Summary: *My* version of what happened to Fred when Illyria came into the picture. AU.

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BtVS/AtS Non-Crossover Drama(2007 Donor)TraceyCFR712780190727 May 0427 May 04Yes

Fringe Element


Tracey Claybon

Minor editing - this was originally posted by me on the site Twisting the Hellmouth in a slightly different form.

AtS - spoilers, Series Finale. If you don't want to know, don't read this till you've seen the end of Angel.

As always, the characters of Fred, Illyria, and the show Angel the Series are the property of Joss Whedon et al. I only wish I owned them.

An echo, a glimmer, a fleeting dream. that's all I am now.

Once I was a human being, with dreams and hopes and a lover I looked forward to waking up with - every day of a long and rewarding life...

Thanks to a insanely obsessed lab tech that would have made a better lab rat, I exist on the fringes now, and …Something older than time has my body now, and sits where my intact soul used to... I'm fragments of myself, and everyone - including the entity - Illyria, they call it - him - her... thinks I'm gone, forever.

I'm not.

I "don't exist" any more, but I'll do what I can to assist those I love, however I can... Maybe, I can help Illyria with what it means to be human... Time will tell.


Wesley's dying in my/her arms.

And for the moment when she "lies" to Wesley, I live again. We share my sadness and grief at his passing from me.

Illyria learns the weaknesses and strengths of humanity - and it improves her. We share our grief and rage, executing Wesley's killer, then throwing ourselves into battle with the forces of Wolfram and Hart, knowing none of us may survive this...

But, this time, if I - if she and I - we - go, I know that we won't go to whatever waits beyond, alone.

And it's my hope that Wes will be also waiting for me there, beyond.