Hi! I was watching an Amuto vid on YouTube and this suddenly popped into my head. It's something like a mixture of Listen to Your Heart, She will be Loved, My Immortal and several other songs I was listening to while writing this.

Anyway, this is NOT a one shot. I repeat, THIS IS NOT A ONE SHOT!! It is also not going to end in sorrow!! There will be a happy ending, with the Main Charas' STILL ALIVE (maybe) This will be in two time first (This Chapter) and the last Chapters will be the current day and all the others between will be in the past.

This fic is for Rachael Price (Shadows Wars Warrior) -I hope you like it Rae onee-chan- ;p

Thank you! Enjoy and Review!

Disclaimer: I do not own Shugo Chara or Shugo Chara Doki at all. They both belong to their respective Owner.


Drip. Drip. Drip.

The soft dripping of the ruby red liquid was clam, steady, peaceful almost, lulling me gently into a haze of fragile darkness. I sat there, motionless, in a pool of scarlet blood, staring at the girl in the mirror across me. Her golden honey eyes were blank, silent and lifeless, long dried tears trailing down her cheeks. Her hair was long, pooling around her in the dark crimson liquid, with black ribbons wrapped around the soft pink locks. She was staring at me, sitting on her knees, with long trails of blood flowing down her arms, smeared on her lips and dripping down her chin. Her snow white dress, laced with once-pink ribbons was torn, charred and stained in dark liquid and her wide, feathery white wings broken and ripped, it's feathers pulled out and drenched in blood. A jeweled dagger lay at her knees in front of her, both it's handle and blade stained in the same crimson liquid that surrounded her.

The sight of her made me want to scream, shout, anything to get rid of this suffocating agony that embraced me so tenderly. Like HE did.... embracing me... when no one else would... I blinked slowly, fresh tears forming in my golden, lifeless eyes now slowly filling with sorrow, and she did too, tears forming in her own eyes. But he was gone. He could never come back to me. THEY were gone too. My dear, dear friends... my guardians sent from heaven, unlocked by my heart... were gone... gone forever... They were gone because of me...

"Why? What did I ever do?! Why?! WHY?!! Please! Tell me.. why...!" I sobbed, my tears spilling down my cheeks and dripping down my chin, mingling with the blood. The girl in the mirror copied me. But she was not me. I was not like her... I was not. Never... We were different, too different. She was innocent, pure, the one I wanted to be like, the girl I was before I was snatched away. Her eyes seemed to be telling me that I was wrong, so sympathetic and kind, yet still so lifeless, so blank. Like a doll. Yes. That was what she was. A glass doll. Fragile and delicate. I would never again be who I was in the past. I would never be Amulet Angel again. I could not be anything, not Amulet Heart, or Spade, or even Amulet Clover or Devil. No. I was a Lost Child now. Just like Dia said.

But why would you do that? Follow what Dia said, when HE tried so hard to save you? My traitorous thoughts, rebellious, as I was before. Was it really my thoughts? I don't know anymore...I can't tell anything now. But it doesn't matter anymore. Nothing does today. This day is both my last and my first. I would not let myself cause the people dear to me so much misery, so much pain and suffering, ever again. I would end it... now... today...

Slowly, trembling, I reached for the dagger that lay before me. I held it close to my heart like he had held me, letting the warm, wet blood that covered the dagger run down my arms. My eyes were blank, I knew, all traces of sanity leaving me. All the hurt, sadness, regret, sorrow and hatred gathered and focused on this one moment.

Ikuto... For you Ikuto...

I dragged the bade across my wrist, watching in fascination as the blood, my life's blood, ran down my wrist dripping in long rivers onto the already blood covered floor. The girl in the mirror seemed to be crying silently, as the blood dripped off her wrist too, all her barriers down, laid bare for me to see. Is this how people looked before they were about to die? Funny, why didn't I feel any pain? I was certain if you dragged a dagger across your wrist in a killing stroke, it was supposed to hurt. I nearly laughed out loud. Oh dear, it seemed me dying had finally driven me mad...

Dizziness hit me in a wild wave of nausea, nearly causing me to fall over and puke. I chuckled softly. It meant that I was finally going to die. Darkness nibbled at my vision, chewing at the corners, bright spots dancing before me. I swayed gently, feeling the unmistakable presence of Death in the room. How could I not recognize Death when he had snatched so many of my dear beloved ones? My breathing grew ragged, my throat could not draw in anymore air... I felt weak, faint, dead... I was going to die this time no doubt...

She was crying, the girl across me, no doubt about that too. Poor girl. Why was she crying when I was about to be set free? Free from all the sins, regret and shattered dreams that held me down? Poor girl. I sighed softly, and nearly collapsed, my head lolling weakly against my shoulders.

"AMU!!"

Who was that? I could not see.. my vision was blurry and dark, my mind was fogged. I fell into someone's arms. He, or she, was screaming something, roughly shaking me, wet drops spattering my face. Why was he, or she doing that? It was annoying. Yet, the person seemed so familiar, so kind and loving. Ikuto? No... it could not be him...

Suddenly my vision went bright, pure, shocking white and I saw Him. My Ikuto. He was beautiful as always, but his eyes were sorrowful, and tears spilling down fast. I tried to smile and tried to reach for him, but my body would not move. I felt like my limbs had been turned into lead, heavy and unyeiding. But it did not matter anyway. I would be with him soon... The darkness came back and I felt myself being pulled from my body, towards a white light in the world of darkness... Goodbye, my beloved... I am coming to you at last, Ikuto....

Wait for me.... Alright?...


Well? Did you guys like it? I hope so. Review and tell me if you want me to continue it! Ja ne!

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