This is my first story on here of Twilight so be nice.

I would love loads of reveiws :)

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. Stephenie Meyer does.

It has now been 4 weeks and 3 days since Edward walked out on me. This was now the second time this had happened. I could feel the space in my chest getting bigger and deeper sucking my insides in with it. It was just a hole of nothingness.

I woke up and it was dark, windy and the rain was coming down harder than usual. I felt the sickness in my stomach again. I have had this sickness for about 2 weeks now; I must have the flu or something the weather doesn't help either.

I sighed and pulled my self out of bed. I grabbed my wash bag and a some dark jeans, light blue top with long sleeves and some underwear. I walked slowly to the bath room until I felt the sick coming up faster than I could say "No" I ran to the bathroom and dropped to my knees and grabbed the toilet, the sickness lasted about 3 minutes this morning. It was getting easier. I should go and see a doctor. I haven't told Charlie yet, he will become the over protective parent.

After I was done been sick I quickly got dressed. I walked over to the mirror. I sighed I looked a mess. My dark brown hair wasn't as full and healthy as it used to be. It looked dead just like my face. It was white, even though I was white before it looked even whiter and my face had no shape just bones. My eyes had dark black circles around them from lack of sleep. I shook my head and brushed my teeth. I went into my bed room and brushed my hair. I pulled it into a loose bun as it was all over the place and I didn't have time to sort it out as I had school soon.

I grabbed my rain coat and bag from my room and went down stairs. I grabbed a few pop tarts and got into my truck. It roared to life when I turned the ignition on. I jumped a bit then drove to school; I parked near the front of the school. The first few lessons went by very slowly and I just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry as people were saying things about the Cullen's. I wanted to protect them but I knew I shouldn't as they did leave me. Because I am in to much danger being near them, I can have a good shot at life been normal and human oh and that Edward didn't love me. I shivered at that then tried to push it out of my head it's not worth getting upset about in school.

It was lunch already. I sat with Jessica, Angela, Mike, Ben, Tyler and Lauren.

Lauren didn't like me at all she was always saying stuff about me and the Cullen's. She hated me with a passion but I didn't care what she thinks as she's just a dirty gossip as well as Jessica.

I just pretended I didn't know that they were and left them to get on with it.

I got a soda and some salad for lunch I wasn't really that hungry so I just sat there staring at the old Cullen's table, I don't know why I did this every time it was lunch, habit I suppose. The lesson's I had left went by even slower than this morning. The day was finally over when the bell went everyone charged out of the class rooms. I didn't blame them though, I went to my locker and dropped a few of my books off I didn't need till tomorrow.

I walked to the front of the school and it was icy and raining. Typical this is going to be fun I thought to my self. I sighed and made my way to my truck.

When I was near my truck I slipped over and groaned. I heard foot steps and I saw Angela run to me trying not to slip her self and help me up.

"Hey, thank you." I sighed

"No problem, you okay?"

"Yeah, are you okay?"

"Yup, I am good. I better get home anyway."

"Okay." I sighed and hugged her.

"Be careful. See you tomorrow Bella." Angela walked off to her car.

"Bye." I shouted after her and unlocked my truck.

I was alone by now; I threw my bag onto the passenger seat and slammed the door. I was wet and cold I just wanted to lie in bed and cry my heart out.

I started my truck to life and jumped as usual. I drove home a bit slower than normal as I didn't want to crash or anything as it was still icy and wet.

When I got home Charlie's cruiser wasn't in his normal space so I knew he wasn't in. I grabbed my bag and opened my door. I didn't realise that there was a big block of ice were I parked and I slipped on it again trying to catch my self with the door but ended up head butting it instead.

"Grr." I moaned at my self. I sighed and pulled my self up with the door. I grabbed my bag and slammed the door too hard I thought the door was going to come flying off. I half stormed to the house trying not to fall over.

I got my keys out and unlocked the door. I dropped my bag and rain coat on the sofa and went into the kitchen. I started to make Charlie some chicken fajitas for tea. I left them cooking while I went upstairs to take my bag. I put it on my bag and went back down stairs. I took my rain coat and hung it up.

I quickly checked on the food which was cooking nicely. I went into the living room and put the TV on, there was obviously nothing on as usual so I just flicked through the channels. I lay down and stared at the ceiling.

I remembered when me and Edward used to sit here and I would lie on his legs and he would whisper sweet nothings in my ear and gently play with my hair. I started to cry and sob.