Author's note: First of all please please please please please please please don't hate me! Hahaha but in all honesty you should…I mean I haven't updated since October! That in and of itself is reason to hate me. But seriously college is a free-time killer! But it's awesome! I love it! anyway I was busy over winter break…and spring break…and once summer started I was really unmotivated to write this, mainly because the way I wrote the previous chapter made it impossible for me to write anything but Zoe's favorite moment and for the longest time I just didn't want to…so I didn't…until now. Anyway I couldn't think of anything "cute" enough for these two so this is was I came up with. It's based off of chapter seven of my other fic "Thirty Kisses"…so yeah enjoy!
To Banana: you said to write ASAP and clearly I didn't haha I am so so sorry I made you wait.
To Rain621: I'm so glad you like the last chapter! Sorry this isn't the "fluffiest" chapter, but I think it fits haha
Disclaimer: I used to own Digimon but I've been gone so long the previous owners assumed I didn't want it and took it back…I'm upset…
p.s. sorry if sucks with teeth, I haven't written in a while and I kind of lost the hang of it
"So…" Kouichi began after a slightly awkward silence.
For a moment Zoe just continued to play with her hands and avoided eye contact, "I don't know why they were making such a big deal about my favorite moment with you; it's really not a big deal."
Kouichi couldn't help but to smile at the blonde. Though he had only known her for a short time he knew that when she became repetitive it meant that she was nervous, "Then why won't you tell me?"
"Fine…jeez Kouichi you're worse than Kouji sometimes, I hope you know that." She chuckled before turning so she was sitting Indian style on the couch facing Kouichi. "Ok so during the battles whenever we would all get hurt you always seemed to be fine and at first it bothered you but you just wrote it off as luck. Well one time it happened and the digimon we were fighting told you that you were always fine because while we were physically in the digital world you were only there in spirit. I don't know how she knew that but whatever. Anyway at first you didn't want us to know but then you decided to tell Bokomon about it instead of us. I'm still mad at you for that by the way," she said giving him a fake glare. "I'm joking. But anyway Bokomon let it slip to us and it freaked us all out," she continued before pausing to honestly glare at Kouichi. "Don't give me that look," she said placing her hands on her hips.
"Wha-what look?" Kouichi stammered, looking rather confused.
"The 'get on with it' look. Trust me I've seen it before, you and Kouji are more alike than you think," she chuckled softly.
"I'm sorry," Kouichi replied with a shy smile slowly crossing his face.
"Good," she began with a triumphant smile. "Well anyway, we were waiting for Lucemon to attack and we were all hanging out and you came over to me and started talking and about how I was worried about what would happen and I was just being generally pessimistic about the situation when you finally asked what was making me act like that. Finally I told you that we knew about the whole 'not really being there' thing and I could tell you were freaking out. But even though you were about to have an episode you tried to comfort me. Truth be told I wasn't really buying what you were saying, but you still tried to make me feel better and that's why this is my favorite moment. You were pretty much at death's door but you still cared about whether or not I was ok. I guess it kinda cemented my feelings, for lack of a better phrase," she finished, blushing profusely.
"Feelings?" Kouichi asked as he cocked an eyebrow in an exact imitation of Kouji.
"Yes feelings you idiot," she said punching his arm. "And stop doing the Kouji thing."
"Sorry," he muttered, lowering his eyebrow. "What do you mean feelings?"
"Never mind," she chuckled as she turned an even deeper shade of red and avoided Kouichi's gaze.
"Zoe?" Kouichi nearly whispered. He didn't want to pressure her but she had sparked his curiosity.
"Ok fine," she sighed. "It's just that I really care about you and I know it's really weird but I do you're the most fantastic person I've ever met and your strength and compassion made me fall for you and I know it sounds crazy but the things that you went through and overcame in the digital world made it impossible for me to not like you and I've wanted to tell you this since we found out you weren't physically in the digital world but I never did and I really regret it but I'm laying it all out here right now," she said speaking a mile a minute, without breathing.
"Woah Zoe, punctuation; what was that?" Kouichi couldn't help but laugh.
"I like you Kouichi," she said as she shrugged her shoulders.
"Oh," was all he could say as his focus shifted to his shoes.
"Oh?" Zoe muttered a little crestfallen. "I'm sorry."
"No don't be sorry it's just-" he paused, trying to find the right words to say.
"Just what?" Zoe asked, her eyebrow now imitating the twins'.
"I don't know," he sighed. "I don't think, I know what I'm going to say isn't what you want to hear but I, the Kouichi sitting in front of you, didn't go to the digital world. I can't pretend to know what he, the one who went, felt. I wish I could pretend that everything's ok and that this-this accident- never happened. But it did. And I really, really hate that I have to say this but you fell for the Kouichi who went through those adventures with you and I'm not him. Don't get me wrong, I do like you, but I don't want to hurt you and you just want-need something that I can't give you. I wish I could, god I wish I could, but I can't and you can't pretend that I'm still the same Kouichi. I'm sorry that he had to die when I came out of the coma but you need to realize he did. And it sucks, I mean it sucks with teeth, but I can't let you like me. You like Kouichi Kimura: warrior of darkness who gave his life to save you and the others. I'm not him. I'm just Kouichi Kimura: random kid with a scar across his forehead from an accident that sent him into a coma. And I'm sorry Zoe but it would be selfish of me to feed into your feelings. You deserve a hero and that's not me. I'm sorry."
For a moment Zoe was silent before letting out a throaty "Oh."
"Zoe? No Zoe please don't cry," Kouichi said quickly, placing a hand on her shoulder.
"I'm not gonna cry," she scoffed as a tear ran down her cheek.
"I'm sorry, please don't hate me," he muttered, taking his hand off her and staring at the ground.
"I don't hate you Kouichi," she sighed. "I guess I understand what you're saying it's just…I don't know. You might not see it but you're still the same person you were in the digital world. You're still a hero."
"But-" Kouichi began before being cut off by Zoe raising her hand.
"I'll see you later Kouichi"
Author's note: well there you go. Finally chapter nine. Haha, not as fluffy as you would have like I bet. Sorry 'bout that, but I'm not the biggest fluff fan so I did what I think I do best, I made it slightly depressing. Haha sorry. Anyway my goal is to finish this thing before I go back to school…I think I only have three more chapters, but I don't remember (I have it written down somewhere) anyway once I finish I'm going to go back and tweak it a little, I'm just not happy with the way it is. Anyway once that happens I'll let you all know through my profile which chapters I've finished revising, who knows it might be like reading a whole different story (haha ok not really but it will be better!) anyway see you all next chapter (and I promise it won't take another eight months!)