To enhance your reading experience, please listen to Good Enough by Evanescence (to which the lyrics here belong) while you read. A link is provided on my profile to the official music video on YouTube.

Under your spell again.

"Kain?" I don't even have to look up to know what I'll see. Your big blue eyes looking miserable. Whatever you want, I'll give it to you.

I can't say no to you.

Even when you ask for something so agonizing, I give it to you.

Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.

You can't have his love, it belongs to someone else. You feel alone, worthless, and you know I can make you feel loved. You don't love me, but you crave being loved, regardless. Even my pain makes you feel better, wrong as it is, because it means I really care about you.

I can't say no to you.

Even though it hurts, I tell you again how much I love you, knowing that all you want is the comfort and security of it.

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.

In an attempt to make up for hurting me so much, (so you do have a heart), you tell me I'm your best friend, that I've made you feel so much better, that no one else has ever been as good to you as I have. But I worry I might start to believe I have a chance, that you might start to love me, and I can't let go of the idea. Even though I know it's just a dream.

I can't breathe but I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.

I get something out of this, too. I start to feel Good Enough for you. Accepted.

Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.

You revel in this, almost drinking in my love. Pretty soon I lose myself, my desires and my agony, just going on. Your teary eyes compel me to continue, further than ever before, holding your hand and telling you everything I love about you, in detail. I vaguely realize that this should hurt, but I've lost me and there's only you now, so I don't mind.

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.

I shouldn't let you rule me so entirely, I shouldn't bend to your will. This torture isn't something I should let you put me through. The worst part of it is that I believe it, for a moment, when you thank me and your eyes say I love you. I know that you don't really love me, but I feel good now, almost high, and I can't make myself snap out of it.

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?'

You've already left, and but I still sit on the sofa we shared. I'm waiting for the pain to come. You've been gone for hours, and soon I'll see you and him both, and I'll see the way you look at him, and reality will slap me in the face. This feeling of being good enough never stays. But for this moment, I still have hope. If I'm good enough, will you love me too someday?

So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.

It crashes all of a sudden and I know you'll never love me. Please, I want to beg, don't ever ask me to do that again. I curl up in a fetal position and cry, because I couldn't say no.

Well, that was emotionally exaughsting to write. In case anyone's confused, the gist of that was Ruka feels worthless and horrible because she'll never be good enough for Kaname, so she asks Kain to make her feel better. This isn't the first time, and it won't be the last, but Kain can't say no.

I don't own Vampire Knight, Evanescance, or this song, but I sure wish I did. Please review!