AN: This takes place after Edward leaves, and Bella can't handle it anymore. She commits suicide, but is turned into an angel. She meets up with the Cullens again, who are happy to find she actually isn't dead.
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Chapter 1 – Decision
He doesn't want me. Edward left. I felt the sob build in my throat, and the tears flow down my face. What had I done wrong?
I was alone in this world, or so I felt. I knew I was wasting my life, and I hated it. I was hurting everyone. Charlie, my friends and family...
The pain had become unbearable, and I truly felt unwanted. I can't take it! My life has no point anymore, so why live it?
I stood up and went to my room. I knew by doing this, I would hurt Charlie even more. And Renee, and Phil. But it was my choice, they couldn't blame themselves.
I quickly wrote out suicide notes, something I honestly thought I would never, ever do during my lifetime.
Dear Charlie, Renee, and Phil,
It's not your fault. I'm so sorry, but I honestly can't live anymore. My emotional pain is killing me alive, and I'm done with it. Just... done.
Please understand. I love you all so much, and you raised me to be who I am. Or, was.
Don't, not for one second, blame yourselves. You all tried your best, and I appreciate that. But I truly think my life has no point anymore. Edward was my life, and now he is gone. Apparently, there are two ways a life can be taken away. Mentally, and physically. I am sorry I have done both to this family.
You were all very special. Mom, you were... well... mom! You raised me and helped my through my tough times. You were always there for me, and I am so, so sorry I am taking myself away from you. Don't forget, I will always love you. I may not be here in person, but I will be here in your memory and heart. Forever. I will be your guardian angel, I think it is time we switched places for a couple years.
And Phil. Oh, Phil. I am truly glad my mother has found you. Really, I am. You are a great, wonderful person and I will never forget you. Please help my mom with this, you are strong. Thank you, and I love you.
And dad. Dad dad dad. There's just so much I could say. First, thank you for letting me live with you. It let me meet Edward, and become closer to you. And, now, I actually love Forks. Who would have guessed? Second, thank you for loving me. I have gone through some pretty though times, and you helped me through all of them. I couldn't ask for more. And third, I'm sorry. I know I am taking myself away from you, but I don't know if I can go on. This is my choice, and I will not allow you or anyone else to take the blame. You have helped me so much, but sometimes pain is to deep to be fixed.
Please do not blame this on Edward, either. He has the right to move on and break up with me. I will not hold him from his future. Please, if you value my sanity, you will not blame this on him. Please.
And now, once again, I am sorry. I love you all so much, and I can't imagine the pain I am about to bring you through. Goodbye, I love you. Please don't hate me.
I left the note on Charlie's bed, knowing he would find it when he got home. I felt terrible, but this had to be done.
I dressed in the blue blouse that Edward said he had loved me in and a pair of jeans Alice had bought me. It was my farewell to them , the vampires that I loved.
Grabbing my keys, I drove to La Push. There was a cliff there, and, to be honest, I would rather jump than shoot myself.
Standing on the edge of the cliff, I silently thought of my goodbyes to the Cullens.
Goodbye Alice and Jasper. I'm sorry I had to leave you Alice, but I think this is the right thing to do. Keep her happy for me, Jazz.
Goodbye Emmett and Rosalie. Em, you were always my lovable, bear of a brother. I 'm sorry, big bro, I'm sorry. Rose... well... I wish I could say sorry. I put your family in danger, and I know you think I'm spending my life wrong. Truly, I am sorry.
Goodbye Esme and Carlisle. You two were like my mom and dad, always so caring and loving. No matter how much trouble we would all get in, you still loved us all. I thank you for that.
And... Edward. Goodbye. I have always, and will always, love you. Please don't blame yourself, this was all my choice. Please realize that. I'm sorry.
And with that, I flung myself off the cliff. I swear, I heard Edward yell my name.
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