Hey. This is my second fanfic. I don't expect this story to take more than three or four at the absolute most chapters. I don't own iCarly-Disclaimer.
Freddie's Point of View
If you've ever been in love with someone who doesn't love you back, and won't even consider the idea, then you know exactly what I've been going through for years. To have to see her every day, and know that she will never love me back… To be reminded every day by Sam that she'll never love me back…
All of my attempts to get over her have failed miserably. One of which was the time when I was dating Valerie, but as you'll recall, she was only using me. So it was back to iCarly for me again… Back to Carly.
I've even considered that maybe all of my unsuccessful tries to move on were a sign that we were meant to be together. About ten seconds after I thought of that I realized that that was a load of garbage.
I think it's time I face facts. The odds of Carly ever loving me back are worse than they are for Sam ever getting straight A's.
It's like I've been living a lie. Telling myself every single day for three years that maybe-just maybe- Carly might love or even like me back. And after three whole years, I finally realize that it will never happen, and I still can't even move on now.
Maybe it's just because I'm simply plain old hopeless. I wouldn't be surprised if I'm still a delusional romantic still stuck on my first love in fifty years. I'll probably die hopeless too.
And I know what you're probably thinking. "Wow, Freddie. You sure have turned into a bitter pessimist." Well, guess what? You're right. You're completely right. My unrequited love for Carly has turned my love life into an empty abyss with nothing good behind me to look back on and nothing in front of me to look forward to.
The only thing I actually have going for me is that I actually have kissed a girl before. Granted, it was Sam, but it was still a kiss. But, shh! That's a secret. And don't get any "Seddie" or "Fram" ideas. I definitely don't like her that way, and she definitely doesn't like me that way. But at least I'll die an old bachelor who's kissed someone.
Well, I have to go, because iCarly starts in twenty minutes and I have to make sure everything is ready to go.
Carly's Point of View
I have a secret. I've been keeping it for a long time and I haven't told anyone. Not even Spencer or Sam. And especially not Freddie. I suppose I've been keeping this from everyone for about six months.
I had a chance to tell my secret about three weeks ago, after Sam told everyone Freddie had never kissed a girl before. I could have told him then… I could've made things easier on everyone if I had just had the guts to do it… But I didn't. And then I lost my opportunity after Sam apologized to Freddie on iCarly for doing that to him. I'm not saying I'm sorry she apologized and told everyone at school to back off, because it did need to be said. But… I had a window of opportunity to come clean of my deepest darkest secret, and I lost it.
What's my secret? Well… you promise you'll never tell another living soul about this? Okay… my secret is… I'm in love with Freddie Benson.
Now before you start saying things like, "You already know Freddie is in love with you, so just tell him!" let me interject. Lately, Freddie's been really distant and hasn't been trying his usual tricks to try and get me to "feel the mood", or "hold him tighter", or whatever.
That alone wouldn't have made me think that something was up, if last week's incident hadn't occurred. And no, I'm not talking about iCarly's "feud" with Fred. I'm talking about something Freddie brought up during an iCarly rehearsal.
Sam was getting on Freddie about his supposed crush on me, and suddenly Freddie just snapped. He said that he had been over me for months and that now Sam would have to find something else to tease him about. Freddie's said that before, but he had never said it so seriously and like he actually meant it.
So now, hopefully you understand why I can't just tell Freddie that I love him.
Uh oh, I've got to go. Freddie's doing the "5, 4, 3, 2" thing.
Well, that's it. I'm working on the next chapter for this and the next chapter for my other NBB fanfic, so I should be posting for this again. Review please!