Disclaimer - I (obviously) don't own anything. Not even Jazz. Oh well.
"What do you mean you can't stay here?" I asked my wife.
"Exactly what it sounds like, Jasper," she sighed. "It's not you, it's me."
"So I suppose our marriage means nothing at all," I scoffed.
"No Jazz, it means a lot. It's just that it's not right anymore. I had a vision-"
"You and your visions, Alice. You yourself know that half the time they aren't relevant."
"Only when it concerns some things. I saw him, Jazz. He needs my help."
I bit back the rage that threatened to consume me. "And who might 'he' be?"
"The one who made me," she replied. "I think he's my true mate."
"So I'm just your while it was convenient mate," I said. "No that's cool. I get it. I'm down with usury," I sneered.
She took my hands and tried to hold my gaze, even though I carefully avoided it. "I never said it was forever," she said quietly.
"Funny, because that's what you lead me to believe."
I had to get out of there, so I was hunting nearby the house when I heard something in the brush behind me. "Leave me alone, Alice," I muttered.
"It's not Alice", Carlisle said. "She told me you were out here."
"I'll bet she did," I said. "I suppose you're here to tell me everything will be okay, right?"
He looked down. "Something like that."
"And why's that, Carlisle?"
"Listen, my son. I know it feels awful now, but it'll get better."
"Will it? My wife just informed me that my marriage has been a sham. That I was only a time waster while she waited for someone better to come along. She gave me hope and then snatched it away from me after I had begun to think that maybe my life wasn't completely fucked after all."
"Your life isn't fucked, Jasper," Carlisle said. "The hope you felt may have been set off by meeting Alice, but it was within you the whole time. She may have helped you to discover your humanity, but only you can control that. Another person cannot dictate your actions, only you can. You chose to live your life in this more civilized manner, and her leaving won't change that."
"I know that you're right, I think I just need some time to think things through." I sighed. "I will be back later. After she leaves."
"All right, my son," Carlisle said. "We are all here for you though, please don't forget that. We take care of our family, and you are an important, irreplaceable part of the Cullen family."
"Thanks, Carlisle," I said, nodding at him. "I appreciate everything."
I didn't come home that night, because I was sure that Alice was still there. I had to admit to myself, things didn't feel as if they would have lasted forever, but it was easier to lie to myself than deal with the idea of having to face things alone. I was pretty sure that I would have caused a scene if we were in the same room again though, so I decided to just stay away. Instead, I ran to Canada and decided to hunt some bigger game. I had school on Monday anyway, and since I was so new to the "vegetarian" lifestyle, I tried to gorge myself on large predatory animals so that I could be around the humans easier. Carlisle must have told my siblings to leave me alone too, because I half expected Emmett or Edward to show up in the forest where I was hunting. It was nice to be alone for a little while though, to get my head together.
I returned at roughly six in the morning on Monday, just enough time to change my clothes and get myself cleaned up. "Where the hell have you been, bro?" Emmett asked, draping a heavy arm across my shoulders.
"Canada," I replied simply.
"I got it, I got it, hunting grizzlies without me. Some brother you are," he said good-naturedly.
"I know, I suck," I said, grinning at him. "Next time I'll be sure to send you an invite."
"You'd better," he said turning around to meet Rosalie at the bottom of the stairs. I resisted an urge to scowl at this; just because my wife left me didn't mean I had to punish my brother for still having a marriage that was intact. I had no idea how I was going to sit around and watch their displays of affection without ending up in a downward spiral of self-pity though.
"You'll be fine," Edward said, obviously reading my thoughts.
"You the new fortune teller around here, Eddie?" I asked bitterly.
"Come on Jasper, you know I only want to help," he said, looking down.
I immediately felt bad. "I know, I know. I'm sorry. You guys are just gonna have to bear with me I guess, I'll learn how to deal with it." I rolled my eyes. "There are other fish in the sea."
"Are you ready? We ought to get going," Edward said, looking at his watch. "Otherwise I can't get a parking spot away from where all the humans with poor motor skills will be driving, and I don't feel like repainting the Volvo again."
When we arrived at Forks High School, I could feel the buzz of excitement around me. "Why is everyone so keyed up?" I asked my siblings.
Emmett listened closely for a second. "New student today. Police Chief's daughter."
Rosalie rolled her eyes. "At least all the boys will have someone new to stare at for a while."
"Aww Rosie, I thought you liked the attention," Emmett said with a grin.
"It gets tiring from this crowd," she replied with a small shrug.
"I'll see you guys at lunchtime," Edward said, heading towards the office building. "I have to go give them the excuse for Al…her disappearance," he quickly avoided saying her name, sending me an apologetic glance.
"Listen, don't worry about not saying her name and all that garbage," I said. "I have to get over it, and part of getting over it is accepting it. It wasn't meant to be, so I'm okay with it. Whatever." Rosalie and Emmett exchanged a glance. "Really. I mean it."
The first part of the day went by without much notice…same old high school business. I've been through high school so many times that one day basically melds into the next.
At lunchtime, I bypassed the lunch line and just made my way to our usual table – the one that none of the other students dared to go near. When Edward, Emmett and Rosalie arrived, it felt quiet without Alice there, but at the same time I also found myself relaxing into the new situation. After all, if I wasn't good enough for her, why should I give her the time of day in the first place?
I took the opportunity to scan the cafeteria, something I hadn't done in a while due to my always having Alice to talk to, when my eyes fell on a girl that I had never seen before. She had to be the chief's daughter; the way the kids at her table were flocking around her and practically drooling on her made that clear.
I suddenly found myself locking eyes with the girl, and she held my gaze for a couple seconds before quickly looking down. She was quite pretty…no, my mind corrected, beautiful even. She had long mahogany hair and chocolate brown eyes set into a heart shaped face. Granted, I wasn't my best around humans but I absolutely had to talk to her.
"I wouldn't," Edward said, catching my arm as I stood up to do just that. He seemed as if he too was fixated on her, his brow creasing in frustration as he stared at her.
"What the hell's your problem, Edward?" Emmett laughed. "You look like you're in pain."
"Oh, it's nothing," Edward said, turning around quickly. "Nothing at all."