Book by it's Cover
My life changed so much after my graduation.
I got a job working at a publishing company and told Frank where to stick his job; got to spend so much more time with Joshua, and Edward when he wasn't working, Alice and Jasper had a little girl that would grow up to call me Aunt, Jacob had returned the signed contract denouncing all ties to our son and I was getting married tomorrow.
I stared to feel a little nervous as Edward had left to stay at Emmett's for the night. They were heading out because Emmett had insisted that Edward had to have a stag night and I couldn't help thinking about what he and Jasper had in store for him. I'd already had too much time to dwell on their antics and had convinced myself that he'd wake up tomorrow, naked; tied to a street lamp; with one eyebrow shaved off in the middle of Tucson; after spending the night being danced up on by a bunch of skank's. I thought I'd hyperventilate.
Alice had to grab me and near as damn it slap my face to get me to grip at the little sanity I had left because of it all. I was grateful for her being a friend and spending the night with me. She'd brought Katie with her and I got lost in all her cuteness; remembering how things had been when Joshua was so little.
"They don't stop like this for very long." I looked at her before returning my attention back to the baby smiling back at me.
She was now six months and her eyes lit up at the smallest things as she showed off her gummy smile.
"I know; I feel like I only had her yesterday and she's so big already." Alice coo'd, she was turning out to be a wonderful mommy.
"You set for tomorrow?" She asked as I walked over to the kitchen area to grab a drink from the refrigerator.
"I think so..." I answered as I reached for the handle of the cooler.
That's when I saw his message. He'd used Joshua's magnetic letters to arrange the words
I love you
I couldn't help but giggle.
Edward had left me messages like this every time he had to go out to work or if he new I'd had a hard day. Usually they were sweet little notes telling me he thought I was beautiful or to remind me how many days were left to our wedding. If Joshua was out he got a little more adventurous and left other kinds of messages indicating that he wanted me. I always knew when he was horny; he left the same message every time, comprising of the initial letters for each word they represented.
I had no idea what the hell he meant and flushed scarlet when he'd smirked and told me that it stood for...
Panty's off ready when I get home.
That soon became my favourite and I picked up the habit of leaving him some in return.
These little gestures just reminded me why I loved him and wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.
"Is everything ready over at your Uncle Charlie's?"
"Yeah my mom's staying over there tonight with Phil so she can make sure things get done. I think your mom said she was going to head over first thing too to lend a hand. Are you sure you don't mind helping me get ready in the morning Alice? I feel bad...what with you having Katie and having to get ready your self and..." She cut me off.
"Bella you really need to stop worrying. I said I didn't mind and I don't. Jasper is more than capable at taking his daughter for a few hours you know." She chimed.
"Sorry I'm just not used to having fathers around to help thing, it seems alien to me." It was.
It was strange now having Edward here; he quickly offered to help out with Josh when he could. He'd run him to school in the mornings when he wasn't working early and pick him up after when he was. He loved reading to him before bed and took him out to the park every other Saturday that he didn't work, to practice his pitching. Joshua glowed at having him in his life too. He seemed to shine more than he already did when ever they were together.
"Don't worry about it...I still think you should have let me book that country house wedding venue for you guys as a present." She was almost pouting.
"Alice," I groaned. "We've been over thins a million times. I don't like being made a fuss over, I don't do big and fancy and I don't want some huge extravagant wedding that costs an obscene amount of money!"
"I know but your Uncles garden? Did my brother even have a say in all this?" She realised her words cut a little. "Sorry I didn't mean..."
"It's ok, yes he was and he doesn't want a huge fuss either. We just want to get married, not be a spectacle, and be surrounded by family and close friends." My words finally sunk in as she gazed back at me.
"It sounds perfectly you and Edward when you put it like that." She beamed.
I hoped she saw my note.
Emmett had dragged my ass out for the night with Jaspers too and we'd spent the night propping up the bar at Charlie's. I'd convinced them to go there saying it was significant to our friendship; the real reason was that I knew Charlie wouldn't let my two hooligan buddies set me up. I'd already had to spend time reassuring Bella before I left that I wasn't going to let them coax me into any strip clubs or get me completely trashed. I couldn't wait to marry her and I didn't want to be a hung over too much it hurt while I said 'I do'."
They'd fallen for my rouse about the bar and we'd spent the night laughing and remembering all the crazy stuff we'd done over the years.
Now I was off to bed to try and sleep off the alcohol I had consumed; but I was happy in the knowledge that it wasn't enough to instigate me looking for a pair of sun glasses in the morning.
This was the first night since Joshua had been in hospital that I hadn't stayed with her, and Emmett's guest bed felt cold and empty.
Rosalie and Emmett were now living together and her presence here was noticeable.
The last time I stayed here, before Bella, It was just a room with a blow up mattress that let air out in the night, that you might as well have slept on the floor for all the good it was; now there was a proper bed with fancy sheets and it had been decorated out in nice warm colours to boot. She was definitely a good influence in his life.
I woke up the next morning a little after seven and jumped in the shower to relieve some tension.
I wasn't nervous about getting married; I was just worried about getting my words muddled up when it got to the important parts.
I dried off and threw on my dark jeans and black shirt and went to join Emmett for breakfast.
"Hey dude. Sleep ok?" He greeted me as he slid the huge plate of bacon and eggs across the counter to me.
"No thanks Emm I'm not hungry."
"You should eat something." He gestured back to the plate so I pulled up a stool opposite him and loaded a spare plate with food.
"That's bebber." He mumbled as he chewed the huge mound of bacon he'd just shovelled in to his mouth. "You're going to need the energy for tonight." He answered when he'd swallowed it as he waggled his eyebrows.
"Anyone ever tell you its bad manners to talk with your mouth full." I chuckled as he picked up more bacon. "Joshua has better table manners that you...Hell a monkey would eat with less mess."
He deliberately continued to gorge himself before speaking after that.
"Where's Rosalie this morning?" I asked as I rubbed my eyes.
"Sho's ober ap chowey's alweady...bwismaid." He added as if that should explain everything; I had a hard time trying to work out what he said with all that pork rolling around in his mouth.
After we'd eaten and washed up the dishes we headed over to Bella's Uncles house to get ready.
They'd once again let out their garden to us for our intimate little ceremony. Bella didn't want too big a fuss and when the idea of a cute little garden wedding was suggested, we both jumped at the offer. I sided with her on this. I didn't want to be surrounded by a lot of people, of which most of them I wouldn't know from Adam. All the second cousin twice removed and great Aunts and Uncles...No this was perfect...Just us surrounded by the people that matter the most.
My parents were already there and my Mother gushed as soon as she saw me; grabbing my face and trying my smooth out my hair like I was five or something.
My Father hugged me and told me how proud he was to be watching me tying the knot.
"Bella honey, are you ok?" My mother's voice broke through my moment of isolation.
"Hey Mom...Yeah I'm great." I must have looked nervous because she came over and wrapped her arms around me.
"Why are you nervous?" She soothingly asked.
"I'm not nervous...I'm not."
"You can't fool me you know. I'm your Mother and I can tell these things." Her hand rubbed my arm as she spoke. "Like I know you're not nervous about marrying him; I know he's what you want but there's something that's troubling you."
"It's just that...well...I still kind of expect him to realise that he's made a mistake...that he doesn't want me and my baggage...that he's going to stand up there in front of me and it hit him what he's doing and he'll run for the hills..." My eyes filled with tears as my insanity spilled out along with my heart.
"Edward's not like that and you know it, this isn't about him... this is about you isn't it?"
"I'm scared Mom..I'm scared that I'm not enough for him...I'm scared that he'll wake up one day and not want me...I've only ever been with one other man before him and he didn't want me either, it doesn't instil much self confidence...I..." I broke at the thought swimming through my mind as she cradled me.
"Bella you are enough, you're more than enough and Edward loves you so much baby...You only have to see at how he looks at you to know that. To know that he's given you his heart to keep, with no intensions of asking for it back. Have you ever wondered why books have covers?" She asked as she lifted my face to meet her eyes. "They have covers to hold everything together; so all the pages are safe and secure. Those pages might be filled with love and romance, life and happiness, but sometimes they contain hardship and hurt. Every book has a mixture of emotions and stories, that's what makes them so interesting; each one different. When you pick up a book for the first time, you don't know what you're going to find inside, but it always has two covers working together to keep its heart safe so it can be enjoyed and cherished. You're the front cover to you story Bella and Edward is the back, you're the introduction and Edward is its conclusion."
My Mother always managed to help me feel better.
She hugged me again before leaving to get ready herself.
Alice came in and nearly blew up at the state of my eyes. They were slightly puffy and red from crying. She rushed to get a cool face cloth. She folded it and instructed me to hold it over them to relieve the evidence of a tear fest that had thankfully passed.
Time slipped by so fast and before I knew it, I was stood just inside the house waiting to walk up the homemade aisle to my waiting Edward.
My Mother and Edward's had out done themselves. They'd decorated everything with white and lilac flowers and ribbons; all of which led up to the elaborate arch under which he was waiting for me. Our family and friends were all seated ready and the atmosphere was as sweet as the scent in the air.
"Mommy you look like a princess." Joshua stood by my side in a little tuxedo.
My little big man was the one I'd chosen to walk me down the isle and give me to Edward. He looked so adorable and I felt the sting at the back of my eyes as I proudly looked down at my baby that was growing up so fast.
Alice fluttered around me, playing with the hem of my dress in a last minute attempt at perfection.
I'd opted for a simple strapless ivory gown that was neither plain nor extravagant. It was simply beautiful.
"Thank you sweetheart." We smiled at each other as Alice declared it time to go.
The music started to play as she led the way in an equally simple but elegant lilac dress, both her a Rosalie had decided on the shorter length dresses that stopped just passed their knees. Rosalie followed shortly after and then it was our turn.
My choice to have my son walk me down the isle came from the thought that he was just as big a part in this relationship as I was. Edward was marrying me but Joshua was part of the deal too. Like we were all being sealed together by this one special day.
He didn't stop smiling as we walked to where Edward was waiting. Once we were there, he took my hand and passed it to Edward's
"Thank you." He said to Joshua before he turned to go sit with my Mother.
My Father was here to somewhere but I'd have to look for him later, He obviously didn't want to be seen or he'd have come to find me already. We had an understanding like that.
"You're welcome" My son answered in not such a quiet voice, causing an eruption of giggles from our guests. Edward and I couldn't help but join in.
The service was beautiful; simple and to the point but enough to make it memorable.
The Reverend announced us as husband and wife and our lips met for the first time in our new life together.
"You look stunning." My husband whispered in my ear as he led our way to the awaiting crowd wanting to offer their best wishes.
We didn't go on a honeymoon as I couldn't quite bring myself to leave my son for that long so instead we compromised and stayed two nights in one of the huge hotels in the city. That way I was close enough to my son but far enough to feel like we were newly weds and be able to enjoy all the benefits of sharing each other.
My life was amazing and I loved every minute of it.
We'd been married for just under a year now and Bella was the most incredible woman I'd ever met and she never seized to leave me in awe.
Joshua now called me Daddy Edward too, which I had to admit was a little strange but I kind of liked it.
He'd asked me one night as I'd tucked him in if I minded.
"You're my step Father now aren't you?" He'd asked.
"Yeah I guess I am." I'd not thought about it like that until he'd broached the subject.
"I was wondering...If...well...you'd mind...me ...calling you daddy?" His eyes were so innocent and I couldn't quite suppress the lump rising in my throat.
"I guess if you wanted to...I'd like that...but that's up to you." He smiled and I kissed his head before turning to leave.
I reached for the flick switch and whispered goodnight to him.
"Good night daddy." He whispered back.
"How did that sound?" I asked in ernest.
"Good." He sighed before turning and closing his eyes.
Bella broke down in tears when I'd told her what had happened before hugging me.
He'd been calling me it for about a month now and it just seemed right.
I got my self up and showered figuring that I'd make breakfast for Bella and Josh this morning.
She was already up but pottering about in Joshua's room as I headed over to the kitchen.
I glanced at the door before pulling it open, but then just as quickly shut it again to stare at the colourful magnetic words lined up about a black and white photo.
My mind raced as I looked at the little bean shaped focus in the picture.
"Morning." She whispered from behind me. She sounded nervous.
"Bella..." I couldn't do anything but hug her.
"This is the part where you're supposed to tell me you want nothing to do with this, that I did the test wrong and that you don't want me."
"We're having a baby." I couldn't help but pull her into my arms and bury my face in her hair.
Tears spilled down her face again as she realised I wasn't going anywhere...Ever.
Just a note I forgot to add a few chapters ago, Normus the Gaint is actually a story my sister wrote and holds the copyright for. She kindly let me use it in this story, thought I only wound up using the first and last lines. But she didn't have to let me and she did so I love her sooooo much for that.
Thank you to everyone that read and reviewed this story for me. You made me want to continue my writing. I loved waking up to them sat waiting in my inbox. I'd also like to thank darcy13 for helping me out of a tight spot as to how to work the whole get rid of Jacob incident. I'd been stuck at how to do it and she left me a review and set the ball in motion. I loved writing this story and am going to find it hard to wait for my mind to plant a new seed for the next one.
Love you all, Lindsi