Alright…I lied. I'm… a few months behind schedule. Ugh, life has been hectic, and I'm sorry. Thank you so much to my reviewers, I don't deserve you guys! Anyway, this is the last chapter. Hope you like it. : )
Oh and I'm sorry before hand… I know I'm going to be brutally murdered after I post this chapter… I just… felt like being mean to someone… :/ Sorry again everyone! But I'm not about to take it out on a REAL person! Or actually…I just might do both. I just need to find my brother… (Joking. ;p) Oh, and something else!
I am now 14! I turned 14 in April, I just slacked off and haven't updated in… a while. So this is a kind of farewell for this story. I'm going to make you very, very sad, and then possibly very, very happy. Probably not happy, actually. I don't know. Let's just see where this story takes us.
Actually…I'm not quite sure where your emotions will be… let's find out.
I was falling, I felt like I was dying. Everything hurt, physically and emotionally. I was aching everywhere. My world had shattered into pieces, and the only one who could fix that was the reason it was like this.
The core of my existence was gone so I really had no reason to live any longer. Of course, Alice would murder me if I tried to kill myself, as much sense as that makes, so I just settled for not bothering to even get out of bed in the morning.
However, Alice and Rosalie didn't let me go on like this for too long. After a day or two of this they got fed up and dragged me out of bed and into the shower. Literally.
Once I was up and about, as much as I'd let them force me to be anyway, they dragged me downstairs for breakfast. No one was around when I'd entered the kitchen, so no one saw Alice and Rosalie completely fail at making me something edible for breakfast.
Once that train wreck was over, Rosalie decided to go out to buy food instead of trying to make it. Even in their human life they weren't good at cooking. I guess their newfound grace and indestructibility hadn't changed that.
Once Rose was back with food from some fast food restaurant for me, they nearly shoved the food down my throat. I didn't have much as an appetite these days, go figure.
When that was done, we all just sat around the table while they watched me worriedly in silence.
"Ugh." I mumbled. "Why can't you just leave me alone… both of you."
Alice frowned at me. "Bella… You're our sister and we're not going to let you mope around. I know it's tough, but you'll get through it." She said, trying to comfort me. Needless to say, it wasn't really working.
I fell silent, tears running down my face thickly. I couldn't live without him. He was my reason for existing. He was perfect. He was mine. And now… he was gone.
"I miss him." I mumbled through the tears, sobs shaking my frail body.
Alice and Rosalie glanced at each other, frowning. They both wrapped their arms around me.
"We know… it'll be okay…" Rosalie whispered quietly.
I felt cold, and not because I had two vampires hugging me. I needed Edward. When he had gone, he had taken my heart and my reason for existing. I was empty without him.
I felt angry that he had been taken away so soon after I found him. I pushed back my chair, standing and tears obstructing my vision.
"Please. Just… leave me alone." I choked out, running towards the front door and to the silver Volvo that was sitting outside the house. It reminded me of Edward so much that it hurt, but it went a lot faster than my truck, so I opened the drivers side door and got in, starting the car.
Alice and Rosalie could have stopped me, but they made no move to do so.
I backed out of the driveway, not even knowing where I was going. I just wanted to get away.
I drove as fast as I could with no thought for the speed limit. Soon I stopped the car.
I knew Edward had gone to heaven. He was too good not to have. I truthfully wanted to join him. I remembered hearing a story about Esme. How she had attempted to kill herself when her son died. I steeled myself, walking towards La Push beach.
The clouds were a dark grey color. I could tell that it was about to storm, but it had not yet started raining. I walked towards the cliff, jogging to the top.
Once I reached the top, I looked around, trying to catch my breath. The waves swirled darkly at the bottom of the cliff, slapping the rocks violently.
I sucked in a breath before backing up and propelling myself off the cliff. I felt a rush of adrenaline as I fell through the air. I sliced through the dark waters easily, the currents pulling me down deeper.
The last thing I saw was black, swirling darkness. Dying wasn't so bad, after all… Life was a lot more painful….
"Bella!" a voice cut through the silence. But, I wasn't exactly aware of anything besides the voice. I tried to talk, to open my eyes, to move my hand, but nothing happened. I strained my ears to see if anything else was said. I wasn't even aware of my body anymore… it was like… it had just gotten up and disappeared.
"Bella… wake up, love." Edward. That was Edward's voice. Suddenly, I was aware of everything.
"E-Edward," I mumbled. Surprisingly my voice didn't hurt… in fact, it was as clear as bells.
"Bella, oh thank god," came his relieved sigh. He squeezed my hand gently. "Love, can you open your eyes? Please?" he asked.
My eyes fluttered open, quickly spotting Edward. His bronze, golden hair. His relieved expression. His bright green eyes.
"Edward… your eyes… they're green." I mumbled. But… he looked human. He felt human. What happened? Was I dead and in heaven? Was I dreaming? What was going on.
Edward smiled crookedly. "Yes, Bella, my eyes are green," he said, kissing my forehead. "But, what we should be talking about, is why you're here."
"Hm?" I asked, confused about what he was talking about. Of course, I remembered a moment later. "Oh… I jumped off of a cliff," I said simply.
Edward's eyes narrowed slightly. "Why?" he asked, his voice pained.
"I missed you…," I mumbled, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.
Edward sighed. "I missed you too… I just… you killed yourself because of me, Bella," he frowned, his eyes tortured looking.
I frowned, shaking my head. "But it wasn't your fault Edward. I chose to… where are we, anyway?" I asked, glancing around.
Edward brushed a strand of hair out of my face, his eyes never leaving mine for a moment. "I'm not exactly sure where… when you die, you stay on the Earth until all of your unfinished business is taken care of. Then… I'm not exactly sure. But I guess it's just… whatever we want it to be. Somewhere we can be together…" he mumbled, watching me.
I smiled slightly. "Really?" I asked, glancing around. "It doesn't sound too bad."
Edward shrugged. "It was kind of dull without you here," he admitted.
I smiled slightly. "I'm here now, though. And so are you." I hugged him gently. "So it won't be dull anymore. Right?" I asked, watching him.
Edward smiled. "I suppose not," he said, kissing me gently. "I love you Bella," he said before pressing his lips to mine once again.
Eww. That failed so much. Ugh. And I'm horrible at trying to keep 8 stories active at once. xD
As much as I hated being so sidetracked, I'm sad to see this story end. Ah well. Until next time!
Review and tell me how much you hate me for not updating and for finishing the story with a horrible chapter. Psh. xD
I hate myself for it, trust me. xD
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