I held Bella close to my body running my hands up and down her back. She had fallen asleep almost instantly but I still couldn't sleep. I felt horrible that she had the dream about me cheating on her. I knew I would never and could never do that to her, I just wish she believed it as much as I did. Bella was my world; I'd do anything for that girl. That did not include hurting her and bring her to tears.
I had to make this right but I didn't know how. There was one thing I wanted to do but knew we weren't even close to ready for that. Someday we would be though; someday when it was right Bella would be mine forever. That thought alone made me feel amazing.
Of course there were things that I worried about happening. I worried that Bella's "friend" Jacob wanted more with her. Worried that stupid Tanya would be back not only to hurt me but also my love. And I worried that one day Bella would wake up and realize she was way too good for me. I couldn't help but worry; it was part of who I was. But lying with Bella made all those worries disappear.
Holding her in my arms not only felt right but I knew in my bones that it was right. I knew that I truly did hold it all when I held her.
I'm sorry I know this is very sudden but I just feel like the story needs to end. I'm happy with the way it turned out but it wasn't the original story I had in mind. I'm so very sorry to the readers out there that wanted more of this story, but I don't want to ruin it anymore then I feel like I have.
I may come back to this story later, mabye jump a few years ahead but I'm not sure yet. I'm still trying to figure everything out.
As for all you readers, you have been amazing. I never knew that I would have so many of you when I first started. I feel like I not only have amazing readers but some pretty great friends. Thank you so much for that, you don't know how much it means to me.
I do have other stories in mind that I will write but it might take me a little while to do so. Again I'm so sorry.