Title: The Fear of Rejection
Pairing/Characters: Edwina Monsoon/Patsy Stone, mentions of Saffron, Justin
Disclaimer: Absolutely Fabulous belongs to the BBC, Jennifer Saunders and company.
Prompts: Written for LJ's femslash100's IDoF drabblethon post for my prompt of Eddy/Patsy and old photos.
Notes: Set pre-series.
Summary: In those photos of their short life together, there's something that always causes Justin to become cross with her.
Word Count: 234
When Saffy was younger and Justin would visit her on a regular basis, Eddy would cringe when he would inevitably pull out the old photo albums and look at the pictures with their daughter. In those photos of their short life together, there's something that always causes Justin to become cross with her. After his visits, Patsy would pull Eddy into her arms and soothe her before dragging her out to the newest, hippest and trendiest spot in London. They'll dance the night away, drinking champagne and gin cocktails, smoking so many cigarettes that the next morning Eddy's voice will be hoarse, and ingesting drugs that make the night spin by in a colourful blur. Yet despite everything, Justin's voice remains in the back of her head for days after his visits, always asking her the same questions: Why can't you accept who you are Edwina, and what you have with Patsy? Why do you always hurt those who love you by pretending that you're something you're not?
So Eddy would go out every single night until Justin's voice and his incessant questions are drowned out by the cocktails, the loud throbbing music, the drugs and the random sex with strange men so that she doesn't have to admit things that she just can't find it in herself to admit because she's deathly afraid if she turns to Patsy, the blonde will leave her.