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Okay, so I should really be studying but pshh, who needs to study for a SAC that counts for 50% of their final mark, I mean, really. Listening to 'brick by boring brick' on repeat and writing is sooooo much more interesting…
Anywho, thankyou to all the reviewers who helped get me to 100. I am completely blown away by the response I've gotten to this story.
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" Edward, when are we going to get the nursery ready? I mean, I'm technically due in two weeks, but we both know it could be anytime before that. And we still have a whole heap of shopping to do."
I was flying around the kitchen, making what could only be described as the world's weirdest sandwich whilst Edward watched on in complete amusement.
When I had finally gotten out of the car, Edward's words had hit me hard and I had resolved to not think about everything for the next couple of hours. Of course, that by no means meant that it wasn't always in the back of mind, but I really just needed some time with Edward where the world wasn't attacking me form all angles.
"Don't worry about it love. Alice, Esme and I have already taken care of it and two weeks is more than enough time to go shopping.
"Taken care of it? What does that mean."
"It means that I have a little surprise for you."
"Yes. But I won't be able to show you for a while yet. Don't worry, it's not a bad surprise, I promise."
"Okay. You want a sandwich?"
"No. I'm good."
He sat next to me at the bench as I ate and we continued to bounce around names. Even though we had agreed to wait till they were born to the name the twins, we still talked about it every now and then.
Once I'd finished, Edward went back to my house to pick up some of my more important stuff and I went upstairs to take a shower. By the time I was done, he was back with a suitcase full of my favourite clothes, a bag full of my classic books, my laptop, my Ipod and a tub of Ben & Jerry's. The man definitely knew the way to a women's heart.
"Have I told you lately how much I love you?"
"Maybe. I'm not sure. I never tire of hearing you say that though." I took a step closer to him and he took my ever so subtle hint, placing a nice, long passionate kiss on my lips.
I was grateful for the distraction that Edward was providing. I wanted to stay at the hospital, probably more than anyone could actually comprehend, but deep down, I knew that I needed to get away. The last thing I needed to do was break down and complicate my pregnancy even further.
"I know. I love you too." Why don't we just relax and talk for a bit. I have a feeling that neither of us are going to be able to sleep."
"Sure, just let me change."
"Okay." I stood up and walked over to the suitcase that Edward had left next to the closet. I pulled out my favourite sweats and the sweatshirt that Edward had given me yesterday and went to the bathroom to change.
When I came out, Edward was sitting on the bed in his own pair of sweats and reading one of my books. I sat down next to him, letting my body slump further down into the bed as the exhaustion from the last 24 hours finally started to catch up with me.
"Watcha reading?" I sounded like a curious two year old. He lifted the book up so I could see the cover. Wuthering Heights. I had never really pictured Edward reading that. It was one of my favorites but I just never thought the like it.
Once he'd finished the page he closed the book and set it down on the nightstand before turning around to look at me. He shot me a warm smile before he spoke.
"You never told me about New York. Why did you choose to go to college there?" It was a simple question, but what Edward didn't realize was that the answer to that question was more than a simple, 'cause I wanted to'.
"I don't think you're going to like my reasoning."
"That's okay. I want know."
"If you're sure?" He nodded and moved so he was sitting behind and my head was resting against his chest whilst his hands were resting on my stomach.
"NYU was great. It was where I met Tenille. She was my roommate for the 3 years that I was there. We became friends pretty fast and she tried to set me up with some of her friends, but I could never bring myself to go out with them. It just never felt right." I looked up at Edward and his amazing green orbs eyes were filled with a mixture of confusion and guilt. That was part of the reason that I didn't want to go into this, but he wanted to know, and I wasn't planning on keeping anything from him, but first, I needed to fix that look. I couldn't have him looking guilty whilst I was trying to tell him, because really, none of it was his fault. I made my own choices.
"Edward, please don't feel guilty. I made all of these decisions by myself. None of this is your fault. If anything, being away from Forks helped me. I got a lot of amazing experiences out of it. Yes, you were one of the major reasons for my move, but if that hadn't been the case, I think I would have moved anyway. Beside's, I wouldn't have fitted in at Dartmouth or Harvard anyway. I honestly don't know how I managed to get in!"
"Bella, you are one of the smartest people I know. You have more than easily fit in there and done extremely well. I'm sorry that you had to settle for second best because of me. I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive myself for that, but because you asked, I'll do my best not to feel guilty, at least, I'll try."
"That's really all I can ask isn't it. You are after all, Edward Cullen, and if you could, you would carry the wait of world on your shoulders." He chuckled and kissed the top of my head, erasing the tension that was starting to surface between us.
"You're so strong, you know that. And I'm betting that you didn't tell anyone your real reasons?"
"Yeah. They probably would have told me to suck it up and just go."
"Well, I'm guessing that the they would've been Alice, and she would have been right you know."
"Yeah, I know, but I wasn't so brave back then. If I were to do that all again now…No, I'd probably still go running in the opposite direction. I'm not as strong as you think."
"Bella, you don't see yourself clearly at all do you? You are one of the smartest strongest, beautiful, most talented people I know. Wait…scratch that. You ARE the smartest, strongest, beautiful, most talented person I know. Don't doubt yourself."
"If you say so." The complete disbelief I had in his statement was evident in my tone.
"What's it gonna take to get you to believe me?"
"I don't know, but no matter what you do, I still may not."
"Well, I'll just have to keep trying, wont I?"
"Yeah." He kissed the top of my head and I slid down further into his tight embrace as the fatigue finally took over.
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"Bella…Bella…Love, we need to get up." I was vaguely aware that someone was leaving a trail of kisses down the side of my neck and I couldn't help the smile that spread across my face as I realized that it was Edward.
I opened my eyes and was met with the world most amazing smile.
"hmmmmm. What time is it?"
"In the morning?"
"No love, it's still Sunday. But Carlisle called and said that we could go in to see Charlie and I thought that you might want to do that as soon as possible." That got me going. I sat up and rubbed my fists with my eyes.
"So we can go in and see him right now."
"I'm gonna go change." I didn't wait for him to answer. I just went around and did what I needed to do and within fifteen minutes, we were in the car and heading to the hospital.
The calming melody of Clare De Lune filled the car but as soon as we pulled into the parking lot, and essence of calm left my body and the feeling of dread returned full force.
Edward and I walked hand in hand to the ICU. Carlisle talked to us about what to expect but I really wasn't listening. I just wanted to go in there and see him.
Carlisle finally led us to a room and we required to put scrubs on over our clothing. Carlisle explained that too, but again, I wasn't listening.
When we finally went in, I instantly had to hold onto Edward for support.
There were tubes and wires everywhere. Just…Everywhere. Charlie looked so small and drained of life lying in the middle of the hospital bed. His face was drained of its normal, bright colour and he looked so…helpless.
The tears were silently falling down my cheeks as I finally let go of Edward and moved closer to the bed.
I sat down on the plastic chair, took Charlie's frail white hand in mine, and sobbed.
I don't know how long I was like that for. I don't even remember Carlisle leaving or Edward moving to comfort me and rubbing soothing circles on my back, but I was suddenly pulled back to reality when Carlisle came back at least an hour to check on Charlie again.
When he was finished, he gave me a gentle reassuring smile.
"You can talk to him. It's more than likely that he can hear what you're saying."
"Yes. Talking to him may even help you a little bit." I nodded still unsure that Charlie, lying lifeless on that bed, could understand me if I were to tell him that I loved him and was sorry for not spending as much time with him as I should have over the last four years. I needed to at least try, I owed him that much.
I looked at Edward and I silently asked him to give me a little time alone with Charlie. He got the message and left with Carlisle, probably to just outside the door, but that didn't really matter to me.
"Dad…" I didn't know where to start. Charlie and I were both people of few words.
I sat there for a while just looking at him, my father, one of the bravest men I knew, hurt like this. It was hard to comprehend.
I decided to go with something that would take my attention away from this grim situation, or at least, I thought it would. Babies.
"Rose and Em are gonna have a baby. She's due in February, the end of winter. Emmett is so excited. He's already planned a sporting career for the kid. Rose tried to explain to him that it would be a while before any of that could happen, but he heard none of it. He obviously wants' a boy, but Rose say's she'll be happy with whatever she gets.
Your other two grandchildren seem to find it amusing to constantly kick whilst I'm trying to sleep. I've only got two week's left, but really, it could be any day now." I took a deep breath before the next round of ramblings came out of my mouth.
"You better be awake to meet your grandchildren Dad. You can't stay like this forever. I need you to be there to spoil them, to be grandpa Charlie who sits with them very Sunday afternoon to watch whatever match is on TV. "
I was about to continue in my little rant, but something stopped me. I could've sworn I felt Charlie's hand move underneath mine. I watched him, willing for his eye's to flicker, for something to move, but nothing happened. I decided to just keep talking. It was probably my mind playing tricks on me and I was sure I didn't have long before Edward came to check on me.
"Edward and I don't know what we're having yet, which is driving Alice mad. That wasn't my intention, but it is quite amusing. I don't really mind what we have, as long as they both have ten fingers, ten toes and a set of good healthy lungs, I'll be happy."
This time, I didn't doubt what I felt, mainly because I saw the frail fingers making a slow attempt to warp around my own. Edward chose that moment to walk through the door.
"Love, are you okay?" I didn't have words to respond to him, I was too scared that I would loose the moment. He walked over to me and when he finally got close, he spotted our now intertwined hands.
"Bella, did you do that?' I shook my head, still not willing to let myself speak. "Did Charlie do that?" I nodded. "I'll be right back love, I'm just going to go and get Carlisle."
He walked out the door and came back what felt like seconds later with Carlisle and a nurse following behind him.
"Bella, I need you to tell me exactly what's happened in the last ten minutes. Don't leave anything out."
"I was just talking to him, nothing really unusual. It was about five minutes ago when I first thought I felt his hand move, but nothing happened after that so I just let it go. Then he did it again, but he slowly wrapped his fingers around my hand. That's when Edward came in and then went to get you."
"Okay. I'm going to need you and Edward to step out whilst Steph and I check him over." I stood up and walked towards the door.
"Is he waking up?"
"I'm not sure Bella, I'm really not sure." The sincerity that rang through his voice told me that he was telling nothing but the truth.
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