If you love someone you say it, you say it right then, out loud. Otherwise the moment just… passes you by…
Three hundred seventy four days. That is one year and nine days. That is how long Lilly has been back in Malibu, yet it seems like it has been a thousand.
"Miley?" I hear my best friend Travis say waking me from my daydreaming, quickly I answer back, "Yeah Travis?" We are sitting under the tree the three of us had planted a few years ago, I am only half listening as I am looking at where Lilly and I carved our initials into the tree, at least that is until I here her name mentioned. "Say that again Travis?" I ask him as I watch his dimples arrive on his face as he laughs at me.
"You're just not here this morning are you?" he looks out at the clear blue sky, "Miles... what is it about her?" I watch as he props himself up on his elbow to face me. "You know, what is it that you just can't get yourself to let go of?"
Finally giving him my full attention I sit up and lean against the solid Oak behind me. Sometimes I wonder if he wants more from this... from me. I know he gets that I love her, I just think sometimes he wishes I didn't. There are days when I feel like I am doing to him exactly what Lilly does to me, and it hurts. It breaks my heart because I know I am hurting him... but mostly because I sit there and wonder if friendship is really all Lilly could ever see with me as well. It plain and simple, flat out, just tears my heart apart. Seems pretty selfish to me, after all this is the boy who has always been there for me, since day one. So truthfully I could have given him a million reasons why, maybe it was because of how even when it was seventy degrees out she would be wearing a winter hat and mittens claiming she would never get use to "that kind of weather", maybe it was how she had the most perfect blue eyes mine had ever met. It could have been how her nose would scrunch up when she was pretending to be angry with me, or how her eyebrow quirked and that ever so sexy smirk would appear on her face whenever I got nervous and my Tennessee accent really came out. That always made her smile and laugh, you know truly laugh, not the fake kind. Maybe it was the fact that even though it had been over a year now, I still loved her just as much as the day she left. But instead telling him all of that and watching his eyes turn to that dark, sad, blue... I just gave him a simple answer.
"I'm not really sure Travis, I guess that when I look back on my life, I just don't want to ever have any regrets." I look him in the eyes now, "Ya know what I mean?" Travis just nods his head in understanding and lays back into the grass and shade of the giant Oak Tree. I look up at the sky again and suddenly I am caught up in it all. I begin thinking about the day I knew that I Miley Stewart, had fallen head over heels, deeply in love with my best friend Lilly Truscott. I could remember every unnecessary detail.
"Miles?" I watch her as she shifts a little to get more comfortable, she has her head on my lap as we talk and laugh. It was just one of those really good days. It was beautiful out, Travis, Lilly, and I had went to the Crowely County fair that day, he had won us both stuffed animals. He ending up spending thirty dollars in the process, but he did eventually do it. We rode all the rides, had some candy apples and fried bread dough, and then made our way to the calm part of the river to go swimming. Travis had left awhile ago, he had to help his father on the ranch, so it had just been Lilly and I talking for an hour while sitting in the warm green grass.
"Do you believe in love?"
I watch her sapphire blue eyes staring at me like she can see right into my very being. Blinking my eyes a few times I respond, "Of course I do Lils." I look at her with an inquisitive stare.
"Good." She sits up and lays her head on my shoulder. "Miley." I watch her close her eyes and breathe in.
"I can hear your heartbeat." I feel her smile into my arm.
That was all it took.
"So do you have everything packed?" I could faintly hear Travis say as he took my hands and helped me up.
"Yeah, you?" I asked back
"Just finished last night." he said smiling as he put his arm around me and began walking me back to my house, "Whoever would have thought... us two country kids in Malibu for two weeks?" I could hear his laughter, it always relaxed me.
I just laughed and smiled back. My mind was in another place all together. It always seemed pretty funny to me, I mean there are millions of people in this world, but in the end it all comes down to one. Just one, Lilly Truscott was my one. It wasn't over, it still isn't over.
And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
Author's Note: Hope you all like it so far! I seriously will listen to any ideas you guys have. This story is just as much for you as it is for me so let me know how you guys feel about it and where you would like to see it go. =]