Title: The Missing Pieces
Disclaimer: As you all know I do not own ER or these characters, if I did, we would have gotten more than just two short scenes thank you.
Summary: Spoilers from T-Minus-6 until the end of the series. This is basically me filling in the missing pieces essentially that were not on the show, and what I think may have happened. This chapter is set directly after the scene at the end of T-Minus-6 between Neela and Brenner.
A phone call, it couldn't have come at a worse time but at the same time it couldn't have come at a better time.....
"Ray?" she said
"How are you?"
"Awful. I'm glad you called, I had the worst day." She was happy to have someone who would finally listen to her. How does he always know exactly when to call?
"What happened?" Ray asked, genuinely concerned
"A patient came in today complaining he couldn't feel his legs, I was getting him ready to go up to the OR. I was so sure I was right but I wasn't. Not only that, but both Lucien and Carter talked to me like I was a first year resident. Carter actually called me an intern" she said, getting it all off her chest
"Neela, you're one of the best doctors I know. You care about the patients and you make good decisions. When I visited last Halloween, I felt so proud of you. It's just that sometimes doctors make mistakes, it happens to all of us."
"You're right. It's just that everyone there still sees me as little Neela, I feel like they don't respect what I have to say or value my opinion."
"You're a great surgeon, of course they respect you. But like you said, when you start out somewhere and you stay there, people always remember you as you once were. It's a curse. The other doctors may not always agree with you but the thing that matters is helping the patients and making sure they get the best care possible. So what happened with the patient? Is he going to be ok?"
"Yes, he should be released in a couple weeks."
"Glad to hear that. What about you?"
"Me? I really don't think I belong at County anymore. I have friends there, but the thing is that I want to see what else is out there. I think it's time I spread my wings."
Ray couldn't believe how honest she was being, she was saying exactly how she was feeling. Lately she had been changing, the old Neela was more scared and would never want to leave County but lately she was different. Now she was more confident, he liked that and it only made him love her even more.
"You still thinking about Duke?"
"Yes, and I have a few other options available that I'm also considering" she said hoping she wasn't being too obvious. She didn't want to tell him because if she did decide to go to Baton Rouge she wanted to keep it as a surprise but, at the same time she didn't want to lie to him either.
"See you have all these options open for you, all these opportunities, and you were doubting your abilities as a surgeon."
"Thanks." She smiled. Ray always knew how to make her feel better.
"I don't just mean for that, I meant thank you for listening. You're always there for me when I need you and you always help me, you're the best friend I've ever had."
"That's never going to change. You've been a good friend to me too, Neela. Thank you" he said, obviously touched by her admission
There was a brief pause as both of them were taking in what the other one said and enjoying each others company, even if it was just over the phone.
"How was your day?" she asked
"The usual. It's not always easy helping people that are going thru Rehabilitation, I know what it feels like and it makes me feel bad for them. At the same time, it also makes me feel like I'm making a difference too."
Neela couldn't help but feel proud of Ray, he was so different than the Ray she first met all those years ago. He was more mature and focused, but the thing that hadn't changed was that Ray still had the kind heart that he always had for as long as she'd known him. That's the thing that made her fall in love with him in the first place, and it was the thing that she loved about him the most.
"You are making a difference. What you're doing for those patients really matters and I'm so proud of you."
"Thanks" Ray couldn't help but smile, only Neela had this effect on him "So what time are you on tomorrow?"
"6am" Neela said yawning, suddenly overcome with fatigue
"I'll let you sleep. I start at 8 tomorrow, I'll call you after I get home."
Just as they were about to hang up Neela said one more thing.....
"Thanks for calling"
"No problem. I'll talk to you tomorrow. Bye"
Neela made her way to her bedroom and turned on the light, reflecting on her call with Ray. He was always the one person in her life that she could always count on, the one person that always listened to her. He wasn't just the man of her dreams, he was also her very best friend. She loved that she always felt comfortable enough to tell him anything. That was very important to her. Neela had a lot of thinking to do.......
AN: Should I leave it here or do you want more? It's up to you!