Hello All...hehe...yeah, it's been a while. I realize I was gone WAY longer than I made it seem. Turns out that when I got back from my trip (which was AMAZING) my parents were getting a divorce, as well as school starting and having to deal with AP US History and Marching Band just made it way hard to write. So, I apologize, and I hope you like the chapter!
So now read. Alice makes things more clear for us all about Bella's feelings XD
Bella didn't look at me through class. She didn't even look at the teacher. Her gaze was set to the desk top. I couldn't help myself but stare at her the whole time. Her mahogany hair shielded my gaze from her face and I didn't feel embarrassed at all as I swiped it over her shoulder so I could see her beautiful features. It held a scowl and I yearned to get rid of it with a sweet kiss. Bella's eyes stared hard at the desk in front of her. She knew I was staring. A rosy blush filled her face and she tilted it so I saw less of it.
I didn't like it and I willed her to look at me.
"Bella," Miss Gilesbee called to her, "have you and Edward decided what book you are going to do your project on?"
Bella looked up to her and had a silent conversation with her. I knew they were close to each other. I've seen Bella come into the room sometimes during lunch to talk. What Bella didn't know was I also conversed with Miss Gilesbee. Many days I would come in after school and just talk about Bella. My teacher knew I was in love with her. When she put me and Bella together for the project I knew it was no accident. She was trying to get us to work out our differences and maybe…more.
"Not yet," Bella said curtly. I frowned and looked away. She was angry with me for some reason. What did I do though?
Edward's face fell and looked away. I should have apologized for being short with my teacher. It was no one's fault. Especially Edward. He couldn't help he was so attractive and my jealousy towards him during Lauren's lies flared up and blew up the joint. My embarrassment afterwards made me want to curl up in a ball. What did he think of me now? Either he thought I liked him back and was happy, or completely disgusted.
After Edward came to class he stared at me but I refused to look at him.
"Are you two planning on getting together to work on that?" Miss Gilesbee asked. I glared at her. A smirk hung on her lips. She knew what she was doing, trying to get Edward and I in the same room alone. What she didn't know was I had been to his house and had dinner with his family. I smiled a bit as I thought of her reaction if I ever said that.
"Yes, yes we are. Tomorrow I'm spending the night at his house," I told her smugly. Her smile grew but her eyes showed shock. Edward's head flipped my way and I gave him a brief look. His mouth was open as if he hadn't known himself that I was coming over. A crooked grin began to spread.
Suddenly, I felt even more embarrassed when I realized I just said that out loud. In front of everyone. Girls glared at me and boys…still glared. But it looked like it was at Edward, which was kind of weird.
I knew I had to rephrase what I said.
"I didn't mean it that way. I meant his sister is a friend and she invited me to stay over. I agreed and thought Edward and I could work then," I explained. My face was beet red as a few people started giggling quietly. Miss Gilesbee was full on laughing. She found my humiliation hilarious.
RIIING RIIING RIIING! Saved by the bell.
I ducked my head as I gathered my books and tried to run away. A velvet laugh followed from behind.
"Shut up, Edward," I muttered as I walked as fast as I could.
"Sorry love," I heard him say. My heart jumped but I just scowled. He followed me all the way to my locker in silence before speaking.
Edward grabbed my arm softly and turned my chin to face him.
"It wasn't bad, Bella. Just relax about it okay? I don't want you to hate me either," he said. I looked at him confused and put a hand on my hip.
"Why would I hate you?" I asked.
"Because of the whole Lauren thing," he said like it was oh-so-obvious.
"Why would I hate you because of that? You didn't do anything. I'm the one who screamed at her. Although after calling me names and such for so long I really don't feel that bad," I said.
"I just thought you were really angry with me because Lauren was saying all that stuff since it looks like we are together now," Edward said. It did? I just thought we looked like close friends…but I did kiss him…oh right. And I claimed him as my boyfriend…yeah. Oops.
"Not at all Edward. I was just…jealous," I admitted quietly. I was expecting disgust to surface on his face but instead he looked happy.
"You were jealous?" He asked.
"Very," I blushed. Edward threw his head back and laughed. I frowned.
"Bella, you shouldn't be jealous after someone like Lauren. She would never win my heart. No need to be jealous for that," he chuckled. He did have a point.
"Okay. Go to class, I'll see you tomorrow," I smiled at him. He smiled back and reached for my hand. Edward placed a very sweet, delicate kiss on the back before placing it back at my side.
"I will be there at ten in the morning," Edward told me with a breathtaking before he walked off. I couldn't help myself. I swooned. It was irritating that Edward could do that to me. I didn't want to get to close and now here I was, swooning after the guy, just like everyone else. He turned out to be different than who I thought he was but that didn't mean I still liked him. But…he knew that we weren't really together, right? I called him my boyfriend just to get rid of Lauren, I didn't mean it. Hopefully he didn't think I was serious.
After school Angela drove me home because she had apparently convince Edward that we needed girl talk. Although we didn't say much in the car, just laughing at song choices and stuff.
I went home and cooked dinner, informing my father I was spending the night at Alice's house. I'm sure Edward-the-brother didn't register in his brain when I said her name and I was glad. Charlie let me go and eat dinner with him, but staying the night at his house, with him there was a whole different story.
I went to bed that night thinking of Edward Cullen. And the next morning I woke up thinking of Edward Cullen.
I'm happy to see the sun out, when it wasn't waking me up. Glancing at the clock I saw it to be quarter after nine. I had only forty-five minutes or less to get ready since I knew Edward would actually be on time.
After I did my morning routine I met back in my room to pack a spare of clothing. That's what you do at a sleep over right? I grabbed a small blue bag that I didn't use and stuffed a shirt, a pair of jeans, and my pajamas in it. That should be enough, I thought.
Another glance at the clock that now read 9:57 and I was ready to go. I ran downstairs carefully and locked the front door once I was out of it. Two minutes later a familiar red jeep pulled up in my tiny driveway.
Emmett stuck his head out of the passenger window, "Mornin' Banana!" he cried. I waved timidly.
The car stopped moving and Edward hopped out of the driver seat. He walked up to me and gave me a brief, heartwarming hug.
"Good morning, Bella. Did you have good dreams?" He asked.
"Yes," I said. They were about you, I thought.
Edward smiled at me and took my hand.
"Sorry I didn't take the Volvo. Emmett wanted to come with and I don't allow him in my car anymore," Edward told me as he brought me to the jeep.
"Why so?" I asked.
"Well…because he and Rosalie decided to have an anniversary after party in the backseat without my knowledge. And Emmett's huge body makes it very claustrophobic in there. Emmett, back seat," Edward ordered to his brother.
"Eddie," Emmett whined, "this is my car!" Edward glared at him. He shut his mouth and got in the back. I was smiling softly and tried to get into the car. It was kind of hard though since the bottom of the car came up to my hips. How was I going to pull this off? My question was answered when strong hands grabbed my waist and lifted me up. I clung to the frame of the car and eased myself in. Edward grinned at me quickly as I bid him a 'thank you' and went back to the driver's seat.
There wasn't much conversation on the way. Emmett had chosen his music since it was his car and nothing could be heard over his singing. After that, I vowed never to listen to Slipknot around that boy. He loves to scream.
When we pulled up to the Cullen's mansion I was met with Alice bouncing outside my door. She tried to help me down with little success as we both crashed to the ground, laughing our heads off. Edward ran up to us, helping us both to our feet.
"Are you guys alright?" He asked concerned.
"Yes we are, now let's go Bella! Before my brother tries to steal you!" Alice dragged me off into the house. Jasper and Rosalie were sitting on the couch arguing about something. I saw Carlisle walking calmly down the stairs and he gave me a warm hello.
"Good morning, Bella," he said to me. I gave a shy 'good morning' back.
"Your father was fine with you staying the night?" he asked. I nodded.
"That's good. Well children, I'm off to work. Esme is in the kitchen making a snack if you would like to say hello," he said to me before patting my shoulder and leaving.
I went to give Esme a swift howdy before Alice dragged me upstairs followed by Edward.
"What are we doing?" I asked as she plopped on her plush baby blue bed dragging me next to her.
"Hanging out, what else would we be doing?" she snorted. Edward stood in the doorway staring at us. Alice looked at him and raised an eyebrow.
He got the message and winked at me before continuing down the hall to his room. Alice got up and closed the door before crawling back next to me.
"We're going to skip the chitchat and get straight to the point. You. My brother." Alice wiggled her eyebrows and I blushed.
"What about us," I asked.
"What's not about you? Edward doesn't tell me anything and I really want to know what's going on between you two because I know there is something going on," Alice told me. The situation was laughable. Alice already had a pillow hugged to her chest as she waited for me to gossip.
"I honestly don't know what's going on Alice. We went from completely hating each other and now there's…something? I don't believe he's in love with me. There's just no way. I mean, we don't even really know each other," I mumbled the last part into my palm. Alice sighed.
"But I see something between you two. And you can't deny it. Edward was very elated yesterday when he came home," Alice had a glint in her eye.
"What?" I asked, totally confused.
"He told me about the kiss," she said. My face flushed to a dark red and a groaned, burying my head deeper into my hands.
"Why?!" Alice shrugged, unaffected by my embarrassment.
"Because I made him. He was too happy to have nothing happen to him. A sister get's suspicious when the brood of the family comes in the house skipping and singing 'My Girl' by the Temptations." My blush just deepened.
"Now. Something fueled this kiss. You might think you have no feelings like that for him, but come on Bella. You're a woman and my brother's a hot piece of man meat. Even if you don't like his personality, you have to find him at least attractive," Alice rolled her eyes and picked at a nail.
"Honestly, I thought he started getting ugly when he started being rude. Personality and looks mesh with each other for me," I told her. She nodded.
"Okay, whatever. That's not the point. What I really want to know is how you feel about him now. Did jealously lead to the kiss?"
"I don't know Alice. Really, I don't remember what was going through my mind. It was just instinctual. Just like with telling off Lauren.." I kept myself from saying anymore. Hopefully that jerk didn't spill about my confrontation with the Barbie.
"What happened there?" she asked. Reluctantly I told her the story. Afterwards she was crying she was laughing so hard. My irritation was at a high. How could she find this funny? I just embarrassed myself in front of him.
"You can stop now," I growled at her. She wiped her eyes and bit her pillow, getting the little giggles out.
"I honestly don't see the humor in that," I said darkly. She patted my hand.
"Oh Bells, you don't even realize it," she shook her head. My frustration grew.
"You're starting to like him. I have to admit, my brother has charm. It was only a matter of time…" Alice stared dreamily at me and it kind of creeped me out.
"Alice, you are dillusional. I don't like Edward like that," I told her sternly. I could see where she got that idea, but I was getting tired of telling people it meant nothing.
"Look Bella. Here is what I see: Edward told you he was in love with you and you are stubborn enough to not believe him because you are scared and you don't know what to do. You might not be in love with him either, but you have to admit the attraction you two have for each other. You won't let him get too close in fear he might be right, and love you. I think you're just not ready and my brother was really rash, just like with everything, and went the wrong way with this," Alice leaned back against her headboard and waited for my reaction. I was silent for a moment as I took in her words. My first reaction was to deny everything and shout at her that I wasn't afraid, but…maybe I was. Maybe I was in denial and just wouldn't let Edward in. Maybe it was because I had seen him as the bad guy for so long it freaked me out to see him any other way.
"Wow," was all I said.
"Have you finally seen the way things really are?" she asked satisfied.
"Good!" Alice sat back up and gave me a hug, "most people figure things out after I talk to them. I'm like, the God of advice." I laughed as we pulled back from the hug.
"My, my, Alice. You are a modest one," I said sarcastically. She grinned and nodded.
A knock on the door interrupted our giggles.
"What?" Alice called. Slowly the door opened to reveal Edward. He peaked in, maybe hesitant for what he might see.
"It's fine Edward. Did you want your girlfriend back?" Alice said in a taunting voice. I blushed a little and elbowed her after she said 'girlfriend'. Edward glanced at me then back at Alice.
"I wanted her in the first place. You just up and stole her from me," he said teasingly.
"I'm glad I'm just like an object in this family. I'm guessing Emmett wants a turn too," I grumbled crossing my arms over my chest.
"Actually, yeah," Edward said with sympathy. I shrugged. It didn't really bother me. I felt loved. Although…I was scared to know what Emmett liked to do for fun.
"Okay, Bella. It was nice having that talk with you. I'll see you around dinner because I'm sure you won't be let out of the cave anytime soon," Alice smiled and gave me another hug. I assumed the cave meant Edward's bedroom.
I hopped off Alice's bed with little grace and made my way to the door. Edward held out his hand and I took it. He waved to Alice and led me to his room, closing the door and locking it after us.
I went to his black couch and sat down. I didn't know why, but I really liked that couch. It was just way too comfortable. Edward came up and sat beside me but angled himself so he was facing my way.
"How was your time with Alice?" He asked conversationally. I shrugged and looked around his room.
"Nothing much happened. Although, she did open my eyes to some things," I said. It was cryptic and I knew he would want to pry as to what it was.
"Oh really? About what?" I gave him a look and he smirked.
"Yeah. I figured you wouldn't reveal," he said. I laughed and nudged his shoulder.
"So what did you want to do before my sleepover with Alice?" I asked playing with my fingers. Edward looked up and around his room as if trying to find something to occupy us.
"I dunno. Wanna have a go at twenty questions again?" he asked. I figured there was nothing else to do, so I agreed.
"Alright, uhm…if you had a thousand dollars what would you do with it?" he asked. I thought a moment. I didn't want a lot in life so my answer was simple.
"I'd just save it up for a holiday and spend it on gifts. It's a great get-out-of-work plan," I laughed. Edward smiled softly.
"You wouldn't get anything for yourself?" I looked at him and shook my head no.
"I don't like pampering myself. Nor do I like gifts," I said. Edward threw his head back in laughter.
"You…you did not just say you don't like to be pampered," he said chuckling. I looked at him dryly and asked, "why is that so funny?"
Edward stopped laughing, "have you met my sister?" I gave him a confused look.
"Just wait until later. She'll give you the full makeover," he grinned. I groaned and leaned my head back on his couch. My eyes slid closed and I didn't realize how peaceful I felt in his room. Almost at home.
"Now I just really want to stay here with you," I joked.
"I wouldn't mind," he said quietly. I opened my eyes and saw him an inch from my face. If it was anyone else, I would've punched them. But Edward…Alice was right, I was attracted. I giggled nervously.
"Yeah," I said, "me neither." This made him grin widely.
"My turn," I said backing up a bit. I couldn't think with him so close.
"What's the nicest thing someone's done for you?" I asked. Edward sat back to think about it. He looked at his floor and bit the inside of his lip.
"I'd have to say when my mother bought me my piano when I was six. We were really poor at that time. Before my dad became a doctor. We didn't have much money for anything but my mom took interest in my strange piano fascination and scrounged up some money to get me my Baby Grand," Edward smiled in admiration. I was amazed.
"Wow," I breathed, "she…is amazing. That is definitely the nicest thing ever." Edward laughed, "yeah."
"My turn," Edward said, "what's your favorite color?" I furrowed my eyebrows.
"Haven't you asked me that before?" I asked. He nodded and scratched his wrist, "yeah. I just wondered if it changed. You know, something else spontaneous."
"Green," I said without hesitation. A rosy blush filled my face. Edward looked confused.
"Green is spontaneous?"
"No," I said quietly.
"Why is it green?" he asked. I shook my head, not wanting to reveal. What would he think if I told him?
"Please?" He begged with a puppy dog pout. I laughed. How could I resist the face?
"Because…it's the color of your eyes," I said nonchalantly. I looked away embarrassed but looked back when he didn't say anything. I found him smiling at me with a peculiar look.
"What?" I said a bit harshly.
"Nothing," he said suppressing laughter.
Edward got up and put on some piano music in his stereo. It was very soothing and I relaxed under the smooth flow of notes. I laid back on his couch and gazed at his ceiling. My legs lifted from the end of the couch where Edward was sitting back down, and were replaced on his lap. He smiled again.
"Who is this?" I asked.
"Me," he said proudly. My mouth dropped.
"Seriously? This is incredible, Edward. I had no idea you were this good. You have to play for me sometime," I told him. A small blush flared at his neck.
"Of course," he promised. After that it was silent as we relaxed and listened to his cd. After listening to the cd for the fourth time, my eyes started to droop.
"BELLA, EDWARD!!! THIS IS THE LAST TIME I'M GUNNA CALL BEFORE I COME UP THERE AND DRAG YOU DOWN HERE," was what I woke up too. I was lying on the couch the same way as when I fell asleep. Edward held my feet and gave me a sympathetic look.
"It's dinner time," he said, "sorry Alice woke you up. I was going to…but you looked so peaceful…"
"How long was I asleep?" I asked.
"About four hours," Edward said.
"WHAT!?!" I shot up and looked at the clock that read 5:23.
"Holy shit," I said, "why didn't you wake me up sooner? I thought you wanted to do stuff."
"Don't worry about it Bella, I didn't mind. We can do stuff some other time. It was interesting watching you sleep," Edward said. I got an image of Edward staring at my body in my head and it was kind of weird.
"You watched me sleep for hours?"
"Well, I fell asleep too for most of the time, don't worry. I just woke up about half an hour or so ago," he admitted. Oh, well that's different. Besides, I'm sure I was too boring in my sleep to be looked at for a stretch of time. Although, I've been known to talk. That could've been entertaining.
"We better get to dinner," Edward told me, moving my feet off of him, "afterwards we can discuss the project before you leave me for Alice." Edward gave his pouty face again. I actually felt sad.
"Aw, Edward," I took this moment to stroke his hair. It was jokingly of course, but I still felt a thrill when my fingertips slid down his scalp. He did too, since he gave a small whimper again. I'm not sure if he was joking too, or if it was for real.
"ALICE CHILL. WE'RE COMING," Edward shouted at his door.
"WELL, WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING THAT'S TAKING FOREVER? THE FOODS GETTING COLD AND EMMETT IS STARTNG TO EAT THE TABLE CLOTH CAUSE ESME WON'T LET HIM EAT YET," she shouted back.
"Ew," I said, "let's go." I grabbed his hand and dragged him down the stairs. Alice was waiting at the bottom, glaring at her brother with her arms crossed. He just stuck his tongue out at her as he passed her to go to the kitchen. Alice stuck out her arm to keep me from leaving with him.
"Hey, what took you so long. Wait, don't answer that," Alice said. I laughed.
"Mind out of the gutter. Nothing happened, he just let me listen to his cd that he made and I fell asleep," I shrugged.
"Sure," she said like she didn't believe me and winked. Alice dragged me into the kitchen where everyone was waiting. I sat down next to Emmett and Alice. Edward sat across from me and smiled when I looked at him.
We all prayed then began to eat. Emmett was the entertainment of the meal with his jokes and stories. I think I spent more time laughing than actually eating. I wished my home life was more like this. Dinner at my house was awkward conversation between me and Charlie.
Everyone here looked so happy, like a family. Especially Edward. A few stories of Edward popped up and he would defend himself and joke around like the rest of them. It made me appreciate him even more. I couldn't understand how I could've judged him so harshly on his status at school. He was not the arrogant jerk I thought he was and was pretty much the sweetest guy I knew.
After dinner I picked up plates to help Esme. I knew I had to do something to show my gratitude for the lovely meal and acceptance into the home. Edward waited for me in the doorway and took me back upstairs to his room so we could discuss the project.
"Jane Austin," was the first thing I said when he closed the door.
"Slow down there," he laughed, "I was thinking since we can't agree, we should pick someone neither of us have read yet."
"Um, I've read a lot of books," I said.
"I'm sure I can find one you haven't," he said walking over to his bookshelf. He rummaged through some stuff and said, "how do you feel about scifi?"
"I am so not going to make a timeline about stupid Alien's abducting a human to do tests and turn him into a pig," I said as I made my way next to Edward. He gave me a look.
"Not all science fiction books are about aliens, Bella," Edward smirked. He held up a book about the end of the world and I rolled my eyes. Laughing he put it back.
"Come on, it's a stupid project. Is reading a book like this really that torturous?" Edward asked as he read the back of a book.
I sighed, "Yes." He looked up and pouted. My eyes widened and I looked away. I knew I would cave if I looked. He stood up and tried to make me look at him.
"Please Bella," he said. I backed up towards his door with my eyes shut.
"No. Jane Austin," I said as I fumbled with the knob.
"Bella, love, please," I heard him closer. I opened my eyes and there he was pouting. I don't know how, but his eyes were even watering slightly.
"Oh fine!" I gave up, "but it better be fifty pages long or less." Edward laughed.
"I think Mrs. G will want it a bit longer," he said.
"Alright, 150 pages is my final offer," I said.
"Deal," he smiled.
Suddenly the door began to shake as someone pounded on it.
"Give her up Edward! It's been all day and she's here for me," Alice called through the door. A soft sadness coursed through me and Edward slouched.
"Damn," was all he said. I shrugged and gave him a hug.
"I'll see you tomorrow, don't worry," I said. He grinned and nodded, "yeah."
I opened the door and walked with Alice to her room. I felt better today now that I had all my emotions in check. I felt I knew where Edward and I stood now and that sense of security gave me a bounce in my step and no warning of what was coming up.
Alice sat me on her bed and closed the door.
"So Bella," she said pulling something from her pocket, "ever get a makeover?" She held up some lip gloss.
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