Third and final chapter of this story! The beginning has more of the argument, so I hope I did this part of the argument in-character too! (PS, thanks so much for those who reviewed!!!) ENJOY!!!
me when you're out walking
When snow falls high outside your door
Late at night when you're not sleeping
And moonlight falls across your floor
"Yeah, I do. Why, is that a problem?"
"Actually, yeah it is. Because, I can't reciprocate that kind of love, I just don't have it in me, not now."
"Not now? Does that mean just for now, or for forever?" She asked, uncrossing her arms.
"I honestly don't know, Abby." Gibbs confessed, and Abby's eyes hardened.
"So, are you breaking up with me, or what?"
"No, Abby, I just, I need a break, from us. Temporary."
"There is no such thing in a relationship!" Abby almost yelled at him, striding past him. He caught her arm, but she jerked it out of his grasp. He said,
"No. You want me to be what, just a booty call or something? Someone that you can fall back on whenever you need a woman? No, Gibbs, either you have me all the time, or you don't have me at all." She said, standing in the elevator and pushing the button that made them slide shut.
Gibbs swore under his breath and took the stairs. He saw a glimpse of Abby as she strode into the elevator that would take her out of the NCIS building, and heard her sobs and caught a glimpse of her tears.
It nearly killed him to know that he was hurting her that much.
That night, as Gibbs slept fitfully, his dreams filled with Abby, Shannon and Kelly, his front door opened quietly. A figure slipped silently up to his bedroom, and opened his bedroom door just as silently. Gibbs slept on, deeply in sleep, and the figure sidled carefully up to his bedside. The figure stared down at him for a long moment, and then brushed a hand down his cheek. Still Gibbs didn't stir, so the figure leaned down and gently brushed their lips with his.
"I love you." The figure whispered, and quickly walked out before either Gibbs woke up or she started crying. As she walked out to her car, the wind whipped around her and blew her hood off, revealing the tear-covered face of Abby Sciuto.
And I can't hurt you anymore
Gibbs went home, deeply depressed now, and when he got back into work the next day, he found Tony, Ziva and McGee at their desks. When he walked past them, they all glared at him. He stopped in his tracks and said,
"If you all have a problem with me, say it now."
They all stood up, and Tony said quietly, "Boss, have you heard from Abby?"
"No. She's downstairs, isn't she?"
"No. She's on a plane, probably half-way to Central America." Ziva said, her eyes hard and Gibbs was speechless for a moment.
"If this is some kind of joke…" Gibbs threatened, and McGee said,
"No joke, Boss. She even left us each a note, telling us exactly why she left."
Gibbs strode over to his desk and snatched up an envelope, that simply read,
"Gibbs, I'll love you more and more forever. But I can't stay with someone who doesn't love or wants me. I'm so sorry, but I can't let you hurt me anymore. Goodbye forever. Love, Abby."
"It's better this way." Gibbs muttered, and the director appeared at the top of the stairs, saying loudly,
"Leroy Jethro Gibbs, get your Special Agent hide into my office right now."
McGee, Ziva and Tony stepped aside, but kept their cold gazes on Gibbs's back as he disappeared into the Director's office.
"You wanted to see me, Director?" Gibbs said as he walked inside, and shut the door.
"Damn straight I did. Why did you do something like that to Abby? You know how sensitive she is to feelings, and then you go pushing her out of your life? How could you do that to Abby?" Jenny said in disbelief, and Gibbs just shook his head.
find better love
Strong as it ever was
Deep as the river runs
Warm as the morning sun
Please remember me
"Leave it alone, Jen. It's better this way. She'll find better love than what I could give her."
"Are you kidding me, Jethro? She won't ever find someone else. When you fall in the kind of love Abby fell into with you, you don't just forget about it and find someone else." Jenny said evenly, looking him straight in the eyes.
"Like I said, Jen, leave it alone."
"I can't. We just lost our best forensic technician, and I have to find a replacement for her that is hopefully half as good as Abby. I hope you're happy, Jethro." She said quietly, narrowing her eyes at him as he got up to leave.
"No, I'm not happy. But I hope she is." He muttered as he strode out. He saw the team still giving him cold looks, and he sighed, knowing that he was to expect that for a while, maybe even for the rest of the time he was with them.
He couldn't stay with his team, so he got in the elevator and decided to take a trip down to Ducky's morgue. He strode in and saw Ducky sitting at his desk, staring at something. "You know, it's almost hard to fathom the idea of NCIS without Abby." Ducky said quietly, spinning around to face Gibbs. "And it's even harder to fathom the idea that she was driven away by a close friend of mine."
Before Gibbs could reply, Ducky stood up and walked along the morgue, saying, "But then again, maybe he's not as close as I thought, because I never believed him capable of breaking dear Abby's heart, and then driving her away. Only a very cold, bitter man could do that."
"Maybe I am a cold, bitter man." Gibbs said, and Ducky shrugged, saying,
"What's done is done, Jethro."
"Yeah. Yeah, Duck, I know." Gibbs said, and clapped his friend on the shoulder as he walked out, saying quietly, "But that doesn't mean I don't regret it, Duck."
Gibbs rode the elevator back up, and suddenly hit the emergency button, going and sliding down to sit on the floor of the elevator. He remembered when he had comforted Abby in that exact same place, except now he was alone and bitter. He took out his wallet, and pulled out the picture of himself and Abby that he had.
He looked at it for a long time, and traced Abby's face with his right index finger. He swallowed hard and tried to say exactly what he had always meant to say, but instead it just came out a quiet, whispered,
"Please remember me, Abbs. God I love you so much."
Please remember me
Well, what do you think? Love, hate, in-between? I really hope you liked this, and thanks so much for reading! Adios!