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She pressed her mouth hungrily to mine, her lips feeling like the softest of velvet and tasting like the sweetest of fruits. We didn't have much time but I couldn't pull away, not from her, not when she felt like this. Her tongue slipped into my mouth and I sucked on it greedily, having to have more and more. I couldn't have enough of her taste. Her fingers laced into my hair, knocking my hat to the ground, not that it was really noticed. My fingers wrapped around the back of her neck, gently pulling her closer.
"I don't want you to go." She mumbled through her tears, barely moving her lips away from mine to talk.
"You know I have to." I said softly, pecking her lips once. I could taste the saltiness there, hating knowing that she was crying because of me. I never wanted her in tears, especially over me. She was too beautiful to cry.
Bella shook her head hard, a broken sob leaving her lips before answering. "No, there are other soldiers. They don't need you. I need you!"
"You knew... this is what I wanted. What I wanted to do." I said half heartedly. I didn't know what to say, if there was anything else I could say.
"Don't you want me? Don't you love me?" She began to cry harder, her fingers clutching tightly at my uniform.
"Bella! You know I do! I love you more than anything else in this world and when this war is over I'm going to come back here and marry you." I said as my fingers traced over her cheeks.
She shook her head again, her eyes unseeing. I knew she was becoming irrational but there was nothing I could do to stop it. "No. You can't go."
I kissed her again, not knowing what else to stay to her. I only had an hour to get to the station to meet up with my company. I didn't want to waste a minute of it like this. She met my kiss, giving me back as much I was giving her. Her fingers clutched at my jacket tighter, fisting the material. I moaned into her kiss as my arms wrapped around her waist.
"I love you," I said in a low whisper, kissing her again. "I will come back to you. You are my life."
"You better," Bella answered almost angrily as she forced her mouth to mine again.
I easily picked her up, her bare feet dangling off the ground. Her warm body was pressed tightly against mine and even through the heavy dress I could feel every curve. I had only seen her delicate body once and that had been a week ago when I found out I was being sent out. She gave herself fully to me that night, begging me to take her. I think she hoped that the allure of her body would keep me here. And, by god, it was more than a little tempting. But, I couldn't do that.
I needed to do this, or at least that's what I kept telling myself. As her legs wrapped around my body, it was harder and harder to convince myself of that.
"Please," she begged quietly. "Please..."
"Please, what?" I asked, lightly kissing her neck.
"Take me," Bella murmured. "Stay. I can't be without you."
The same words left her mouth the night we were together, the night I claimed her. The same one's left mine in response. "I can't, my darling."
"Take me," she chanted over and over again, her mouth finding mine again. I groaned at the contact, walking her towards the bed in the corner of the small room. It wasn't much but it was her home. This place held so many happy memories for me. I didn't want to have the possibly last one I made to be a sad one. So, I did the only thing I knew how...
I took her.
Ever so gently I laid her down in the middle of the bed, hovering over her. I began to fidget with the buttons but soon became frustrated in my hurry. Bella took over for me, pushing my hands down towards her skirt.
With a speed and agility I did not think she had, her blouse was pulled away. When I saw that she had nothing underneath her skirt I realized that she had planned this. I knew what she was doing and I would not, or could not, stop her. She was trying to make me late on purpose. I could not blame her for it. Being with her like this made me want to be late. All I wanted was her warm soft body molded to mine.
"Take me." She repeated again, lifting up to slide the jacket over my shoulders. I could not tell her no.
My eyes raked over her body hungrily, taking her all in. I instantly reacted, stiffening at the sight of her full chest, flat stomach, and heavily curved hips. She was mine, all mine. There was no turning back now. I had to claim her.
I didn't even bother to take off my shirt, simply pulling my pants down. I knew it was not romantic or sweet, like she deserved, but there was no time for that. With one quick motion I was between her legs, pressed deep inside of her warm body. She groaned softly, wrapping her legs tightly around my waist.
"I am yours, forever." She moaned as I moved in and out of her at a pace that was quickly becoming maddening. I knew neither one of us could keep up long like this. It was too much. Too much emotion and too much sensation. I was already about to burst as she spoke. "No one else. I will love no one else. You have to come back to me."
"I will," I answered breathlessly, looking deep into her beautiful brown eyes.
Her body arched sharply, pressing herself upward into me. I gasped, my eyes rolling back into my head as I felt her clench tightly around me. "Oh, Jasper..." She gasped as her eyes shut tightly, saying it almost like a prayer. My beautiful angel moaned for me. Only me. Her body was only mine. It was too much to handle. I quickly lost myself, lost all control, spilling deep within her.
I laid down on top of her after a moment, resting my forehead against her shoulder. Her grip on my hips tightened, her fingers going into my hair again. She was clutching me to her, willing me to stay with her. It broke my heart that I could not. I kissed her neck lightly, whispering in her ear. "I love you."
She began to sob with the words, her tiny body shaking underneath mine. "I love you, too."
"Trust me, we'll have them beat in month, darlin. Those Yankees don't have anything on us." I tried to reassure her. I gave her a deep kiss, giving her all my love before pushing myself up before I didn't have the strength to move. I had to get ready. I just had to pray they wouldn't leave without me.
She huffed angrily, pulling the quilt up and around her body then rolling to her side so that she was facing the wall. I sighed, tucking in my shirt after pulling up my pants and finding my jacket.
"I don't want to say goodbye to your back." I told her, picking up my hat and placing it on my head.
"Then don't say goodbye then." She said, not moving.
I sighed. No, this was not the way I wanted to do this, but it needed to be done. I walked to her, placing my hand on her shoulder. I leaned over, whispering in her ear. "One month. That's it. If that. And then I'll come back and make you Mrs. Isabella Whitlock." With that, I pressed my lips firmly to her cheek, moving my hand over her arm and taking her hand for a moment, giving it a gentle squeeze. "I love you, Bella. So much."
When she didn't say anything I closed my eyes, sighing heavily. This was worse than the tears. I hated doing this to her. I nuzzled her neck for one last moment, reveling in the softness before pulling away. I needed the memory of her flesh against mine. I was just about out of the door when I heard her speak softly.
"I love you, too, Jasper. Always."
First off... Okay, how many of you figured out it Jasper and the civil war?
Second, let me explain how this story is going to work so there is no confusion... PLEASE READ!
I've written this mostly while I was waiting for my daughter to be born. I made the chapters rather short, between 1500 to 2000 words so it would be easy to write. Not a lot of filler in this. Because these chapters are so short I will be updated 5 days a week. Monday through Friday. No, I will not update everyday, got to give me a break sometime. I'm almost completely done with this story... maybe 10 to 15 chapters left at the most. I know that sounds like a lot, but since I already have around 30 written, it's not.
Third, let me say this... I'm not saying weather this is a cannon or non cannon story. That's something you have to find out for yourself. That's a MAJOR part of this story. But, all characters are in it. And, it's not all lemons. Yeah, I know some of you will be disappointed in that, but this is a an actually story with a plot line from me, for once lol Be amazed!
This is just the taste, the prologue. Regular updates start on Monday the 13th. If you want to find out about my other stories, please go to my profile.
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