A/N: Hello everyone I am back! I know it's been five days since I updated and I'm sorry. I do have something I'd like to share. I am excited to say that a friend, x-helloelo-x, has started to translate the counterpart of this story into French. It is posted on her profile, so if you can read French you can go check it out!
Oh and for those of you who are looking for a nice one-shot head over to obessedovredward's profile. She has an awesome poem that is set around the end of New Moon! It's called Love's Sweet Reunion. It is beautiful! Take the time to read A Very Merry Cullen Christmas while your there. It is great! This will sadly be the last chapter of Admired From Afar. I have a one shot that I am going to write after this, it will be in the Harry Potter universe.
I have a friend who wants to be in one of my stories but he wants to be a pirate wizard and that certainly doesn't fit into the Twilight universe so I will write that and then it is on to the sequels! I am already planning DF's Sequel and the sequel to this and SA! I am going to be posting them both simultaneously. So enough chit chat, here is chapter 7! Enjoy!
I gave the drive enough time to get to Bella's house before I got out of my car and made my way over to stand by the doors awaiting my lovely date. I was anxious and nervous but more excited than anything. Bella would be arriving in just a few moments and then I would get to hold her in my arms for the next two hours. It will be heaven.
Unless she changes her mind and doesn't come. No! Alice would have told me if that were the case. She could have though couldn't she. No, because I stupidly left the house so I didn't
have to face her and I left my phone at home so that Emmett would be able to call and harass me with his crude 'tips' for my date.
It's taking too long. She should be here by now. She's not coming. Maybe when she discovered it was me she was repulsed by the fact. Did she secretly want Newton or Crowley to be
her date? Surely not, she didn't seem to prefer any of the adolescents in this school but who am I to question her preferences?
I am not her boyfriend. I am simply on of the many here who adore her. Though my adoration was a thousand time more pure than the others. They didn't know the first thing about the
real Bella. Each one of them had created their own fantasy of her in their heads and they admired that.
What's Cullen doing here? None of them ever show up at school dances. If he knows what's good for him he better not be waiting her Bella. She is mine.
Newton. Tonight was going to really test my resolve. I may have to relax my morals and kill the insipid little boy. I blocked out his thoughts to try to keep myself from doing something that
I may or may not regret and focused on the angel that should be arriving any moment.
I saw Ben Cheney pull up. He was helping Angela Weber out of his car when I saw it. Bella's limo pulled into the parking lot and the most beautiful woman I had ever seen stepped out of
it. I was in complete awe of her beauty. I found myself smiling and my unnecessary breath hitched as she got closer. Her scent washed over me as she blushed a sweet petal pink color.
Her breathing was uneven and her heart was pounding as her eyes met mine and I found myself hypnotized by her. I couldn't speak. My hand reached out for hers by its own volition.
The gym was lit up to resemble an evening in the park and I was captivated by the way the twinkle lights reflected off Bella's hair. She looked around the gym and gasped when she
looked at the faux night sky on the ceiling. I chuckled at her excitement.
"It's beautiful," she whispered.
I couldn't contain my happiness and I let the first thing that came into my find slide right out.
"No where near as beautiful as you," I responded honestly.
She blushed a wonderful scarlet color and looked up into my eyes. I was once again trapped by her shimmering brown eyes. I couldn't look away. The intensity of the moment was
palpable. I was her captive. I had to do something to free myself so I spoke.
"You didn't seem surprised that it was me waiting for you. When exactly did you figure out it was me?" I was hoping that she knew all along. I knew from listening in on her conversations
with Angela that she had hoped it was me and that made me smile. Maybe my morose mood earlier was for nothing.
"Well, I hoped it was you from the first clue." I smiled by best smile for her. I had already known this but to hear her say it to me was wonderful. She hesitated before going any further.
"Um, well, I didn't know for sure that it was you until the one about us ignoring each other," she said quietly.
I ran down the list of clues in my head and stopped before I got to the clue she had mentioned. I had given her the clue that I had held her before that, so either she had them out of
order or someone else had held her. No, she knew the order of the clues because she had discussed each one with her friend. So, someone else was holding her. I couldn't look at her
right now. I knew that she would see the pain in my eyes.
"What? What did I say?" she asked in a meek voice.
I couldn't tell her that she shattered my heart. I forced my voice to sound even.
"Nothing Bella. I'm sorry; I really am not a good friend for you." I would make it seem as though I didn't want her as my friend so that she wouldn't feel any guilt for hurting my feelings.
She was so selfless and I knew that she would be hurt by hurting me.
"I should stay away from you. It seems you have enough friends anyway." I had to leave. I couldn't be near her now. My heart was breaking.
"Wait, please!" she called. She sounded choked up.
She was already feeling guilty. I just shook my head. There was no way that I would show her this pain. She was too much of an angel to be subjected to a monster anyway.
It was better for her this way.
I tore out of the gym and way in the Volvo before I knew it. I caught the thoughts of Alice as I pulled out of the parking lot but I didn't have the patience to deal with her right now.
I had to concentrate on not crushing the steering wheel. I was hurt and angry. I should have known better. A monster like me could never hold the interest of an angel like Bella.
I am a fool. I refused to allow myself to break down while driving. I debated where to go.
I began to drive towards the house but I knew that Em and Rose were there and I really didn't know if I could control my temper with them so I turned around and headed towards the
only place that gave me any solitude: my meadow.
I parked to car on the side of the road and ran at top speed.
I slammed myself down on the ground and gave into the pain. I sobbed for what I had lost. I was so stupid. Of course Bella already had a boyfriend. How could someone so perfect be
alone? I want kill whoever held her heart, I want to rip his head off, but I know that I can't because if he is good enough to be loved by her then she should be allowed to do so. I would
just have to leave Forks. There is no way in hell that I could sit back and watch the only woman to ever touch my heart be with another man. I wanted to scream and break something.
I wanted to destroy something the way I had been destroyed.
I jumped up and ran into the forest. I ripped up a tree and threw it against another causing them both to careen into a boulder and smash it into dust. I roared in my pain. I felt no relief
in my release. I went back to the meadow to lie down. I just wanted to be alone.
Edward Cullen you are an absolute moron. You better not try to run either mister I saw you trying to get away before I get there and I swear that I will have Jazzy and Em hold you while I rip you to pieces if you move.
Well, I guess Alice wants to speak with me. I have to admit I did think of running when I heard her.
A few moments later she appeared at the edge of the meadow.
"What did you do?" she yelled.
"Then why is my little sister crying her eyes out?" she demanded as she showed me an image of Bella crying outside of the gym.
"She is just feeling guilty that she hurt me, Alice. She is just a selfless person and loathes the idea of anyone being in pain because of her." I sighed.
"You are such an idiot Edward. Let's go back so that you can fix this. She needs you. And she loves you the way you love her. Oh no, don't give me that crap. You are coming with me
whether you like it or not. I will not let you ruin your life and Bella's. She is going to be my sister and my best friend. Not to mention that she is I don't know, YOUR SOULMATE!!!!"
She yelled. I started to stand so that I could leave but she grabbed my arm and began dragging me back towards the car.
"I told you not to start that crap Edward. Do you ever listen?" She said frustrated.
I heard her heart beat as we came to the edge of the woods. Alice brought her here. Why?
Bella stepped out of the car looking at the ground. Alice flitted to her side and kissed her cheek.
"Bye Bella, I will see you soon. Later, Edward." Don't mess this up. I really will rip your head off.
She showed me a vision of her dismembering me. I shuddered. She jumped into Rose's car and sped off. I was alone with Bella.
I continued to stare at her but she never looked up. I finally couldn't bear not hearing what was going on in that beautiful mind of hers. Why did she come here with Alice?
Was she really so selfless that she would come all the way here just to comfort a monster? I had to know. I gathered me strength and asked.
"What are you thinking?" just as she blurted out "would you say something?"
She took a deep breath.
"I was wondering why you left the dance. What did I do? Alice thinks you have some ridiculous idea that I have a secret boyfriend or something like that. You know that's crazy right?
In fact, I've never had a boyfriend. I never even wanted one until I met you." She was flushed from her little rant and shivering. She was so beautiful standing there. So sweet to be trying to let me down easy.
I laughed once without humor.
If you don't have someone then why didn't you know right away that it was me? Evidently there is someone holding you by their side right? You know what never mind. Just forget it,
I'm sorry. Let me take you home, it's cold out here and I don't think your boyfriend would like it if you got sick."
She started to laugh at me. Not that I could blame her, I was a pathetic excuse for a vampire.
"Oh Edward, really? That's why you're upset. Honestly we have a lot to discuss but first you are right it is cold out here. I'd like to get somewhere warm but not home just yet if you don't
mind." The color on her cheeks was beyond lovely. I didn't say anything I simply led her back to the Volvo. I opened the door for her and she slid into the passenger seat.
She looked like she belonged there. But alas she isn't mine to keep.
I made my way around to the driver's side and started the car. I turned the heat on so that she would be warm and my muscles immediately coiled to spring. Her scent washed over me
and it was pure torture. Heaven and Hell mixed in a perfect balance. I took a deep breath to acclimate myself to it.
"Where would you like to go?" I asked through my teeth. I was afraid to open my mouth. I didn't know if I could control myself completely.
"I don't really know or care." She stated.
She hesitated for a moment.
"I'd like to explain about being held if I can" she asked timidly.
I wasn't sure if I could stand hearing this but I had to know so I nodded once and she sighed.
"Well you see I've never been what you'd call coordinated and well, I guess you've never seen me in gym. I fall down a lot." She blushed roses again and dropped her gaze to her lap.
Where is she going with this?"You see, Mike always volunteers to be my partner and he ends up holding me up a lot so I don't do ace plants everyday." Newton.
I growled under my breath to low for her to hear.
"I was afraid that it was him or that maybe it was a practical joke. I was also afraid to believe it was you. I didn't want to get my hopes up just to get them crushed because part of my
brain was yelling out at me that you really did hate me." She whispered the last part and lifted her gaze to meet mine. I was in awe. She thought I hated her. Really? She was afraid to
believe it was me? She didn't want it to be anyone else.
"What?" she asked breaking me from my thoughts.
"I don't like the idea of Newton touching you. It makes me angry." I confessed. I smiled sadly at her. This confession was hard.
"I assure you that this is in no way a joke for me. And just so you know I do not hate you; it's just the opposite actually.
The next words out of her mouth surprised me yet again.
"Frankly, I don't like it either." She smiled and chuckled nervously.
So, um you don't hate me? You did mean all of the things that you've been saying in the notes this week then?"
There was no way that I could lie to my angel when she had been so honest with me. I turned to face her full on and spoke the words from my heart.
Yes, I meant every word. I know I shouldn't, God help me I've tried not to but I can't deny it anymore Bella. I love you, no more that that I adore you." Words could not describe the fear,
elation, and love that coursed through me as I professed my love to her.
She sat just staring at me for an immeasurable amount of time. He face was one of pure shock so I couldn't tell what her reaction to my confession would be.
To be able to read her mind would be splendid.
"Please say something." I implored her. "Anything, tell me what you're thinking. I didn't mean to scare you. I'll take you home." I rushed through the words.
I wouldn't make her stay with me and be uncomfortable.
"Edward, I'm not scared and I don't want to go home. What I'd like to do is go back to the school. You see the man that I'm in love with has been sending me anonymous notes all week
professing his love to me and I need to get back so I can feel him hold me close as we dance."
Isabella Maris Swan just said that she was in love with me. Before I could stop myself I took her soft small hand in mine and kissed it. The feel of her skin on mine was pure bliss.
I couldn't believe it. I know that things aren't perfect and that I am keeping a deadly secret that she can never know but for now I would allow myself the joy of being close to the woman
I love. I sped off towards the school unable to wait to hold her in my arms and twirl her around the dance floor.
Tonight I am not a soulless vampire, no tonight I am simply a man in love.
A/N: There it is the end of the story. I hope that you have all enjoyed it. Please review and let me know what you think!