"I adore you, Esme. You make me so incredibly happy, and words can't begin to express the extent of it."
"So find another way."
I laughed as I picked her up and carried her outside in my arms. We went to our special spot and I placed her down gently. The sun was shining brightly, reflecting off her hair making it glow like the halo she should have over her head. I took her face in my hands and smiled.
"Now I can."
She smiled and leaned into me as our lips touched; it was absolute perfection. We stood there for what easily could have been hours, never wanting this perfect moment to end. She pulled away from me, and smiled.
"Let's go home, my love."
"Alright, Mrs. Cullen."
She giggled at the sound of her name.
"I love how that sounds."
"I'm glad. We do need to get home though, because we need to pack."
She looked up at me.
"Are we moving again, so soon?"
I kissed the top of her hand and smiled.
"No, silly. Our honeymoon awaits."
"Where are we going?"
"I'll tell you in the morning when we board, love. Let's go home."
It was 10:00 in the morning and we had been on the road since just before 9:00. We were driving at a relatively slow speed, since we were not in a great rush to get where we were going. Even though we were married yesterday, we had mutually decided on our way back to the house that we would wait until we were away from Edward to be together as husband and wife for the first time. We both felt that it would be easier for all of us if Edward wasn't traumatized by the face that his adoptive father and his new wife were doing things in the other room that no child wants to think of their parents doing. Everyone was fine with the decision, especially Edward who looked quite relieved. Esme was sitting in the car beside me, holding my hand and resting her head on my shoulder for the entire drive into the city, and it was the most incredible feeling in the world. For me to know that this beautiful woman was mine for eternity was indescribable. I took her hand in mine and placed a kiss on the top. She smiled up at me and I smiled back at her.
"How are you doing?"
"I couldn't be better. You?"
"The same. So where are we going, Carlisle?"
"Well, right now we're in the City."
She rolled her eyes at me and I laughed at her.
"I promise you I'll tell you when we board."
"Ok. If I forget to tell you, I had an incredible time."
"Thank you, love. Well, we're here."
We pulled into the Port Authority and as soon as our car was parked, a steward came to greet us.
"Good morning, Sir. Welcome aboard. How may I help you?"
I smiled as I handed him the keys for the car.
"We will need our luggage delivered to the Royal Suite, please."
I handed him a twenty dollar bill and he smiled at me.
"Right away, Sir. I'll ensure that the keys for your car will be on top of your luggage as well."
He went to the back of the car and I got out, walking to the passenger's side, opened the door and helped Esme out. She took my arm and I escorted her at human speed to the boarding ramp. As we stepped on board, we were greeted by two very helpful members of the crew.
"Good morning, welcome aboard. May I have your boarding passes please?"
I took them out of my jacket pocket and handed them to the crew member.
"Your names please?"
I smiled as I said them.
"Doctor and Mrs. Cullen."
Esme squeezed my arm and I smiled at her.
"I see that you are in the Royal Suite. Please follow me."
We followed him down the hall and we arrived at our suite. He opened the door for us, and Esme gasped. I smiled.
"Carlisle, this room is so big!"
"It's our honeymoon, love, and you deserve nothing but the best."
"Ah. Congratulations to you both. When were you married?"
I spoke, as Esme was too busy exploring our new surroundings.
"We were married yesterday, actually."
"Congratulations again. Please allow me to bring you a bottle of champagne on us as a gift."
"My wife and I aren't really big drinkers, but thank you very much for the offer; it was very kind of you."
"Carlisle, you have to see outside, it's beautiful!"
"Your wife is calling you, Sir. If you need anything or we can be of any assistance at all, please don't hesitate to ask."
"Thank you very much."
He left the room and I walked to where Esme was.
"I see you have discovered our promenade desk."
"It's perfect, Carlisle. We can be outside when the sun is out here, and not give away what we are."
"I hadn't thought about that. That's very true."
She leaned over the side railing and looked down to see the water.
"Would you like to know where we're going, love?"
She looked up at me with a smile.
"I thought that I would take you to where all of this started."
"Where all of what started, Carlisle?"
"Where I was changed. I haven't been back there in almost 300 years; it's going to be so very different."
"Yes, love. England. I hope that's alright."
"Oh, Carlisle. It's more than alright; it's going to be incredible!"
She wrapped her arms around me and gave me a very passionate kiss, which I was more than willing to return. She pulled away from me quite abruptly and looked at me with excitement behind her eyes.
"Will you take me to Stonehenge?"
"Anywhere you want to go, my love."
She leaned her lips towards mine again. Just at that moment there was knocking at the door.
"I'll be right back."
I walked to the front door of our suite and opened the door.
"Doctor Cullen, welcome aboard. I'm Captain Jackson and I understand that you are on your honeymoon."
"Yes, my wife and I were married yesterday."
"Esme, would you come here for a moment, please?"
She came in the room and smiled at us as she reached my side.
"Esme, this is Captain Jackson. Captain, this is my beautiful wife, Esme."
He extended his hand and she grasped it.
"I don't know about the beautiful part, but wife is certainly true. It's a pleasure to meet you, Captain."
"I don't know about the beautiful part either. That word doesn't seem to be descriptive enough. It's a great pleasure to meet you. Your husband is a very lucky man."
I spoke up at that comment.
"I couldn't agree more."
"What I came here for is to invite you both to sit at my table this evening at dinner. Would you care to join me?"
I looked at him as I responded for both of us.
"Why don't we let you know once we're settled in? If not tonight, perhaps tomorrow?"
"It's an open invitation for both of you. Well, I have to be off to greet a few others before we ship out. Have a wonderful day, and again, congratulations and welcome aboard."
He tipped his hat to us and left the room, and as the door closed I took Esme in my arms and began dancing slowly around the room with her.
"It's amazing to me to think that we could do this all day and night and never get tired, Carlisle."
"I truly wouldn't mind."
"You know, instead of eating human food with the Captain tonight, and don't get me wrong it was so lovely of him to extend the invitation, if I could state my preference I would much prefer to stay right here with you."
"You must have Edward's gift, Esme."
"What do you mean?"
"You read my mind."
We stopped dancing as our lips joined together, and as they connected we were interrupted by the sound of the door knocking.
"I'm beginning to hate that door, Esme."
She giggled and opened the door for us.
"Good morning. Mrs. Cullen?"
"Your luggage, Ma'am. Where would you like us to put it for you?"
"In the bedroom I think. Carlisle?"
"Yes, love. The bedroom will be just fine."
The stewards carried our luggage into the room and I gave them a tip for their efforts. They thanked me, and I closed the door behind them.
"Finally, I think we're alone."
I leaned towards her and placed a kiss on her lips, and at that very moment the ship's horn blew. We both laughed at the insanity of the moment.
"I'm beginning to think that fate doesn't want me to have any quiet time alone with my husband."
"We're just leaving port, Esme. Come outside with me."
I took her hand and we walked outside, watching the shoreline move slowly as we passed. I stood behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist, inhaling the beautiful scent of her hair. She sighed and leaned back against me. I placed my lips against her neck and kissed her slowly, trailing kisses along her exposed skin. She whispered my name.
"We shouldn't be out here."
"People might see us."
"Would you like…"
She nodded her head so I picked her up in my arms, her eyes never leaving mine and I carried her into the bedroom. I placed her down gently and lay beside her, my lips continuing to make contact with every piece of skin that was exposed and shamelessly tempting me.
"Esme, you're the most beautiful woman I have ever laid my eyes on."
She looked up at me and smiled.
"I was going to say the same, but to you."
I suddenly got quite nervous, and I spoke at a whisper.
"I've never done this, Esme."
"I know, Carlisle. It's alright."
She took me in her arms and directed me to lie on top of her. I gently took her head in my hands as I spoke to her.
"I'm a little nervous, Esme."
"Me too, Carlisle. We'll be alright. We love each other, and that's all that really matters."
I leaned towards Esme and placed my lips against hers softly. She was receptive to my kiss and I pressed against her a little more. I rested my forehead against hers and traced the outline of her face with my finger.
"So beautiful, Esme."
She smiled, but didn't say a word. My fingers ran down her neck and traced the exposed skin at the base of her neck, and went back and forth gently as I spoke.
"Esme, I'm worried that I may not be good at this."
She giggled slightly.
"Carlisle, I have no doubt that you're going to be perfect, just like you are with everything else."
Her hands came up to my chest and somehow made their way under my sweater. Her hands felt so good against me, as though something about all of this was meant to be. I sat up and removed my sweater and tie, as she sat up to face me. I took hold of her and we slowly start to move together. I leaned towards her and our lips meet again, slowly and with more feeling than I've ever experienced before. Before long, our hands were working at a furious pace, trying to shed each other of our clothes. She lay back down in front of me, her dress pooled at the bottom of the bed; my jacket, tie and shirt thrown across the room. I ran my finger along the side of her face.
"My god, you're beautiful."
She smiled, and lowered her head.
"Thanks. You're not so bad yourself."
"Why thank you."
I brought my lips to hers and leaned into her; directing her on to the bed. She smiled at me with what can only be described as love behind her eyes. I lay directly on top of her as I ran my fingers along her skin, reveling in how soft and silky it is. I kissed her forehead, her eyes, her nose, then place my lips gently on hers; not in a kiss, but a touch. She opened her eyes, looking directly at me.
"Shhh. If you don't want to, or if you want to stop, if something makes you uncomfortable, just tell me."
"Carlisle, I want…"
"I'm serious. If you ever want to…"
I couldn't finish that sentence, because she had pulled me towards her, capturing my mouth with hers. I kissed her deeply, our tongues exploring the inside of each others'. I slowly started to move my hand to her chest, caressing the skin that I feel as I move. I reached her breast, and found her peak getting stiff as I rubbed it gently. This was very encouraging. I continued to move my hand down toward her stomach, and I could feel her squirm slightly beneath me. I opened my eyes and she smiled at me. I kissed her again, as my hand reached the waistband of her undergarments. I ran my finger along the inside, watching her squirm in anticipation, teasing her, getting her ready for this. I brought my hand down and rested my hand against her, feeling the heat that has risen from my touch. She opened her legs slightly for me, letting me know that she's ready. I brushed my fingers against her, and her back arched in pleasure. I rubbed my finger against her slowly, moving my fingers ever so gently against her. She moaned into my mouth and I smiled against her lips. I whispered.
"I'm a little nervous this time, Esme. I want this to be perfect for you."
"We'll be alright, Carlisle. I'm with you, and that's all the perfection I need."
I captured her lips again as my finger rubbed her most sensitive place, sending her back arching against my touch. I slowly took my lips away from her mouth, moving them down her body. I kissed her neck, her shoulder, then captured her breast with my mouth. I flicked my tongue across the hard peak that I find, sending her head rolling to the side when she released yet another moan. I trailed kisses down her body, capturing the waistband with my teeth. I pulled them down over her legs, around her ankles and pulled them off with my hands.
"Would you like me to, love?"
She looked at me with a questioning expression.
"Would I like you to… what?"
"Would you like me to use something other than my fingers."
"I don't know, Carlisle. I've never had that experience."
"Well, this will be a first for both of us then."
I kissed up the inside of her right leg, her inner thigh, then flicked my tongue across her with one slow, sweeping motion.
"Oh god, Carlisle."
I brought my hands up under her, holding her hips up and flicked my tongue across her again, and again, and again. I rubbed my nose against her as my tongue went deep inside her, and I could sense that she's close. I took one of my hands out from under her and grab hold of her hand, bringing it behind my head so she can direct me. She did and pulled me closer to her. I flicked my tongue across her heat, slowly inserting a finger as I did. She passionately called out my name as she came. I moved my hand from under her, kissing my way up her body until I was face to face with her. I ran my fingers along her face and smiled.
"Are you ready for this?"
She brought me towards her, kissing me deeply. I pulled away from her, and she looked at me with a worried expression.
"Well, if we're going do this, these might need to come off."
She smiled at me.
I stood up in front of her as she sat on the side of the bed, slowly undoing my belt. She undid my zipper and brought her hand around me, pulling the pants and my undergarments down in one fluid motion. I can't help but find the funny in that.
"Well, that was convenient."
"Yes it was."
I leaned towards her so she'd lay back on the bed as I kicked my pants off from around my ankles. I lay on top of her, looking directly into her eyes. She moved $her legs out from under me, wrapping them around mine.
"I want this, more than you can imagine."
"So do I, love. So do I."
I took her mouth with mine as I placed myself right between her legs. I reached down and slowly put my tip at her entrance, allowing myself to get used to the feeling. She brought her legs up and wrapped them around my waist, edging me in a little at a time. Before I knew it, I was inside her completely. I lay there, completely inside her, just watching her adjust to the new sensations.
"You're not moving."
"I know. I just want to get used to this."
She rans her fingers down my back with the most delicate of touches and grabbed on to me, encouraging me to move. I did, very slowly. I withdrew so I was almost completely out, then slowly slid back in, watching the expressions on her face as I did. I realized that I was probably not going to last very long if I kept this up. I had to move faster.
"I have to…"
I started to move more, picking up the speed that I'm thrusting at. Her back arched in pleasure, and I knew that it was not going to be long for me. I looked at her as I thrust in and out, knowing what this woman has just allowed me to experience with her. It's so incredible. She's incredible. I felt her tighten around me, and I realized that she's going to come again. I reached my hand down and brushed it across her, and saw her eyes snap shut as she called out my name. The sight and the sounds were too much for me to bear, and I thrusted into her deeper and deeper until I couldn't take any more and I spilled into her, calling her name. She relaxed on to the bed, and I collapsed on to her, still inside her, but trying to steady my breathing. She ran her fingers through my hair, and kissed the top of my head.
We lay like this for a few minutes, then she turned to me and whispered.
"This. This was beautiful."
"No, you are beautiful."
"I mean it. You are."
I lay on the bed and was amazed by what we had just experienced together. Esme had gotten out of bed and had a shower, and she was, I assumed, sitting in our temporary Living Room. I got up, put on my robe, and walked out to find her actually standing outside in her robe, looking out at the water. I came up behind her and put my arms gently around her.
"I missed you, love."
She didn't respond, but continued looking out at the expanse of water surrounding us.
"Tell me, Esme, what are you thinking?"
She shrugged her shoulders.
"It's nothing, Carlisle. I'm fine. Really."
"Why did you leave?"
"Well, I'm supposed to after that."
I turned her around so I could look at her.
"What ever do you mean, Esme?"
"He would never want to be near me after we had been together, and it was expected that I get up, shower, and make him something to eat while he slept. We don't sleep and we don't eat, so I got up, had a shower and came out here. Oh, and I tidied up in the Living Room first."
I took her hand in mine and walked her back to our bedroom and spoke softly.
"Lay down, Esme."
She looked afraid, but she did as I requested. I smiled at her.
"You won't need your robe, love."
She got under the blanket, removed her robe and I climbed in after her. She remained as far over on her side of the bed as she could be without falling out, and I waited to allow her emotions to calm down. After about 10 minutes I spoke softly.
"Esme, you're too far away."
She turned over to look at me and she moved towards me cautiously. I held out my arms and she rested her head against my arm, her body still too far away from mine for my liking. I ran my fingers through her hair, my other hand running its fingers gliding gently along her skin. I whispered to her.
"I'm not him, Esme."
"I know, Carlisle."
"You've told me about what he did to you, and I promise you that I will never force myself on you or do anything that I know would make you uncomfortable."
"I know, Carlisle. It just takes a while to exorcise the inner demons."
"What can I do to help?"
"Of course. Honestly."
"Just hold me, Carlisle. That's all I need you to do, to just hold me."
"That's all I ever want to do anyway, Esme. Come here."
She curled up against me, her body shaking with the tears that could not come. After 30 minutes the shaking stopped and she was calm. Now was the time to tell her what I wanted to earlier. I spoke softly to her, not wanting to frighten her at all and not wanting to lose this moment.
"Esme, I have one thing to ask of you."
"After we make love, please don't leave. In that moment I want you near me, so please, promise me that you won't leave. Just let me hold you and feel you close to me."
"I promise, Carlisle, I won't leave."
She looked up at me and I looked into her eyes.
"Is it too much of me to ask if we could test that promise right now?"
She smiled at me.
"I think it's perfect timing, my love. Absolutely perfect timing."