A/N: I want to do an author's note.

Is it my first time?… No. I don't suppose it is. It's been a long time since I've updated…Don't hate me. So …… Here ve go!

Chapter 4

Jacob's mouth was hanging open after we told him everything he missed.

"Renesmee? Human? Blackout?" He mumbled over and over again.

"Yes, Jacob." I said slowly, rolling my eyes.

"Okay. Let me get this straight." He started. "Renesmee spoke?"

We all sighed. "Oh my goodness. Yes, Jacob! Renesmee spoke! Yes, Bella blacked out! Yes, she cried! Any other questions?" Edward and I were pretty annoyed.

"Yeah, but one more thing…" He raised his eyebrows. I didn't say anything, I just tilted my head. He understood. "I'm coming." He said.

"Where?" I asked, though I already knew where.

"Alaska, of course. I'm not just going to stay here while Renesmee is there." He said as if it were obvious.

"What about your pack? You have responsibility over them." I argued.

"I take responsibility over Renesmee, too." He argued back.

"I'm her mother! I can take responsibility over my own daughter!" Holy crud, doesn't he understand?

"I know you can, but I can't leave her!" Apparently not.

I noticed, sometime through our endless bickering, that the rest of the group just wondered off. Carlisle was in the room, but about seven feet away, with his back turned to us. Edward drifted to his piano, and played softly. Renesmee sat next to him on the piano bench. Alice and Esme went to the kitchen, I can hear them chattering, but wasn't paying attention to what they were saying. Jasper and Emmett sneaked out the front door.

I'm growing tired of this fight. No one will win.

"Okay! That's enough." I shouted over Jacob.

"Well?" He asked, arms crossed.

"Fine. You can come." I said, and then quietly, "I can't believe I gave in."

Emmett popped his head through the door. "Is it safe?" He asked.

Jasper's head popped in above Emmett's. "No yelling. Huh. I suppose it is."

Emmett and Jasper walked in. Emmett strolled over to the couch, and Jasper went to join Alice in the kitchen.

"Well, don't you need to pack?" Stupid question. Of course he doesn't. He wears the same stuff all the time.


"Will you be coming in the cars with us?"


"Hold on," Carlisle interrupted, "it's not all forests from here to Tanya's. If you're spotted… Well, you know what happened when people saw you guys in the forest. It might be safer if you come in one of the cars. But the question is, which one?" He acted as if he didn't know it would end up to be mine, Renesmee's and Edward's.

Edward had made his way next to me, and we looked at each other.

I opened up my shield and thought, Well? You know it's going to be us. You can offer, because I won't. I closed my shield again.

"He can come in our car." Edward said, and I smiled. Ah, he listened.

"Okay." Jacob said. He wasn't completely mad, I guess he was just glad that he was coming. Whatever the reason, his temper cooled.

"You didn't unpack our things, did you?" I asked Edward.


"Now what?"

"Now," He stood up, "we go."

"Good." I took Renesmee's hand and walked out the door. Ah, fresh air! It felt so good!

We, Renesmee, Edward, and I, walked to our car –My car –while the others walked to theirs. The seats were nice and cold. I'm getting used to my appearing human qualities… Well, not so much getting used to them, I'm still freaking out, but I'm trying not to show it.

I looked at Edward. "You know what I just realized?"

"Are you mocking me?" He questioned, but with a smirk on his face.

"Huh? Wha – oh. No, I'm not."

"Then…What did you just realize?"

"Remember when I said 'Now, whenever I hear, or say, the word vampire, it makes me feel…'?" I rushed through my quote.

"Uh… Yeah. It just happened at least twenty minutes ago…"

"Okay." I continued with my thought. "And remember when I used to feel uncomfortable saying… um…" I gulped, "vampire? You know, when I was human?"


"So you remember? I really don't have to explain, do I? You know, 'cause you said 'hmm…' so I'm guessing you're considering this, but then again, I can't read minds like you can… but, you can't read my mind… Or can you? Maybe with the loss of my vampire features, my shield is going completely? What if I can never be a vampire again? What if I become human, and I get old, and you're young, and –and oh! We're back to the beginning of out relationship, again, aren't we? Edward?" PANIC! AHH!

"Hush," He ordered. I closed my mouth dramatically. "Okay. I was considering this…" I heard him say "while you were freaking out" under his breath, "and I am…" he smirked, "surprised that you can actually think of that, actually remember all of that."

"Edward!" I smacked him in the chest. "This is not a joking matter!" I paused, and smiled. "Besides, I was shocked that you didn't put those two together, so nyeh." I stuck my tongue out at him.

He stared at me. "… You're not funny, Bella. You see, I can tell you're a wreck…"

"Well, then." I breathed.

He raised an eyebrow. "Anyway, I know you're going insane inside right now. I'm worried, too, and I tried considering what you said, and it does make a bit of sense, but, you might just feel that way with the word 'vampire' because you're confused. Come here." He opened his arms, and for the first time in months, I sobbed. When we finally separated, I looked behind the seat I sat in, and saw Jacob sitting there, with a blank expression.

"Uh… How long have you been sitting there?" I asked him.

"Well," he looked at Edward, then at me again, "the whole time."

"Just wonderful." I huffed and sank into my seat with my head down.

"Shall we?" Edward asked.

"Shall we, what?" I asked sourly.

"Uh, go?"

"…Right…" Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!

"What did you say?" Edward asked.

"Um, 'right'?" I asked. Isn't that what I said?

"Yeah, it is, but right after that."

"Wait…" I paused, "what am I thinking?" Edward's hair is shiny, and fluffy, la la la la la!

"Why are you making fun of my poofy hair?" He asked. I think he actually was hurt!

"Ha-ha! Poofy hair! That was actually funny, Bella!" Jacob exclaimed. I smirked and sank lower in my seat.

Where's Renesmee? I thought.

"You can talk out loud, you know."

Yeah, I know…But this is fun. I smiled at him.

"Well, um… I don't know. Jacob," Edward looked back, "where's Renesmee?"

"She…" His eyebrows furrowed. "I don't know…" His face turned into an expression of panic. "I'll be right back!" He ran out of the car.

"I trust him." I said looking at Edward, and nodding.

"Is your shield down?" Edward asked.

"I wasn't really paying attention to it, but I…don't feel my shield at all… Well, not really feel, but … you know. Yeah, it's not down." My mouth went numb. "It's – err…"

"Hey, Bella!" Emmett screamed. I thought they left…

"Yeah?" I rolled down the window, only to see Emmett with a huge grin on his face.

"You're bipolar."

"I am not!"

"You were sad, then angry at Jacob, then cracking jokes, then you were numb, and now you're angry again!"

"Pff…" I looked away and frowned. "Yeah? Well, you're… stupid!" I shouted.

"Nice comeback." He grinned and ran away giggling.

"Anyway…" Edward said, "What were you saying?"

My shield is gone completely. I couldn't bring myself to say it aloud.

"Ah…" He sighed, and then smiled. He said something next, because I couldn't hear him. I couldn't hear him! There goes another…

"You know, months without sleep makes a person tired. I think I'll rest."

I closed my eyes, and slept.

A/N: Finally, right? Yay! If you could review, that'd be great. 'Kay, thanks, bye.