Ok so this is a story that I'm going to work really hard on. I want this to be one of my best stories ever. So I'm going to need the help of my faithful viewers, just too keep my morale up even if I had a crappy day. So please keep this in mind and PLEASE REVIEW.


Rape is forced, unwanted sexual intercourse. Rape is about power, not sex. I had enough; never again will I ever give him the power...never.

I looked into my bathroom mirror and I had to wonder, what went wrong. I used to be a happy girl but looking my self in the mirror I knew I would never be that girl again. I was filthy, I was no longer a girl. I didn't deserve that title, of a girl, I was tainted, used. I let a tear fall from my eye as my dad knocked on the bathroom door.

I slowly opened it and met Charlie's red rimmed brown eyes to my vacant brown eyes. He painfully closed his eyes and swallowed the lump in his throat and backed away to let me exit and he followed me into my room.

"Bella, I don't know what to say about this, but I have to say something. Bella you know I'm a cop and I'm hurt that you didn't come to me about this sooner but I understand why also. Bella you know what happened was not your fault, and I still love you with all my heart. Bella you will always be my little girl" Charlie said with tears streaming down his face. Me and my father have never been very emotional with each other. But when I stumbled through his doorway I knew that, that would change.

Even though I really appreciated what he said I couldn't believe half of it. What happened was my fault, I let him over power me I didn't even try and stop him even though I knew if I tried It would have hurt worse. I believe that it may be possible that he stilled loved loved me, but it didn't matter because I couldn't love myself, never again. I would never be his little girl, I will forever be known as his daughter...a rape victim.

( was going to stop there but I decided not to, please review)

I was finally able to fall asleep after taking a few pain medication and sleeping pills. Ever since he raped me I have always had nightmares. It was only a few hours later when I woke up shocked from a nightmare. I opened my eyes and was forced to look at farther proof of what happened wasn't just some sick dream.

My face was blackened with bruises. All along my arms and legs I had hand prints of when his filthy hands had touched me. The bruises were worst on my hips though, from when he held me down against my will.

I sighed and put some cover up on my face. I didn't want to have to deal with all the questions of how I had gotten my bruises. I already knew that starting a new school meant making a good impression which I knew I couldn't do. I was still very wary about all men. I also wanted to make sure no one accused Charlie of abusing me, when he has been nothing but supportive.

I walked to my dresser and grabbed a black t-shirt and a large gray hoody. I got out some matching gray sweat pants, I knew I was still to sore to be able and tolerate wearing pants.

I walked downstairs and met Charlie in the kitchen. He gave me a sad smile and I didn't even have it in me to return it.

"Bella are you sure your ready for school" he asked and I nodded.

"Yea dad, I'm not going to live in fear, he can't touch me here. I'll never let him" I said that last part in a whisper. I have been beaten, broken and crushed. What else was left, I wasn't going to stick around to find out.

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