Sooo, here it is, the last chapter of BHLB. I honestly don't know what to be: happy, sad, excited. I have loved working on this, hopefully growing as a writer and entertaining y'all at the same time. There are sooo many of you guys that I want to give a special thanks to, but if I did it would take forever and I might miss someone -- I'd hate to do that. I just want you all to know that I am thankful for everyone who reviewed, read and put BHLB on your favorites or alert because that is so exciting to me. I started this little story and I didn't know if anyone was going to read, and I never expected to have so many of you reading and liking it!
I want to give a big thanks to Mombailey because she is awesome. Seriously around chapter five or so, Alisha started reading, asked for the playlist and we just started chatting. She then asked me to read something she wrote, which I happily did (shocked anyone would think enough of my writing to ask for my advice). It all started from there. Now, I email her to ask things like, "What would Edward call Bella's vagina?" Yeah, that happened. Anywho, she's awesome, she's a great writer and you should check out her stuff.
Also, thanks to Hannah, even though, I have no idea if she is still reading and the girl NEVER answered my last facebook message... (when she comes home for her next break, I am going to have lay the smack down on her) Anyway, I turned Hannah onto my secret addiction known as fan fiction and then we chatted about it while my sister rolled her eyes. She is the one who actually encouraged me when I got the notion to write a story of my own, told me that it wasn't silly. I probably still would have posted without her because I was just itching to do it, but she was a big encouragement. That first chapter of BHLB was NERVEWRACKING to post!
Then, last but not least, huge THANKS to all of the girls that came and played on the BHLB thread. You girls always make me smile, even though y'all keep calling me Tinkle.
So, this AN is turning into a long, winded speech. No one wants that. There is still an epilogue to come which will move us into the future plus the outtake (which is some future loving which I have already planned in my head -- get ready. I will post it in the BHLB Outtakes which is listed in my stories list.)
This chapter is set to the melodious music styling of Cat Power. More specifically: Sea of Love, Half of You, and The Greatest.
Twilight? Never going to be mine.
We run until we reached the meadow, stopping at the outer barrier of trees. I stand right next to my love, gripping her hand in mine. Her hair is blown out behind her, tangled from the wind, and I reach out tentatively to run my fingers through her silky strands. As my hand creeps closer, I can feel my nervousness kick in. Even though we have declared our love, does it mean I have to ask before I touch her? So much of my life for the past few months has been denying myself from Bella, I almost don't know how to proceed.
The moment my fingertips brush the bottom of hair, flirting with the middle of her back, she lets out a quiet moan, spurring me on. I turn to face her, raising my other hand to the stray pieces, pushing them out of her eyes, tucking them behind her ear. "Can I kiss you?" I ask in the barest of whispers.
"You never have to ask to kiss me, Edward," she says with a smile, lighting up her entire face. "Do you want me to ask before I kiss you?" she continues in a playful voice as she traces the length of my arms with her hands. "I hope you don't because I plan on kissing you as often as possible."
"I'd like that."
"You would?" She smiles, moving one of her delicate hands to my face, cupping my cheek reverently before she moves in closer, standing on her tip toes as she pulls me down. Our lips meet in the middle, desperate for the connection, to move together as one. I take her bottom lip into mine, lavishing it with my tongue, and she opens her mouth to me, silently asking to deepen the kiss. With pleasure, I seek out her tongue with mine before exploring the caverns of her mouth.
Her venom, a lingering taste of mine with a sweet flavor all her own, mixes with mine, and I swallow it down my throat, relishing that I can take a part of her inside of me. She breaks our kiss with heavy breath, and I move in closer, nuzzling her cheek with my nose, taking in her wonderful scent mixed with her arousal. With one hand rooted on my face, the other takes my empty hand, interlacing our fingers before she tugs me into the meadow behind her, and I happily follow her in the sunshine.
She looks back at me, and I can see the reflection of my sparkling body in her eyes. A giant smile graces her face as she runs her eyes over my entire being, drinking me in. "You are so beautiful," she murmurs when she reaches my face again. "I love you, Edward."
"I love you, Bella, so much," I say with a small smile. "I never knew I could feel this way. I never thought I would find what I was looking for."
"Me neither," she agrees, nodding fervently. "I had given up before you. There was nothing left for me, but there was never really anything to begin with. You took me out of my self imposed darkness, thrusting me into the light, and then you waited patiently for my eyes to adjust. When I finally could see, all I could see was you. You are the reason, Edward. I would not be here without you."
"No, Bella," I reply with a chaste kiss on her lips. "You are the reason. You burst into my life, throwing my repetitious life into a tailspin, shaking it up in the best possible ways. Before you, I was only going through the motions. Even with my family, I was alone, but I didn't know that such a huge part of me was missing. Then you stumbled into my life, and I realized that what was missing was you." I put my hands on her face, bringing mine down to hers until we are inches apart, and I let her sweet breath envelope my senses until I am swimming in her essence. "You filled the Bella sized hole I had. I have been waiting for you my entire life," I say with a smile.
"A Bella sized hole?" She questions with a carefree laugh, her eyes twinkling, and I nod in answer, bringing our lips together for a languid kiss. There is only love, pure love behind it, and it warms my entire body. I have never felt more complete.
"Oh, Edward," she gasps against my mouth, and my lips turn upward with her words.
"Come on, love." I take her hand in mine and lead us into the middle of the meadow. The grass is overgrown and swaying delicately in the spring air. With the river trickling melodiously behind us, I drop her hand, unfolding the checkered blanket and letting the wind take it away from me, smoothing it out before I place it on the ground. The blades of grass bend under the weight of it, creating a cushioned, organic mattress for our hard bodies.
I let myself fall backward onto the blanket, catching myself with my hands so I am sitting with my legs stretched out before me. I pat the space between my thighs, beckoning for Bella to sit with me, to let me wrap my arms around her and hold her tight. She gracefully sits down in front of me, leaning against me, her back to my chest, and I get my wish, holding her tight in my arms.
"What?" She questions, looking around the expanse of the blanket. "There's no food at this picnic?" She teases.
"Do you want to hunt?" I ask with my lips against her neck, resting my head on her shoulder. "I'm sure we could take down a quick deer or two," I continue, feigning as though I'm going to get up.
"NO!" she shouts, pulling me back down, taking my arms and placing them around her waist. "I'm not in the mood for blood," she says quietly, her tone gravely.
"Mmmm," I mumble into her hair before I push it aside to run my lips along her neck. I kiss my way up her jaw and to her ear, letting my cool breath wash over her sensitive skin. "What are you in the mood for then?" I whisper huskily, and she shudders from the sensation.
"Everything," she breathes out, locking me in her gaze, filling me with her love and desire, and I smile back at her, greedily taking everything she offers. "What are you in the mood for?" She repeats my question with a wink.
"You," I reply honestly, my tone reflecting my desperation to be closer still, to be connected in the most primal of ways, to be inside her. "I have never desired anything the way I desire you. I crave you." With our eyes locked, she spins around in my lap, draping her legs over my thighs so we are chest to chest. I can feel every unneeded breath she takes and I plan each of my intakes to coincide with her every expulsion of air, breathing her in at every opportunity.
She closes her eyes as she leans to rest her head against my chest with her hands wrapped around my neck, her fingers running through the hair on the back of my head. "I've never done this before," she whispers nervously. "I want to be good for you."
I lift her head with my fingers, gently pulling her face to mine. With our eyes locked together, I kiss her passionately, putting all of my love into my actions. "I've never done this before, either," I reply against her lips. "Besides, I could never be disappointed in you, Bella. You are the most beautiful and sexy woman I have ever seen."
"You think I'm sexy?" she asks in a quiet voice, biting her bottom lip between her teeth. She doesn't even know how seductive she is when she innocently does that. I run my finger across her lip with a groan.
"You are unbelievable sexy," I growl. "Every time I am near you, I get excited. Do you know how many erections I have had to hide from you?" I ask with a small laugh. "I've wanted you since the moment I saw you, and then I got to know you..." I trail off, shaking my head with the memories that crash through my mind. "Then, I got to know you, hunt with you, laugh with you, love you, and the want turned into a burning inferno, constantly keeping my entire body aflame. You are everything I desire, and without a doubt, you are the sexiest woman that has ever walked this earth."
"Just earth, Edward?" Bella asks with a smile, feigning offense. "God, the least you could have given me was the sexiest woman in the universe," she continues with a laugh.
"My apologies, love," I chuckle, clutching her tight in my embrace. "Where was my head?"
She giggles as she runs her hands up and down the expanse of my back. "Just don't let it happen again."
I nod, and I can feel her smile against my chest. We stay like that, locked in each others arms, comfortable in the silence and love that swirls around us. "Bella," I finally murmur, and she lifts her head to mine, pushing her lips against mine. In that moment, the tension in the air changes, swallows us whole, and we both give up without a struggle, drowning in the desire.
As our lips dance together, I slip my fingers under the bottom of her shirt, enjoying the silky creaminess of her back before I tug on the hem, silently asking to remove it completely. She reluctantly breaks the kiss to lift her arms, and I pull the shirt off her body, tossing it aside into the tall grass. I quickly unsnap her bra, and she drops her arms, letting it fall off her shoulders until the straps rest on her forearms. As my eyes roam over her stomach and bare breasts for the first time, I am overwhelmed, momentarily shocked into silence by her sheer beauty. Her skin is milk and cream, stretched over the flatness of her stomach. Her breasts are perfect, round and soft, tipped with delectable pink nipples, begging for my touch.
Bella fidgets uncomfortably under my quiet gaze, and she lifts her arms as if to put her brassiere back in place. I stop her with my hands, taking the undergarment and throwing it across the meadow. "Please, just let me look at you," I say with a tight voice. "You're perfect," I whisper, leaning in to kiss her again, to show her how much I want her. "God, you are just so perfect," I repeat, the awe evident in my voice before I kiss my way down her neck, worshiping her collarbone with my tongue.
"Edward," she sighs into the spring air, and her voice sings like the wind, whipping around me like the grass that surrounds us, warming my body like the rays of the sun. I've heard my name before. I've even had the luck to have it fall from Bella's glorious lips, but to hear it like that, passionate and sultry, is almost more than I can take.
Before she realizes what I am doing, I flip her over flat on her back with me hovering over her, kissing every inch of her skin I can reach. When I reach her breasts, I pause, taking my time to truly enjoy this experience, to give her the most pleasure I possibly can. I kiss down a line between them, enjoying the way her chest rises and falls with each haggard breath before I let my tongue trace around the perimeter of the left one. I gingerly cover the other with my hand, cherishing the way it fits perfectly under my fingers. She was truly made for me.
When I reach the peak of her breast, the culmination of loveliness, I take her nipple into my mouth, flicking it with my tongue, enticing gasps and moans from Bella. Her noises spur me on in the right direction, showing me what she enjoys. I can't wait to learn her body completely, and I smile with her tip in my mouth, knowing that I have forever to worship every inch of her.
I move my mouth to the other breast, loving it just as much as the first. Clearly, in some situations, two is definitely better than one. While lost in my action, nibbling, sucking, kissing, Bella moves her hands down my back to the bottom of my baseball shirt, and then she sneaks her fingers under the fabric, stroking gently over my bare lower back. God, I love when she touches me, and all I can think of now is our naked skin flush together, nothing between us, not even air.
With a reverent kiss on her nipple, I let her breast fall gently from my mouth. I sit up, whipping my shirt off of my body, and I toss it in the same direction as her bra. Bella follows my actions with her eyes, watching the shirt fly through the air. She looks back at me, amusement plastered across her face. I shrug in response, growling lightly as I resume my previous position. "We won't be needing them for a while," I retort against her neck. I take the opportunity to flip us over, so that Bella is resting her body on mine, and it feels even better than I thought it would. The stiffness of her nipples with the softness of her breast and the silkiness of her skin pressed against the hard planes of my body, is exhilarating.
"I love you," she moans into my ear as she explores my body with her hands. At this time, the sun decides to peak back through the clouds, gifting us with warm rays on her nearly naked body. Bella pulls back, looking me in the eyes before she stands up over me. An unexpected whimper comes from my mouth at our separation which causes Bella to smile. She looks like an angel, but she could just as easily be a Siren, made to lure men to their death. I know I would follow her to my demise any day.
"I love the way your skin looks in the sun," she purrs, looking down at me like I am the most amazing being she has ever seen, but I am only amazing because she makes me so, her love makes me so.
"Come back down here," I beg. "There is too much space between us."
"Not yet," she replies with a smirk before moving her hands to the button of her pants and popping it open with a flick of her wrist. "You said something about seeing all of me sparkle," Bella growls as she slowly lowers her zipper. "I just wanted to help you achieve your wish."
At vampire speed, she is out of her pants, standing vulnerable above me in only her panties... her blue panties... her blue lace panties. "B-Bella," I stutter. I can't turn my eyes away because even though I have not slept in over ninety years, I must be dreaming. She is too good to be real.
"Close your mouth before you drool, Edward," she teases, slipping her fingers beneath the lace, but I quickly stand, stopping her from going any further.
"I want to do that," I whisper, gulping down the venom that is pooling in my mouth. She nods nervously before I kiss her again, enjoying the lack of barriers between Bella's skin and my hands.
"Edward," she moans into my hair when I move my lips down her neck. "Make love to me."
Without a word, I crash my lips to hers. I let my body fall to back to the ground with a silent thud, the grass and dirt absorbing my impact, and I take her with me, holding her tight to my body during the descent. When we land together, I cling to her still, and I never want to let her go.
"I have waited my entire life for you, Bella," I moan as she kisses down my chest, her nimble fingers quickly undoing the button and zipper of my pants. "I want you forever. I am going to love you forever. You are my life." A purr radiates in my chest when she runs her hands back up my torso and onto my face, sliding her body along the same path as her hands until we are face to face.
"Forever," she confirms, and with that one word, we are one. She is mine as I am hers. It is the way it should be. Fatalism has worked in our favor this time, but I don't care how we got here, what we had to go through. The only thing that matters is here in this moment and all the moments from here on out, our eternity together. We are right where we belong.
"Bella," I whisper as I flip us over, running my hands over every inch of her skin until I reach the top of her panties. How can one be so utterly nervous yet excited at the same time? I feel as though I am a young child on Christmas morning, and the anticipation is killing me.
Slowly, I wind the fabric at her hips around my fingers, pulling them down inch by mind numbing inch, letting my lips trail behind, kissing the length of her legs. When I reach her toes, I pull them off completely and toss them aside into the meadow where they disappear amongst the tall grass.
From my vantage point at her feet, I have an uninhibited view of Bella's naked body, and she is the most mouthwatering buffet, laid out before me, calling to my most primal nature. "Bella," I growl, letting it roll deeply through my body. I have never needed anything the way I need her. The love I feel is overflowing from me, large enough to fill the expanse of the sky and strong enough to make the sun shine brighter onto her beautiful body.
She sits, leaning back on her elbows and looking down at me through hooded eyes. A languid smile graces her face, and I return the smile because I have never been happier. "I want you, Bella. I want all of you."
"You have me already, Edward. I'm yours now and forever."
With her eyes on me, I remove my boxers, and I kneel before her at her feet, naked, body and soul. Her eyes travel down my body until they reach my erection, and she gasps before biting her bottom lip and looking back up at me, her golden red eyes practically glowing. I slide up her body, taking my time to lavish every part of her with my tongue, lips or hands, showing her without words how precious she is to me. I kiss her lightly on the apex of her thighs, not lingering. I don't want to make her nervous, and we have forever to explore every nook and cranny of our bodies. Right now, I need to be insider her and to move with her as one.
When I reach her face, I look into her eyes as I kiss her, keeping mine open until the pleasure is too much, consuming me completely. I keep one hand on her cheek, gently stroking her jaw with my thumb as the other travels lazily down her body until it reaches her bellybutton. I circle it with my finger before dipping the tip into her navel. Her stomach muscles constrict under my ministrations, and I smile into the kiss.
I let my hand drift further south until it reaches the tuft of hair that covers her sex, and I run my fingers through the coarse hair. Bella moans into my mouth, circling her hips for more, and I'm more than happy to give her what she wants.
I run my finger along her slit, and I gasp at the sensation. I'm barely touching her, and she is so wet and warm. A groan escapes my lips as I find her opening, and I push one finger in, pumping it slowly in and out.
"Edward," Bella growls, lifting her hips to meet my finger as she moves her hands into my hair, gripping tightly.
"Does that feel good?" I ask as I lick my lips. She nods before reaching up and reconnecting our mouth, out tongues desperately seeking the other.
"More," she sighs into my mouth, and I quickly slip in another finger. It is so tight. If she were still human, I'd be worried about hurting her. Right now, she's stronger than me, though, and I have never been happier that I made such a rash decision to bite her. Proof that Fatalism was working in our favor once more. She was destined to get cancer because she was always destined to live forever with me.
"God... feels good... Edward..." she moans and squirms, enticing me with the way her body moves, the sound she makes, the way I make her feel. "I'm ready. Please."
"You never have to ask, Bella," I reply, repeating her earlier words to me. "I'll never not want you. There will never be a time when I don't need every single inch of you."
"No, you got it wrong," she retorts with a smirk, looking up at me through relaxed eyes as I continue to move my finger in and out of her. "I need every single inch of you." With her words, her small hands wraps around my erection, and I gulp down my venom as I watch her hand slide up and down my dick.
"Bella," I croak as I buck into her hand. "Stop... too much... Now!"
She nods, taking her bottom lip into her mouth, so I lean down, releasing it before trapping it again between my teeth, tugging and nipping. I pull back slightly, so I can see her face. I line myself up, rubbing the tip against her entrance, and she moans loudly, giving me the encouragement I need. I stop once the head is in, letting her adjust before I slowly push in, inch by inch. My mouth is over hers, not touching at the moment, her sweet breath washing over me, and I wait until she's comfortable.
With eyes gripped tightly shut and heavy breath, she stays still as a statue, and for the moment, I cease to breathe, to move. After forty two agonizing seconds she lifts her hips and opens her eyes. I pull back slightly before pushing all the way in, my body flush against hers in every way possible.
"Oh!" she exclaims with a hiss as I move again. "That feels..." she trails off as her head lolls back.
"You feel so good," I pant into her ear after I kiss up her neck. "You were made for me."
"Only you," she groans, raising her head and bringing her lips to mine. This is how it is supposed to be. This is all I will ever need. Our bodies, lips, hearts, souls, everything we have is connected, working together as one.
"Bella, I'm not going... too good... so tight..." I mumble with each stroke. "I need to watch you first. Cum for me, love."
"So close... like that." She rolls her hips, giving as much as she is taking, and I growl at the sensation. I am not going to last much longer. Bella moves a hand down between us, and I follow it with my eyes as she starts to touch herself. Her fingertips graze over my dick as well as it slides deep inside her, and I close my eyes because the image is going to take me right over the edge.
"Edward, Edward, Edward..." My name falls from her lips repeatedly with small gasps and groans thrown in between. It feels me with deep pride, hearing her say my name, knowing who is loving her, making her feel good.
Her body tenses around my cock as I continue to thrust. I watch as she reaches her peak and her orgasm takes over her body. Her shoulders shake from the intensity and her back arches, pushing her tight against my chest. Her face is so beautiful as she hits her high, and I want to make her look like that all the time, every single second of every day.
With her body spasming around mine, her inner muscles firmly gripping my dick, I follow her into oblivion, giving into the feelings, the sights, the sounds and the smells. I explode, and she takes everything I have to offer into her. It is the most amazing thing I have experienced, utter bliss.
As I come down from my orgasm, I reluctantly pull out before I collapse next to her, my body is physically shaking in the best possible way. We just lay there for a minute on our backs, side by side as we both gasp for breath.
I close my eyes with a giant smile on my face. Her tiny hand grabs mine, interlocking our fingers, so I turn my head to look at her. Once again, I am overcome by how beautiful she is, and I am so honored to be able to call her mine.
She smiles at me, lost in love and sexual satisfaction, and I smile back, sure that my eyes reflect the same feelings.
"Forever," she finally says with a small nod as she leans in and brushes her lips against my shoulder.
"Forever," I confirm, dropping my face to hers and kissing her deeply.
So, is it everything you wanted for these two? I hope so. Let's see, since I'm feeling generous, 100 reviews gets another outtake. It can be from anytime, so let me know what you want to see and who's POV you want. It can also be another future lemony chapter. Just let me know.
I honestly can't wait to read the reviews!! Lay it on me.