do anything to hurt Pepper. And I think that both of them will be able to make the right decision about this."
'At least I hope they will' John added to himself.
"Do you have any idea where she might have gone?" John asked after several moments of silence. "Is there any place that she might go if she was upset?'
"No." Bobby replied, and then he frowned and sat up straighter. "Hold on, yeah there is."
Sam was pacing along the front yard of Bobby's house, contemplating on whether or not he should go inside. It was probably better if he didn't. He still needed time to himself to think.
Of all the things that could have happened to them this was defiantly the biggest and threw them all into a tail spin. Sam didn't know what was going to happen but he trusted his brother to know what the right choice. Neither Dean nor Pepper seemed like they would agree to give the baby up and Dean certainly wasn't going to abandon Pepper. Hell, he had always been possessive over her and Sam knew that he would be worse now that Pepper was carrying his child.
Of course, they still had to deal with the Demon and this was only going to make that harder for everyone.
Suddenly, Sam's cell rang and startled him. He quickly pulled it out and answered it without checking the called ID. He was hoping that it would be Dean.
"Sam, its Ellen."
"Um, hey, Ellen. What's up?" Sam asked, trying to sound calm.
"Is everything alright up there?" She asked. Concern deep in her voice.
"I've been talking to Pepper," Ellen explained. "She's pretty upset about something and I wanted to make sure that John and Bobby hadn't gotten into another disastrous fight."
"No. So, Pepper hasn't told you what's going on?"
"All she said was that you boy's where at Bobby's."
Sam sighed and tried to think of what he should do. He didn't know if he should go and tell Bobby and John that Pepper was at the RoadHouse or if he should just call Dean. Eventually he decided on the latter because he knew how worried Dean was.
"Um, something's sort of happened but it isn't my place to say." Sam nervously replied. "Is Pepper still there?"
"Yes she's still here. I'm not about to let her drive at this time of night in the state she's in." Ellen paused before demanding firmly, "what the hells going on Sam?"
"Like I said, it isn't my place to say, but, Dean and Pepper really need to talk."
"They just need too. It's between them, Ellen. Dean will be on his way, okay?"
"Alright, Sam. But I will find out what's going on."
"I know. Thanks Ellen."
Sam hung up after that, not wanting to be asked any more questions that he couldn't answer. It wasn't that he didn't trust Ellen, but like he had said, it wasn't his place to tell her anything. That was up to Dean and Pepper. Sam quickly typed a short text to his brother.
'Pepper at RoadHouse'
And pressed send.
Dean was parked by the side of the road, trying to think of where he should go next. He had been driving for almost an hour with no sign of Pepper's car and was getting frustrated by every passing minute, and the fact that he was trying to keep calm but failing miserably because of how worried he was just wasn't helping. It wasn't just that Pepper was off by herself because Dean knew that she could take care of herself, well normally anyway. However, tonight she was upset and Dean didn't like that she was on her own.
If they'd been at her apartment, he would have had a long list of places to look for her but here he had no idea where she could have gone. His message tone went off and Dean closed his eyes while reaching for his phone. One new message from 'Sam', it read on the screen. Dean sighed and opened the message. Maybe Sam was apologizing for what he had said.
'Pepper at RoadHouse'
Dean smiled and muttered, "Thank you Sammy," before he started the car, did a quick u-turn and headed towards the RoadHouse.
The RoadHouse was deserted by the time Dean arrived, which was unusual at this time of night. Dean walked in and his eyes immediately scanned the room in search of Pepper. He found her standing by the pool table with a cue in her hand, watching as Jo took a shot. Ash was curled up on a table beside the jukebox snoring lightly, and Ellen was behind the bar keeping a close eye on Dean. Dean didn't care about any of that right now. All he cared about was Pepper, so he made his way over to her.
"Hey," he said as he stepped up beside her.
She turned to him, startled at his presents at first but after a moment, she sighed and relaxed a little. Dean could tell that she had been crying for a long time. Her eyes were red and there were fresh tearstains covering her cheeks. Dean wondered if she had told Ellen and the others about why she was upset, but when he glanced at Ellen he guessed that she probably hadn't seeing as how no one was yelling at him yet.
"Hi." Pepper softly greeted him. "I'm sorry I just took off like that."
"It's okay. Think we could talk?" He asked gently.
Pepper slowly nodded and looked around, obviously trying to find a place they could talk alone. Ellen must have noticed this because she called out to Jo.
"Jo, come here!"
Jo went to protest, having too much fun at her game but she saw the look her mother was giving her, and she quickly placed her pool cue on the table and walked over to the bar.
"We'll be down in the basement doing stock take if you need us." Ellen told the couple before she ushered Jo towards the basement.
"But I've already done stock take."
They heard Jo complain as they disappeared. Dean's lips curved up in a grateful smile. He appreciated that Ellen understood that he and Pepper needed to talk alone, although she probably wouldn't be very happy with him once she found out what was actually going on. Dean turned back to look at Pepper for a moment. She looked defeated as she stared at the chalked end of her cue, and Dean decided that it was one of the worst things he had ever seen, and he'd seen some horrible things.
"I'm sorry." He said just above a whisper because he couldn't think of what else to say.
Pepper looked up at him confused, "For what?" She asked.
"For how everything went down tonight. I'm sure that's not how you wanted to tell me."
"No, I think we could have done without all that." She joked but it sounded forced. "But that wasn't your fault. That's just how Granddad..."
Dean reached out and gently took the pool cue out of her hands. "Look, I really don't think Bobby meant what he said." He placed the cue onto the table and added, "And I think he feels really bad about it."
"Doesn't change the fact that it hurt." Pepper mumbled.
She bit her bottom lip as more tears fell onto her cheeks. Dean didn't even think as he pulled her towards him and she fell willingly into his arms. Her arms folded against his chest, with their foreheads resting against each other and Dean's strong arms around Pepper's back. Dean moved one hand up and stroked her cheek, removing her tears with his thumb as they fell. He had never seen Pepper cry this much before. She had never really been one of those women who cried when they where upset. Dean didn't know if her tears where because of what Bobby had said or if it was mostly just hormones from being pregnant, though it was probably both.
"God, Dean." Pepper sighed heavily and closed her eyes. "This is doing my head in."
She pulled back and stepped away from him. Dean let her go and stood still as Pepper sank down to the floor and leaned her back against the pool table. She brought her knees up and folded her arms over the top.
"I don't know what I'm supposed to do." She admitted. "I don't even know what I want to do."
"It'll be alright." Dean tried to assure her as he sat down beside her, stretching his legs out in front of him and placing a gentle hand against her arm. "We'll figure something out."
"How?" She asked, turning to look at him. "I've never seen Granddad so angry before...at least not at me."
"You know it's not really any of Bobby's business. He's not the one who's going to become a parent."
"You're right; this is just about me and... Oh, Dean I'm sorry. I hadn't even considered what you might be going through right now." She apologized. "I've only been thinking of myself."
"That's really alright." said Dean. "I think you're entitled."
"But that's just selfish. I mean this is as huge for you as it is for me. I know that this was probably the last thing that you wanted to happen to your life."
"Not exactly, but, it's not the end of the world." Dean replied, with a slight shrug.
"But this changes everything, and you're being way too calm about all of this."
"Would you rather I fly off the handle and yell like Bobby's been doing?" Dean asked.
"Yes! . . . No." She sighed. "I'd rather not be the only one freaking out right now."
"I'm freaking out, I'm just holding it all in."
"I wish you wouldn't. I don't like not knowing how you feel. Especially about this."
"You wanna know what I'm feeling?" Dean asked. A serious expression crossing his features.
"Yes." Pepper nodded.
"Okay," Dean sighed, "I'm...terrified. It'd be good to have a family, a real one and I've always wondered what having a normal family would be like, but realistically I'd know that I would suck at it. I can deal with Vampires, Ghosts and Demons without a problem but a baby..."
"You could have just told me that, you know."
Dean shook his head. "I didn't want to stress you out anymore than you already were. Plus I wanted to be able to figure all that out in my own head before I came to you with it."
"So, what do you want?" Pepper asked and Dean saw that she was on the verge of tears once again. She turned slightly to face him more.
"I don't want you to cry anymore." He said quietly, and cupped her cheek for a moment.
"Dean," she sighed and leaned into his touch.
"Like I said, Pep, I won't be any good with a baby. Hell, I'm probably the last person on Earth who should be a father and," he sighed, "Lord knows my life is way too complicated for a baby. I mean you and I can't even have a proper relationship because we're both always on the road. How do we work a child into that?"
Pepper shook her head. "I don't know.'
"But, there's not much we can do to change it now, and if you want this baby then I'll be here for you. I'd never turn my back on you, you know that."
"Dean, please don't just say that because you think that's what I want to hear."
"I'm not." Dean replied. He dropped his hand from her cheek and tried to make his voice as serious and believable as he could so that she would know he was telling the truth. "I'm prepared to give this a go. I can't promise that I'll always do the right thing or that I'll always make the right decisions, but you've always meant a lot...to me." He reached for one of her hands and held it tightly. "I want to make this work."
They looked into each other's eyes for a long moment, not even blinking.
"Are you sure? Maybe you should take some time to think."
"Doesn't matter how long I have to think about it, my answers always going to be the same. I want to do this with you Pepper, no matter what happens."
Pepper couldn't help but smile, just so slightly. "You know that once we commit to this neither of us can change our minds."
"I know." Dean smiled back at her. "I'm not planning to change my mind."
He leaned forward and kissed her gently. He let go of her hand and moved to cup her face, while still kissing her almost timidly until he felt her melt against him. Pepper wrapped her arms around his neck and crawled closer to him. Dean moved one hand down to hold her waist so he could pull her even closer until she was straddling his legs.
Dean was glad to know that at least he and Pepper would be able to handle this together and that she wasn't going to push him away. Getting Bobby, John and Sam to go along with their decision was going to be a lot harder though. Hopefully all they needed was time and luckily, they had just less than 9 months of that ahead.
Dean's thoughts were interrupted when Pepper suddenly pulled back, placing her hands on his chest. Dean looked up at her and frowned.
"What is it?" He asked, bringing one hand up to place a loose strand of hair behind her ear.
"I just, um, I wanted to make sure that we're on the same page here." She explained, lightly chewing on her bottom lip. "I need to make sure that we're going to do this together."
"Ah yeah." Dean nodded slowly in confusion. Hadn't he just said that?
"No, I mean...exclusively together." She clarified slowly making sure he was following her. "No more seeing other people where we're on opposite sides of the country. I know our deal is that we could both do whatever, and be with who ever we wanted as long as we didn't tell each other, but I don't think I can do that anymore. Not with a baby involved."
"Do you really think that I would pick up some random chick when you're the one whose carrying my child?" Dean asked, shocked.
Pepper thought for a brief moment and then shook her head.
"No, no I don't think that. Sorry. I just needed to know that you were sure."
"I am." Dean replied shortly but firmly. "Very sure.
"You'd be giving up a lot."
"But I'd be gaining so much more."
With that, Dean grinned and pulled Pepper back down into another kiss, still grinning against her lips.
He really liked this new deal, because truthfully he had never been truly happy with the first one. It was the thought of Pepper with other men that made him despise it and yes, that did make him a hypocrite because he spent a lot of time with as many different women as he could. He even had a long-term relationship with Cassie and even loved her (but not in the same way that he loves Pepper) but in his mind Pepper should only be with him. Of course, he'd never tell her this because it would probably be taken the wrong way and they would get into a fight. At least now, he was going to get her all to himself.
Dean knew that raising a baby was going to be hard, especially with the life styles they both had. It was rare for either of them to stay in the same place for longer than a month, and with the Yellow Eyed Demon still out there, it was going to be even more dangerous.
Dean silently promised that he would do everything in his power to make sure his baby came into the world safe and loved. For that to work he'd need to make sure that Bobby no longer wanted to kill him of course.
The next few months were going to be very interesting.
Next Chapter - First Congratulations
Notes - Sorry if Dean seems a little out of character in this chapter. I tried to do the best that I could. Though, I believe he gets better in later chapters, but keep reading and decide for yourself.