A/N: I do not own the characters from Twilight, Stephenie Meyer does.
This is my first Fan Fiction in a while. I hope you enjoy it!
I am going to hell. There is no other way to put it. I have one whole week with my Bella, alone. Alice asked Charlie a few weeks ago if Bella could join our family on our graduation trip to California. He reluctantly agreed. Of course there was no way my family and I were going to spend a week in sunny California, unless we wanted the Volturi to be here within a day. No, my family was going to Alaska to visit with Tanya and her family, and I would have a week with Bella at my house.
Bella and I agreed that this week would be free about talking and arguing about her change and it would just be about us enjoying each others company. If only she knew what I really had in store for her. I was going to push all my boundaries and try not to kill her. I couldn't take the build up that we gave each other, only having to stop because I thought I'd drain her veins dry. Not this time. I have hunted all I can hunt, hell, I've even talked to Emmett. Emmett's advice wasn't the most intelligent in the world, but it would have to do. His advice would come in handy more with technique, not with the extreme bloodlust that I would be feeling.
"Edward, are you absolutely sure about this?" Alice asked quietly. Sometimes I wish she would keep her thoughts to herself. Why does everyone think that I'm going to lose control because they are gone? I have controlled myself up to this point, and I would do anything to keep Bella happy.
"Have you had any visions that would suggest this isn't going to be a good idea?" Alice hated when I answered her question with a question, but I could see her concentrating on Bella's future.
"No, but Bella has no idea what you are planning. Everything could change drastically once she knows you are going to cross the boundaries, and she may be a little enthusiastic."
Although Alice and Emmett were the only two members of my family I had discussed anything with, I am sure everyone else knows what I am planning. There were no secrets in my family, which is why I was planning this week alone with Bella. Nothing but privacy, besides from Alice, of course. She told me when I formulated this plan that she was going to be watching the future very carefully, and that I was not to leave my cell phone far from me, just in case.
I went through my room at least a hundred times. I wanted everything to be perfect. My stereo was at optimal volume to set the mood, and I had chosen CDs that would make Bella comfortable. Classics, of course. I had placed candles throughout my room, strategically placed so they wouldn't be obvious when they weren't lit. I thought about rose petals on the bed, but I didn't want Bella to think I was being cheesy. She would probably see right through me.
There was also the question of food for Bella for a week. I could try cooking for her, but I'm not sure it would taste very good. I didn't want her to have to cook for herself all week, but I would be chastised for ordering out for every meal. I'm sure I could take her out a few times, far from home since Charlie thought she was going to be in California.
Everything seemed to be in order for Bella's arrival in a few hours. What was I going to do to pass the time until she got here? My mind was racing. What the hell was I thinking? I can't cross my physical boundaries with Bella.
"Edward, you want this, she wants this, just get it over with. I've been checking the future and everything seems to be fine. I shouldn't have questioned you earlier. If anything changes, you are a phone call away and you can stop." Alice was back in my room, trying to calm me down it seemed.
Stop? What was this evil little pixie thinking? Every time I have to stop, it gets harder. I was going to have to make a decision about this before Bella got here, or I was going to be in a world of hurt.
I let my mind wander. I thought about her pale skin and how soft it was. I thought about my hands exploring her body. STOP. I couldn't keep thinking about this, or I was going to be at full attention in front of my sister. That was not a pleasant thought. I brought my mind back to the present.
"I am going to try with her. If anything doesn't feel right, I will have to let her down again. I would hate to do that, but I don't want to hurt her," I mumbled. I made sure to emphasize the word try.
"I'm sure everything is going to be fine," she reassured me through her words and thoughts. "If I see anything that could be suspicious, even if the vision is fuzzy, I will call you immediately. I wouldn't let anything happen to Bella. She is my best friend and practically my sister."
"You're right, Alice, I have nothing to worry about." I replied.
"Oh, and Edward," she said enthusiastically, "That would be perfect. Bella will love it. Trust me." I smiled because I knew exactly what she was talking about, even without reading her thoughts.
A whole week alone with Edward. What did he think we were supposed to do for a week? He already set his boundaries. No talking about changing me, because the only thing we did was fight about it. Nothing physical. I could take that, because up until this point, after we have to stop, I feel like I'm going to spontaneously combust. Edward's physical boundaries are more like putting locks and chains on everything below the neck.
Alice made me go shopping with her before she leaves. Why I would ever need anymore clothes is beyond me, but it gave me something to do while Edward was out hunting before our week together. She said it was a good cover that I needed more outfits for the warmer weather in California. It was warm here in Forks, but Alice wanted to shop and play Bella Barbie, so who was I to deny her. At least she let me pick out clothes that were, for the most part, pretty comfortable. For some reason, she also wanted me to get new lingerie. I tried to object, but Alice won in the end. I didn't see the point, since I would be the only one ever seeing them.
I was close to finishing packing my things for a week away from home; I wondered what this week was going to be like. I love quality time with Edward, but I wondered what his true intentions were for this week. I was hope he didn't have any ulterior motives, like "show Bella how much fun she has as a human." I understand his point of view, but I just couldn't go on in my life realizing that I was going to eventually lose him.
A knock on my door interrupted my thoughts, "Come in."
"Ready Bells? I talked to Esme, and she decided that there was no need for your truck to sit in their driveway for a week, so I agreed to drop you off at the Cullen's," Charlie informed me.
"Uh, sure dad. Just let me grab my toiletries and I'll meet you out in the cruiser."
I quickly grabbed the rest of my things, shoved them in my bag, and ran down the stairs to the front door and out to the cruiser. I threw my duffle bag on the floor in front of me and we were off to the Cullen house.
"So Bells, what do you think you'll be doing in California?" I hated when he tried to make small talk, but I would appease him since I was going to be gone for a week.
"I dunno. We'll probably go to the beach a lot. Hopefully I won't get sunburned or anything, it would be just my luck," I hated lying to Charlie, but I couldn't very well ask him to spend an entire week alone with Edward with no parental supervision. It's not like anything would happen anyways.
The rest of the ride was pretty silent. It just worked that way with Charlie and me. He found the driveway without much trouble. He smiled at me. Uh-oh. "Bella have a great time, but don't forget to call."
"I won't. I'll call when we get there and then when I can. Like I said earlier, I don't know what I'm really doing while I'm there," I squeaked back.
"That's fine; just don't forget about your dad while you're gone. I don't have you for very much longer until you go off to college," I forgot about leaving for college. I gave him a small smile.
"Dad, don't get all sappy on me. I'll be fine, and I'll call when I can. Love you!" I hopped out of the car and made my way to the door where Esme stood waving at Charlie.
"Love you, too," he yelled after me, waving back at Esme.
She was finally here. I could hear Esme and Carlisle's thoughts radiating towards me. We don't like lying to Charlie for you and Bella, but we understand that you need time alone. Please don't abuse our trust. I felt bad about lying to Charlie, and so did Bella, but I need time with her if I was ever going to make her happy physically. Our physical was the big elephant in the room. We never talked about it, but we knew it was there.
Bella came running towards me, and I scooped her up in my arms in a tight hug, giving her a chaste kiss on the cheek. I didn't want to give Carlisle and Esme the wrong impression, though I'm sure they already know what is going on.
"Okay, everyone going to Alaska better be in the cars and ready to go in five minutes!" Carlisle informed everyone. Right on cue, Alice came down with way too much luggage, followed by Jasper carrying even more. I would never understand why she ever needed so much for only a week.
"You kids have fun. The fridge is stocked with some of Bella's favorites," Esme said turning to Bella and myself. Esme is so thoughtful, and now I wouldn't have to worry about Bella starving to death, "Call us if anything comes up," she sang in her most motherly tone.
Carlisle, Esme, Alice, and Jasper were already out in the car. I heard loud thuds, and sure enough it was Rosalie with even more luggage than Alice had. Emmett trailed her, and with a wide smile said, "Have fun. Don't do anything Rose and I wouldn't do."
Bella blushed a brilliant tone of pink. She always did when Emmett, or anyone for that matter, made a sexual reference. She should get used to Emmett's remarks if she wanted to be a part of this family. I heard the roar of engines leaving the garage, so I knew Bella and I were truly alone now.
We had a few hours before Bella would need to eat again, so I figured I would test my limit with her. I took her hand and led her upstairs to my room. As we entered my room, I grabbed her around her waist and pulled her close to me and kissed her. I wanted to test my boundaries, so I made the kiss a little deeper, sucking her bottom lip in between mine. Bella groaned. I broke the kiss and started kissing down her neck. I could feel her heart speeding up, so I moved us over to the couch. The bed would be way too tempting right now. I wanted to take down my boundaries, but not smash through them all at once.
She let her hands roam over my chest and back, occasionally playing with my hair. If she only knew how good that felt.
I was going to have to let her in on my plan for this week if this was ever going to work. I needed to stay in control. I kept telling myself that if I lost control I could kill her. As we broke so she could breathe for a minute, I turned on my stereo. We listened to Debussy in silence. These are the moments when I wish I could read her mind.
"Love, tell me what you are thinking about," I wasn't going to get a truthful answer and I know that.
"I wasn't thinking about anything really, just that I love being here with you. Not needing to talk. Just being next to you is enough for me right now," I wished she would tell me the truth about what she was really thinking, her heartbeat told me she wasn't telling the complete truth. I wasn't going to push the issue right now.
Suddenly, her stomach let out a growl, and she could no longer fight the fact that she was hungry. "How about some dinner then? Since your stomach gave you away," I chuckled at her.
She blushed, "I guess I should eat something then," I led her downstairs into the kitchen where Esme had really planned ahead. There were meals all ready made and just needed to be heated up. Bella picked out baked spaghetti.
I decided now was a better time than any to talk to her about my plans for the upcoming week. "Bella, love, there was something I wanted to discuss with you." She looked up from her food and nodded for me to continue.
"Well, I wanted to spend this week alone for a reason. I want to go beyond the physical boundaries I have set previously," I said apprehensively. I couldn't decide whether her reaction was good or bad, her eyes just stared into mine.
A small smile started to spread across her lips, "Edward, are you sure about this? I mean, I am, but you wanted to wait until we were married," her voice was dripping in apprehension. I could see that she was worried about me going back on my decision. I decided to explain my sudden change of heart.
"Bella, you know my only goal is to make you happy, and I can see that a physical relationship would make you even happier. I want to please you both emotionally and physically. I know this will be testing my control, but I think if we work together, it can work."
Was he serious? Like absolutely serious? I really hope he isn't going to change his mind the second we get into it. I decided not to push the issue, if he was going to test the boundaries with me, I wasn't going to complain.