This is my first fanfiction ever. I was so inspired to write here, and So i decided to give it a try. I don't know how this story will continue, because I don't know if I shall keep Carlisle as the only vampire in the story. If you have ideas, or anything that could make this story better, I would really love if you reviewed.


Carlisle POV

I couldn't believe how leaving Bella would affect my family. Now, three months later, it was still getting worse every day. Edward was gone most of the time, heartbroken and desperate, on some search for himself. Jasper couldn't stand being in the same room as anyone of us, as our sadness was a constant reminder of the incident on Bella's birthday. Alice was thorn, she couldn't be away from her love, but she had a hard time being away from her family. And Rosalie and Emmet had already moved out for some time, they were just as upset as the rest of us, but they had their own way of coping with it.

And as I watched my family drift away, I noticed that I was drifting away too. Without the rest of them, I and Esme didn't function the same way. We were growing apart, if such a thing were possible. Esme had always set our family first; she had been a rock, always the one to keep us together. But when Bella had entered our life, she had also changed it. We couldn't deny it, we couldn't escape the truth. She had been a missing piece, one that we didn't even know we were missing. She had completed our family. But now that she was gone, or we had left her behind, I realized that we could never go back.

And it was the guilt. Ever since we left Forks, I had wondered how this would be for Bella. Alice said that she wasn't in life threatening danger, but she wasn't doing well. I knew that it would probably be better in time. I knew that she might even be able to forget about us, but when the parting had caused us, the immortals, this much pain, it would be thousand times worse for Bella. She had always been so sensitive. And she was only a human after all.

I wanted to go to Forks, just to see how she was doing. But Edward had refused me to. He said that we had already caused her this much pain, it was better with a clean cut. I didn't really believe that. Okay, maybe when it came to medicine, but this girl had been so involved in our world. She had already told us that she'd never fit in anywhere, and how that had changed when she met Edward. I had tried to talk him out of it when he wanted to leave. But then he only said that he would go alone. Esme had panicked; he was her son after all. And I knew that we wouldn't let him suffer this alone.

"I'm going hunting" I heard Edward saying from downstairs. Last time he'd been hunting he'd left for two months.

"Are you going far?" I heard Esme's strained voice. He only came back a couple of days ago. She didn't want to lose him again.

I didn't hear an answer. I knew that it was my thoughts that had driven him away this time. But I just couldn't help it. I really felt guilty for just leaving without knowing how she was handling it.

"At least take a phone!" I thought as loudly as I could. "You owe your mother that much."

I realized I was being unfair. "I'm sorry Edward."

I only heard the door as it slammed shut. I sighed. He was going away again. Without telling us where or for how long. This settled it; I was going back to Forks tonight. There weren't much for me to do here right now. And with Edward gone, there wouldn't be anyone to stop me. I had to tell Esme though. I didn't really look forward to that.

I heard someone walking up the stairs. It was slower than our inhuman speed, but I knew that there weren't any humans in the house.

I heard a knock on my door.

"Can I come in?" Esme asked with worry in her voice. She usually never bothered to knock, she knew that I wouldn't be angry or surprised if she came and went as she wanted.

"Of course!" I tried to sound as cheerful as I could. But I knew that the moment she saw my face she would know exactly how I felt.

She walked in and sat in the chair in front of my desk.

"Carlisle," she begun. I could already hear where this was going. "What is happening to us?"

I knew this conversation had to find place somehow. Alice had already warned me. I knew what was going to happen. Even though I'd tried to change my mind, she always saw the same outcome.

"We're drifting apart, our family is splitting up. We've changed, and I don't think this is going to get better anytime soon."

I knew she was right, but it still hurt to hear her say it as well. We had both known for a couple of weeks, but we were both so stubborn. Trying to force it to work out.

"I know" I admitted. "I just didn't know how to bring it up." This was true. I had thought about how I was going to start the dreadful conversation. I was a little relieved that she had just walked in and started to talk.

We just sat there for some minutes. We both knew what came next. I removed my wedding ring silently and placed it in the box with my most valued possessions on my desk. I knew she would keep hers too. It wasn't like we we're angry with each other, we we're just not as compatible as before. The love we had for each other we're more like the love for your best friend.

She smiled her incredible warm smile.

"I'm going back to Forks" I didn't know if Alice had told her already.

She just nodded. I knew she would be alright. She was so strong. And Rosalie and Emmet we're coming over every day. She wouldn't be lonely.

"Will you call?" she asked. I heard the doubt in her voice.

"Of course! Every day if you want me to!"

She laughed. "I just need to know you're alive. Or at least that you're still existing"

I felt so relieved. I stood up to give her a hug. "You're so fantastic, you know that?"

She chuckled. "I know."

An hour later I was on my way to Forks. I had already called the hospital, and they we're very eager to give me my job back. They hadn't even bothered to ask why I was coming back. I wondered who they had gotten to replace me when I left. The hospital had too few doctors already, and it wasn't easy to find someone to work in a small town like Forks. Maybe they hadn't found someone yet. Well, they didn't need to now.

I didn't bring much back with me. The house was already fully furnished, and with the amount of money on my different bank accounts I could buy anything I needed. I could probably go a century without working and still be a wealthy man. I only brought some clothes, the box from my desk, and my laptop.

I thought about all the things I needed to find an explanation for. Why was my ex-wife alone with all the children? Why was I coming back to Forks? I figured that I could always say that Rosalie and Emmet decided to get a place of their own. That sounded about logical enough. They were both officially 19 and off to college. But I couldn't tell them why I was coming back. I could always make something up about how I liked working there. The truth was that it didn't matter to me where I worked, as long as I got to do the thing I love. Saving lives. In this particularly case, Bella.

I got caught up in my thoughts, and suddenly I found myself driving up the road to my house. My house. I was alone this time. I knew that the others would visit now and then, but technically I was living on my own. I felt a sting of loneliness as I realized this. Decades ago that had been the reason I changed Edward, and later Esme. I knew that it would be different this time. That I would eventually move back to my family, but I didn't like the loneliness.

I parked my car and walked up to the front door. This house had so many good memories. I inhaled deeply, this place smelled so much better than Alaska. Didn't have a specific reason, but I preferred it here. It felt like a home.

I unlocked the door and walked inside.