Disclaimer- I do not own Eclipse or any of the other Twilight series, Stephenie Meyer does.

I am still working on my other story but I have had this stored away in my computer for months. So I decided I might as well throw it out here and see if it's any good. This was my favorite book of the series, and as soon as I read it I started working on this. I divided the chapters a little so they will be easier to write, and I can post the second part to this chapter soon. I will continue if anyone wants me to, so please review and tell me if it is any good. I know there are other stories out there like this, but I've had this written for a long time. Tell me if you think there's hope for it.


Chapter 1

Time always seemed to creep by so slowly around this time everyday. It was not even six, I still had over an hour until I could go see her. Bella, the only girl I had ever loved. The girl I almost lost forever. I would never be able to forgive myself for almost losing her, so I felt having to follow Charlie's rules and not be with her a few hours a day wasn't even enough punishment for me. But Bella still didn't deserve it.

I still could never forget the memory of her face as I lied to her, telling her she was no good for me. The pain I had put on her was unbearable for me to think about. My fists clenched automatically, and my unnecessary breathing rate increased as I become more and more furious with myself again. I also felt even worse because sitting alone, suffering hours without Bella was one thing, but I knew Bella was waiting for me too, waiting for the limited hours we could spend together now.

Actually I was only supposed to be able to see her in school and from seven to nine-thirty. But being able to quietly and easily climb through a window had its advantages. I still pretended to leave, but only went out a little ways in the woods to hunt or run and pass the time until Charlie went to bed. Then I would go through the window to see Bella at night, and watch her sleep.

I started pacing now, usually it was all too easy to stand motionless in one spot, but the anxiety of waiting to go show Bella I wasn't going to leave her again was starting to eat at me. I looked at my watch and scowled when I saw it was only ten after six. I headed out of my room and flew downstairs to my piano, deciding I would play a little to pass some time. The house was relatively quiet and empty. Carlisle had to work late at the hospital tonight, and Esme, Alice, and Jasper had gone hunting. This only left Rosalie and Emmett on the couch half of their attention on the TV, and the other half on each other. I was not in the mood to hear what they were thinking, and did my best not to hear their thoughts.

I started playing Esme's favorite song, my fingers hitting the correct notes with no difficulty. I played some of my other favorite songs, relaxing more and more with my music. I was finishing Bella's favorite song, her lullaby, absentmindedly when I looked at the time again. Six-thirty, that was close enough to head over. I grabbed the envelope I needed to bring, and flew out the door.

I ran at full speed enjoying the run, and also becoming more excited to be going where I was going. Coming up to the house I began to hear a conversation between Bella and Charlie, and as I got closer I was able to hear Bella's voice. But I couldn't quite hear Charlie's mind, his thoughts were usually quiet and jumbled. I always guessed Bella had at least partly inherited her silent mind from him.

"I'm confused, Dad. Are we talking about Jacob, Edward, or me being grounded?" I heard Bella say.

"Sort of all three", Charlie sounded pleased.

"And how do you relate", I knew Bella well enough that I could tell she was being careful how she said things, not bringing her hopes up too high that she might actually be released from her house arrest early.

I was at the house now. There was still about twenty minutes until I could show myself, but I was very satisfied with listening to the conversation inside, even though I did feel a bit rude for eavesdropping. I could almost hear Charlie though, now that I was closer.

"Okay" he sighed. I could tell from his thoughts he was afraid of Bella's reaction to what his conditions were going to be. "So I'm thinking maybe you deserve parole for good behavior. For a teenager you're amazingly non-whiny".

"Seriously? I'm free?", She going to let her hopes up and believe she might have early freedom.

"Conditionally". I searched his mind for the condition and almost groaned. There would be no way I would risk Bella's safety to allow her to see him. I wished he would change his mind about this condition.

"Fantastic", Bella sounded as discouraged as I felt, but for a different reason.

"Bella, this is more of a request than a demand, Okay? You're free. But I'm hoping you'll use that freedom...Judiciously."

"What does that mean?"

I heard him sigh again, I could hear in his thoughts how apprehensive he was to say what he was about to say. "I know you're satisfied to spend all your time with Edward-"

"I spend time with Alice too."

"That's true. But you have other friends besides the Cullens, Bella. Or you used to." There was a long pause. "When was the last time you spoke to Angela Weber?"

"Friday at lunch", she answered quickly. Angela was one of Bella's few friends that still talked to her. I liked Angela, she had a good respectful mind. She even got over her discomfort of sitting by Alice and me so she could sit with Bella and still be friends.

"Outside of school?", Charlie asked, even though he should have known the answer.

"I haven't seen anyone outside of school, Dad. Grounded. remember? And Angela has a boyfriend, too. She's always with Ben. If I'm really free, maybe we could double."

"Okay, but then...", he was hesitating again, "You and Jake used to be joined at the hip, and now-" I realized I was holding my breath. I really didn't want to think about how Jacob was Bella's only comfort once. I began to feel the familiar jealousy towards him, jealousy how I should have been the only person to be able to comfort Bella. At the same time, the all too familiar regret returned. Besides that, it was far too dangerous for Bella to visit werewolves alone. I was not able to go with her to protect her if I didn't want to start a war.

"Can you just get to the point, Dad? What's your condition- exactly?"

"I don't think you should dump all your other friends for your boyfriend, Bella. It's not nice, and I think your life would be better balanced if you kept some other people in it. What happened last September..."

Through his eyes, I saw Bella flinch at the same time I did. Both of us remembering my stupid attempt to keep her safe, and the consequences that followed.

"Well", he continued defensively,"If you'd had more of a life outside of Edward Cullen, it might not have been like that."

"It would have been exactly like that."

"Maybe, maybe not."

"The point?", She sounded more impatient now.

"Use your new freedom to see your other friends, too. Keep it balanced", he said still leaving out part of his thoughts, the thoughts I wished he would just leave out.

"Do I have specific time quotas to fill, though?"

I saw him shake his head. "I don't want to make this complicated. Just don't forget your friends...Particularly Jacob", he finally got out the part he had been nervous to say, and I dreaded him saying. It was a condition Bella was not going to fulfill.

"Jacob might be...difficult", I hoped the apprehension I heard in her voice was because she was thinking of the danger she would be in getting close to a young werewolf alone. Though the part of me that knew Bella doubted that.

"The Blacks are practically family, Bella, and Jacob has been a very very good friend to you."

"I know that."

"Don't you miss him at all?" Charlie's words must have hit Bella hard, because I heard her clear her throat to speak and I heard the emotion in her voice in her response.

"Yes I do miss him. I miss him a lot."

"Then why is it difficult?" I knew this question couldn't be answered honestly to Charlie, and I was anxious to hear what Bella would tell him.

"With Jacob there is a...conflict", she said, choosing her words carefully," A conflict about the friendship thing I mean. Friendship doesn't always seem to be enough for Jake." These words made me feel angry, not at Bella for saying them, but because I knew they were true. Still I didn't want to admit I felt any anger about this, so I did my best to push those feelings aside.

"Isn't Edward up for a little healthy competition?" Charlie asked sarcastically. His words made it harder to keep all my anger away, but I kept it away.

"There's no competition", she said darkly.

Charlie tried again, "You're hurting Jake's feelings, avoiding him like this. He'd rather be just friends than nothing." Charlie's quiet thoughts told me how he'd rather Bella was with Jacob. These thoughts hurt, because I knew he had a reason to feel that way. Bella had been missing, hurt, and endangered several times because of me.

"I'm pretty sure Jake doesn't want to be friends at all. Where'd you get that idea anyway?"

"The subject might have come up with Billy", He was embarrassed now.

"You and Billy gossip like old women".

"Billy's worried about Jacob. Jake's having a hard time right now...He's depressed. And then you were always so happy after spending the day with Jake." I could hear how much he missed Bella visiting with Jacob like she used to in his thoughts.

"I'm happy now", she said fiercely. Then the words Bella said and the way she said them made them both laugh. I even found myself chuckling quietly. "Okay okay, Balance", She said, Happier.

"And Jacob." I finally exhaled, and let me self growl slightly and quietly enough that human ears wouldn't be able to hear. He just kept insisting.

"I'll try."

"Good, find that balance, Bella. And, oh yeah, you've got some mail." His thoughts became loud and clear for the first time that night, She's been accepted, I can't wait until she opens this and finds out. I am so proud of her."It's by the stove." I smiled, I knew Bella was going to be accepted in Alaska, I had also just gotten my acceptance letter from there a few hours ago. He grabbed the envelope and tossed it to the bewildered looking Bella I saw through his eyes.

"Er, thanks." She looked down, obviously noticing the return address. "That was quick. I guess I missed the deadline on that one too." Charlie responded with a chuckle, his thoughts still proud and singing. She flipped the envelope over, "It's open", she glared at him.

"I was curious."

"I'm shocked, sheriff. That's a federal crime", she teased.

"Oh, just read it." She pulled the letter out, and Charlie couldn't keep his excited thoughts to himself any longer, "Congratulations, your first acceptance", he informed her.

"Thanks, Dad."

"We should talk about tuition. I've got some money saved up-"

"Hey, hey, none of that." I knew Bella wasn't going to want any help paying tuition. She was being stubborn about accepting money from me, and I could easily pay for it. She would never want her father to try to pay for it, especially since I knew she wasn't even planning on going to college. I was still going to try to change that. "I'm not touching your retirement, Dad. I've got my college fund."

"Some of these places are pretty pricey, Bells. I want to help. You don't have to go all the way to Alaska just because it's cheaper."I want to help in anyway I can to get you to college for a future. That would also get you away from him.....unless..... "So...", he started hesitantly. I looked at my watch, and decided five of was late enough to save Bella from answering his next question alone.

"So what?"

"Nothing, I was just...just wondering what .....Edward's plans are for next year?"

"Oh", was all she answered, and I knew she didn't want to answer this one. Now was the time to step in.

"Well?", he asked getting impatient. I knocked on the door.

"Coming!", she called happily.

"Go away." Charlie grumbled quietly.

The door opened and there she was.