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Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, or Breaking Dawn…no matter how much I wish I did *pout* oh the fun things I would make Edward and Jacob do. Muahahaha!

A/N: My first Twilight/non-anime fanfic ever. I haven't read the books in a while, but I have read all the books (and seen the movie, I'm one of the dedicated fans). This fanfic only barely follows the original plot of the book.

IMPORTANT: This takes place in a semi-AU. No one has met Jacob yet. Except for Bella when they were younger.

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Chapter 1- Regrets

I know I told her that she should be with Mike or someone…well human to say the least, but I didn't actually expect her to take my advice.

I now sat in my usual place in the lunchroom staring at her from across the room. She was sitting next to Mike Newton, laughing and socializing like she was one of them. I desperately hoped that it was all only an act, just some sick twisted kind of joke. But when she looked up and our eyes met for a brief second, I realized that the Bella Swan I had loved for so long was just a fabricated story. Tears stung the corners of my eyes as she averted her gaze and went back to clutching Mike's arm as she called him disgusting pet names and earned glares from both me and Jessica alike.

I didn't realize that someone had been calling my name until Emmet waved his hand in front of my face in an attempt to capture my attention.

"Dude, you should just forget about her." he said placing a hand on my shoulder.

I looked around me at the rest of the people sitting at my table and realized that they all had the same look on their faces. It was full of pity and I knew that they had seen me staring at her. I looked away and tried to sound nonchalant as I explained to them that I needed to go out for some fresh air. They all just nodded, thinking the same thing, but not daring to say it aloud…or at least not while I was still around that is.

I walked at a leisurely pace towards the exit, but as soon as I was out of sight, I bolted taking full advantage of my inhuman speed. I didn't know where I was going, nor did I care. All I knew was that I had to get away.

I don't know when I got to the clearing or how long I had been there. There were a lot of things I didn't know lately and my perfect façade was crumbling now that I could no longer live in blissful ignorance.

A tear fell down my cheek and I cursed under my breath scolding myself for my weakness.

My sensitive ears picked up the sound of small padded paws carefully placing steps to make minimum noise. I looked up slowly to see the dark eyes and russet colored fur of a wolf pup. It stared at me for a moment before cocking its head to the side as if asking a question.

I hastily wiped my tears before I remembered that it was only a wolf pup. I looked away embarrassed before turning back to said animal that now nudged my shoulder with its snout. I took this to be a comforting gesture and wrapped my arms around the creature's neck in a hug. I didn't care how odd it seemed, I needed a hug and somehow hugging this wolf pup made me feel just a tiny bit better.

At first the pup had tensed at my sudden embrace, but now he (I'm think it's male, but I can't be too sure, checking seems kinda awkward at this point) relaxed beneath my firm hold and just let me hug him.

We stayed like that for a while before I let go, only to have him rest his head in my lap. I didn't mind much and simply stroked his fur gently as I stared blankly ahead.

"Jacob." I whispered. I wanted to give him a name and the name seemed to suit him well.

He looked up at me with questioning eyes before moving his head in what almost seemed to be a nod. But that's ridiculous right? Wolf pups can't nod. But on the other hand, if vampires can exist... maybe I'm just reading into this too much.

I smiled as I scratched behind his ear and he rubbed his head against my hand affectionately in response.

And then I finally started to cry.

(READ THE AUTHOR'S NOTES AT THE END IF YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!! IT TOOK ME A WHILE TO WORK EVERYTHING OUT, SO I'M SORRY THAT I TOTALLY FORGOT EDWARD CAN'T CRY, BUT I EXPLAIN IT IN THE AUTHOR'S NOTE AT THE END OF THE NEXT CHAPTER. I WASN'T REALLY SURE WHO ACTUALLY READS THE AUTHOR'S NOTES (I don't always) SO I PUT IT HERE WHERE YOU'LL NOTICE IT. SO THERE. IF THERE'S ANYTHING QUESTIONABLE ABOUT THE CHAPTER, I'LL ANSWER IT IN THE AUHTOR'S NOTES.)

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A/N: Hmmm, I feel like I'm making Edward too…feminine. Please don't kill me! I'm sorry for the extremely short and really suckish quality of this chapter, but I've just kinda had this idea in my head for a while so I thought that maybe I should type it up and share it with some of the other yaoi fangirls who share my passion for boyxboy.

P.S. Please review and tell me how well (horribly awful) I did.