I don't know what I'm wishing for or what I'm hoping for anymore. I guess the truth is that I've always wanted one thing. Her. I may not have realized it at first but I've always wanted her so very badly. It makes my heart ache to know that I can't have her. TO know that she might hate me. I love see her face curl up into that small smile. To see her eyes light up in a way that makes you breathe hard. I remember feeling her touch me once, those shy fingers run smoothly across my face as she told me about how she couldn't feel things like love. That was so long ago. I can't take this anymore. I want her. I need her.
Beast Boy sat in his room, his thoughts a deadly plague that were eventually going to drive him absolutly insane.
"I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!" He exclaimed and stood up, heading for the door. He pushed clothes out of his way and finally made it into the hallway then set out for a direct path to the living room. Nothing was going to stop him.
He passed Robin who tried to talk to him and Beast Boy simply ignored him. He knew that Cyborg was down in the garage working on his car and Starfire had gone to the mall, alone because Raven wouldn't go with her. Raven was in the living room. Beast Boy felt strong and determined as he walked as quickly as he could to the living room though fear and nervousness started to settle in. What if she killed him? What if he did this and he left in a body cast?! OR WORSE A BODY BAG?! Beast Boy's eyes widened and he slowed down considerably, almost to the living room.
I can't do it, I can't. She'll kill me. She'll make fun of me or slap me or kill me. She'll hate me forever. This is impossible. But I love her so much. I can' stop loving her. I dream about her and I think about her constantly. I'd die for her. SO why can't I just simply talk to her? Why can't I just do this!?
Beast Boy stopped outside of the living room door and took a deep breath. "Now or never." He murmured and walked into the room. As soon as he saw Raven he almost turned around and decided not to go through with it but...like he said...now or never. Raven didn't even look up at him from her spot in the kitchen. She was standing there, making tea, as beautiful as ever and she was about to get a huge shock.
Beast Boy gathered up every ounce of courage he had and then nodded. Walking over to Raven he took the tea that she was holding in her hands and put it on the counter.
"Gar what the hell are you do-" Her angry sentence was cut short as Beast Boy suddenly kissed her, slowly wrapping his arms around her waist and pulling her closer. Raven made a sound of surprise, a soft whimper, then to Beast Boy's amazment lifted her arms and wrapped them around his neck. Her lips were soft and Beast Boy was amazed at how warm her body was in his arms. When he finally pulled back, his arms still hooked loosley around her waist she stared at him but said nothing.
"If your going to smack me then go ahead and do it. Do whatever you want except for ask me to apologize because I won't." BB said softly and Raven looked up at him with even more surprise. Suddenly she kissed him, actually kissed him, in a much more agressive way and then pulled back.
"I wouldn't dream of it."