Keep Moving Forward
DISCLAIMER - ALL CHARACTERS BELONG TO STEPHANIE MEYERS. STORYLINE BELONGS TO ME.
Bella is the reincarnation of Wiccan Goddess, from the moment of her birth universal destiny decided her fate. She did not get to spend a lot of time with her father, Charlie, because of misunderstandings and miscommunication with her parents. After the death of her mother and stepfather in a car accident she moved to Forks to live with and get to know her dad better but also to learn more about her ancestry. She's been dreaming of Jasper and the Cullens years before meeting them and feels a pull towards Jasper but does not understand why. Edward is a manipulator who falls hard for Bella who is not remotely interested in him. On her 18th birthday she comes into her powers as tragedy strikes and she must learn to let fate have a hand in her life in order to fully control her destiny. In the process of finding herself she also finds the ability to keep moving forward as obstacles find themselves placed in her way by fate and by others.
Drowning out the the voices I take some time to reminisce over all the times I had with Renee and more recently, my stepfather Phil, then those memories are pushed away with flashes of my real father Charlie and more tears fall from my eyes as I wish he was here to hug and comfort me. Having Renee for a mother was great but I felt more like I was the mother and she was the daughter, laughing silently remembering all of the crazy things she would get herself into. I then double over in my seat in pain knowing that I will never have those moments again because she is gone.
I was truly hoping that Charlie would be here so I could be comforted by a least one of my parents, but I have not heard back from him since I left the message about Renee's funeral. There was still a lot to do and I needed some strength to hold onto in order to get through the rest of the week. I think I had already made the decision to surprise Charlie with a visit and see if I could stay with him before looking into emancipating myself. Hopefully he would want me there as I reminisce about all the fun summers with him.
I remember Charlie teaching me how to ride a bicycle, flying a kite and cooking on the grill in the backyard. I laugh silently when I remember having to tell him about going to the store to pick up tampons and the look on his face when he asked me if I needed help choosing.
Opening my eyes she wipes away the tears as the Pastor calls the wake to an end and the mourners start to disperse. Standing up I walk over to the closed casket of my mother and toss a blood red rose into the hole whispering, "Thanks for being my mother, I'll never forget you." Taking one more deep breath I turn and lift my head and looking straight into the eyes of my father. Stunned for just a moment I run to him and leap into his arms. Wrapping my arms around his neck I hug him tightly as he returns the hug just as tightly sobbing, "Bella, I'm so sorry," as I continue to sob and cry some more.
Taking a deep breath to calm myself I loosen my hold a little, lift my head and whisper, "Charlie, it was never your fault, Mom choose her path and you should never apologize for that. I'm glad you came, I didn't think you would. I've missed you all these years and was wondering if maybe I did something to make you not want to see me."
Feeling a finger underneath her chin she lifts her head to see hope, love and understanding in Charlie's eyes, "It was never you Bella, you have to believe that. Your mom thought spending time with me during those summers was making you hurt more because you were always depressed when you came back to her."
"Huh? Is that what she thought. No, I was depressed because I could not spend more time with you and I had to come back. I was never hurt by our time together I was hurt that she only let me spend a couple of weeks and I wanted to spend the whole summer. That was always one of our major arguments." I mumble laying my head on his chest again. Without lifting my head I say loudly, "I know it might be unexpected and you can say no if you want but I was wondering if I can come and live with you until I graduate from high school."
Charlie inhales sharply before cradling my head between his hands and lifting it to look me straight in the eyes with so much love and happiness saying, "I would love that, Bella. Nothing would make me happier than to have you come and stay with me, just as long as you call me Dad."
"Thanks Dad," I say before hugging him again as we walk towards the limo parked at the curb.
Walking up to the group of mourners I make sure to stay behind others as I crane my neck to get a glimpse of the daughter I have only seen a couple of weeks every couple of summers. Running my hand down my shirt to straighten it up I finally sees her stand up and walk over to the closed casket and toss a rose in.
I can't decide if I want to walk up to her or turn away, but before I can make a decision she turns and notices me standing there. Before I can get a chance to react she's running at me and jumping into my arms hugging me so tightly it almost hurts. I close my eyes in relief and happiness that she actually wants to hug me whispering, "Bella, I'm so sorry." I tighten my hold as she continues to cry and sob softly.
I continue to hug her basking in the warm feelings of finally being able to be near her after all of these years and attempts to broach the subject of her coming to live with him when she starts to speak.
"Charlie, it was never your fault, Mom choose her path and you should never apologize for that. I'm glad you came, I didn't think you would. I've missed you all these years and was wondering if maybe I did something to make you not want to see me." I tighten my hold on her as joy overwhelms me that she wants to live with me as much as I want her there.
Pulling away a little I place a finger under her chin and look at her with all the love and joy I can muster in my eyes as I tell her, "It was never you Bella, you have to believe that. Your mom thought spending time with me during those summers was making you hurt more because you were always depressed when you came back to her."
I can see confusion then anger on her face as she processes this information in her mind as she whispers, "Why would she lie to me?" Before she shakes her head takes a deep breath to calm herself and states, "Huh? Is that what she thought. No, I was depressed because I could not spend more time with you and I had to come back.
"I was never hurt by our time together I was hurt that she only let me spend a couple of weeks and I wanted to spend the whole summer. That was always one of our major arguments." she mumbles laying her head on my chest again. Without lifting her head she says loudly, "I know it might be unexpected and you can say no if you want but I was wondering if I can come and live with you until I graduate from high school."
Inhaling sharply I tighten my hold again secretly jumping for joy that she still wants to come live with me as I lift her head and say, "I would love that, Bella. Nothing would make me happier than to have you come and stay with me, just as long as you start calling me Dad."
"Thanks Dad," she says before hugging me again as we walk towards the limo parked at the curb.
I was extremely glad that Charlie wants me to come and live with him, what better way to keep moving forward with my life than to have him there with me.
2 weeks later
The last two weeks have been a whirlwind of grief, anger and acceptance as I come to terms with the things my mom did to make herself happy instead of the both of us. Instead of flying to Forks, I asked Dad if we could drive there since it would give me a chance to get to know him some more but also work on my driving skills.
Finding out from Ch-Dad what was really going on almost set me back into a major depression but eventually I figured out that fate has stepped in and directed my path to this point, which has given me my Dad back so I can't complain. It was during the reading of the will that both Dad and I found out about the trust fund that my mom has in my name as well as the rest of the money and investments she had going on for years.
Dad was extremely surprises when I showed him my baby, the Kawasaki Ninja 250R, that I bought with my allowance before the accident. However he would not let me ride it down to Forks so we picked up a trailer instead. Even though we were driving down in a rental car, I agreed with Dad that as soon as we got to Seattle I would buy a regular car. Right now it's a toss up between a Lotus Exige, Dodge Durango, Ferrari 599GTB Fiorano or Ford Mustang Shelby GT500. Yeah, I know too many perfect cars to choose from.
Well I decided that if I must get a car might as well travel in style. Especially since it turns out my Mom was from old money and just did not want it and had written a will leaving everything to me, making me one of the wealthiest teens in history. I can't actually say that I am happy about this turn of events but I am glad that I will not have to worry about money for the rest of my nine lives.
I am not surprised about how touched Charlie was when I told him that I did not want him to sell his house so we could move into something better. Although I did convince him to do some upgrades because if I was going to be doing all the cooking I would need a better kitchen to cook in.
I also got him to agree to adding on a recreation/weight room because I wanted to continue my kick boxing classes and I would have a trainer come out to train me so that I would not have to travel to Seattle for evening classes. I think he mainly agreed because he did not want me traveling at night back and forth from Seattle. I love that he is protective of me already but leaves me the space to do my own thing, he does not hover like he needs to hold my hand or anything.
We finally pull up to the house the Friday before school starts, we spend the morning unpacking and while dinner is cooking on the stove I spend the rest of the day washing down my baby, secretly hoping that Charlie will let me drive her to school on Monday. As I am finishing up with my baby, I get the feeling that someone is watching me, so I look up and towards the woods but all I see is trees and the markers that me and Charlie set up for the renovations. Just as I am about to walk towards the woods behind the house to investigate Charlie calls me saying that the timer on the oven has gone off.
I pause and take one last look at the woods before heading into the house.
This is my first fanfiction and as much as I love all things Bella and Edward. I wanted to try something new see what happens in my world.