I did not want to leave him, everything felt so right with him. But my father said I had to go back with him, and it felt not right to abandon him after everything he had done for me. I love Ben, but sometimes it is not enough with just love. Within me a voice was screaming that I should just get out the taxi and run up to him and kiss him. But this is reality, I must face the facts that I must return to my old life. But I will never forget his eyes, his laughter, he was my first great love...

The first time I saw him, I knew there was something special about him. I was just hard to convince myself that he was the right one for me. When no one sees, I' going to break down, but for the moment I have to act strong. For my sake, for everyone's sake. And it will be for the best if I return home, I think...