This is a continuation of what I did with New Moon. Eclipse from Edward's POV. It follows Eclipse from pages 436 - 443. (the bedroom scene!)
Again, dialogue has been modified/omitted to suit pacing. I still felt that I was simply retyping Meyer's work. :P
Hope you enjoy it.
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Possession - Part 1
I heard the loud engine of Bella's truck chugging up the hill. A feeling of relief washed over me, I'd wondered if she might decide to spend this time with Jacob instead. Being unable to read her mind had never been so frustrating. Where did her heart truly lie? I wanted desperately to believe it was with me, and, so far, she'd given me no real reason to doubt that assumption.
And yet, a life with Jacob made so much more sense for her. I couldn't blame her if it turned out to be the road she chose. Although Bella repeatedly demanded to become on of us, I couldn't help but feel that she didn't have a clear view of what she'd be giving up. Friends, family, aging, and children. All the things Jacob could give her, and I couldn't. Yet so long as she wanted, I'd be hers, and she'd be mine. Never again would I leave, I didn't think I could physically do it again. It had been horrific enough the first time round, and I had no intention of putting us through a second one.
I watched as Bella guided her truck up our drive, parked, then killed the engine. I was by her side the next instant, feeling somewhat elated that she had actually come. I opened the truck door, and wound one arm around her, lifting her out. Her sweet scent assaulted my senses as I bent down to kiss her. I kicked the door shut with a deft swing of my foot, then cradled Bella, bridal style, carrying her through the doorway to my home. All this without releasing her lips from mine.
I felt her hands tangle into my hair, as her breathing quickened. Her heart was racing under her fragile skin. I loved being with her like this, especially now that none of my family members were around to interrupt, verbally or mentally. I allowed the kiss to go on for longer than usual, enjoying the feel of her warmth, and reveling in the fact she had chosen me over Jacob. Soon, the sensation of her so close to me, began to threaten my control. As much as I would've loved to continue, I knew it was much too dangerous for her.
Reluctantly, I pulled away from her, and whispered, "Welcome home," into her ear. The idea of us, sharing a home, gave me a thrill.
"That sounds nice." Bella smiled, trying to catch her breath.
I set her down, knowing my body was too hard and cold for her to be against for long. Bella quickly wound her arms around me, as if to refute my thoughts. It made me smile, knowing she loved and wanted me enough to stay by my side, no matter the danger to herself. I could only hope I was worthy of her devotion.
"I have something for you." I informed her.
"Oh?" She sounded surprised.
"Your hand-me-down, remember? You said that was allowable." The silly girl wouldn't let me give all the things I longed to.
"Oh, that's right. I guess I did say that." She sounded so put upon, I couldn't help laughing.
"It's up in my room. Shall I go get it?" I tried to suppress my eagerness. Bella laced her fingers through mine.
"Sure. Let's go."
As soon as she gave her consent, I simply scooped her up, too impatient to wait for her to climb the stairs, and raced to my bedroom. I deposited Bella at the doorway and headed to the closet to retrieve the gift. Bella situated herself in the middle of the bed, curled up into a ball, looking warily at me. You'd have thought I was about to eat her, instead of giving her a present.
"Okay, let me have it." She mumbled. I grinned, then joined her on the bed. Her heart gave a queer thump, making me wonder what had brought it on. Did she look a little flushed? I pushed the thought out of my mind. I was anxious to see what she thought of her gift.
"A hand me down." I told her, matter-of-factly. Gently, I pried her left arm away from her legs, then fastened a diamond heart directly opposite Jacob's wolf. It glimmered in the I had said was true, the heart had belonged to my mother. Bella gasped when she caught sight of it.
"It was my mother's." I shrugged, as if it were of little importance. "I inherited quite a few baubles like this. I've given some to Esme and Alice both. So, clearly, this is not a big deal in anyway."
That was also true, I had given Esme and Alice a few of my mother's things, but nothing compared to the diamond that now sparkled on Bella's wrist. That, I had saved, at my mother's insistence, for the woman I would marry. I knew Bella would be upset if I let her know how valuable it actually was, so I let her believe it was a simple crystal.
As I gazed at the heart, I smiled inwardly. My diamond, and as close to wearing my ring as I figured I'd get…for now.
I had Bella nestled into my side, when I felt her heart rate pick up again. Strange, that didn't usually happen unless we were being more intimate. Was she nervous? Of all the people for my talent not to work on!
"Can we discuss something? I'd appreciate it if you would begin by being open-minded." Bella suddenly spoke up. Her words came out in a rush.
It put me on my guard. Was she going to insist I turn her now? After all the discussions we'd had about it?
"I'll give it my best effort." I replied, somewhat cautiously.
"Well, I guess, first, I wanted to talk to you about that whole ridiculous marriage condition thing." She had a look of distaste as she said the last few words. I dearly wished she wouldn't think of marriage so negatively. She had no clue as to how serious I was about wanting to marry her. I'd found my soul mate, why wait any longer?
"It's only ridiculous to you. What about it?" I asked, trying to figure out where this was leading.
"I was wondering…is that open to negotiation?" She looked at me pointedly.
Negotiation? I'd already agreed to change her, seeing as how determined she was to follow me into this existence. There wasn't anything I wouldn't do for her, but this, was one of the most difficult concessions I'd had to make. I told her as much. I was surprised she was going to demand something more, and I steeled myself for some absurd request.
"I didn't realize there was anything else you wanted besides being transformed into a monster yourself. I'm extremely curious." I kept my voice neutral, waiting for her ultimatum.
Oddly, she didn't reply. What was going on in that head of hers? Her cheeks began to flame under my gaze. While I was accustomed to this, it was an unusual moment for it to happen. I ran a finger down the smooth skin of her face. "You're blushing? Please, Bella, the suspense is painful." I was beyond curious now.
"Well, I'm a little worried about…after," She finally told me. I tensed, was she having second thoughts about being changed? Did she want to remain human? A part of me was relieved at the idea, the other part was sorely disappointed. I hated to admit it, but the idea of Bella spending eternity with me, was more than appealing. It was selfish, but I wanted to be with her, forever.
"What has you worried?" I asked, lightly.
"…I'm afraid I'll be so preoccupied with the mayhem that I won't be me anymore…and that I won't…I won't want you the same way I do now." Her cheeks were now scarlet.
I smiled inwardly. How very Bella.
"Bella, that part doesn't last forever."
"Edward, there's something I want to do before I'm not human anymore." She didn't look at me as she said this. I waited, but she stayed silent. What could she possibly want? Didn't she know I would give her the world if she asked for it? She only had to say the word.
"Whatever you want." I smiled at her, trying to make her more comfortable.
"Do you promise?" She asked.
"Yes," I said without hesitation. I'll do anything within my power for you. "Tell me what you want, and you can have it."
Bella continued to look unsettled; the blush still staining her cheeks. She fiddled with her bracelet, then cleared her throat.
"You." She nearly whispered. What an inane request. I already belonged to her.
"I'm yours." I said, pointing out the obvious. She met my eyes briefly before looking away again. Bella drew a long breath, threw her arms around me, bringing her mouth up to meet mine.
What are you thinking? I wanted to cry. She knew I was hers already, but I kissed her willingly. If this is what helps you believe it, I'm game. Her lips continued to move against my own and I felt her body trembling.
Bella's hands went from my neck to the top button of my shirt. She was fumbling with it when I realized what she meant. Anything, but that.
Being that close to Bella would only result in disaster. Her nearness, coupled with the knowledge of exactly what it was she wanted, caused a different kind of monster to awaken within me. One that I didn't want to expose her to.
It was a constant battle for me, against the two raging desires in my body. Bella, if only you knew.
A/N: Too corny? The rest of that chapter, including Edward's proposal, is on deck. Review!!