So this is the final chapter to the story. I originally had this chapter cut into two tiny chapters, but I ended up putting them together as one big chapter.

I'm not sure if I'll be feeling a sequel or not, it'll depend on how my other stories are going or if you guys want to see one. I already have two more ideas for new stories, so I might start them up and just leave this story complete.

Anyways, thanks for everyone who stuck around till the end of this and for all who read and reviewed.

I hope you enjoy the last chapter and the last instalment to You Always Have Been.

Chapter 30 – You Always Have Been

In Ohio...

Spencer's POV

Christmas time, one of my favourite times of the year. And with Ashley coming back home with me to Ohio, it was even better. I mean Megan... Megan coming back home with me for Christmas. I definitely shouldn't have gone to that gig back in November, it's completely screwed up my head now, and that's the last thing I need when Megan has forgiven me about the whole ordeal and come back home with me for Christmas. Why can't I stop thinking about her though...?

It was a few days after Christmas, and the holiday had gone over really well so far. My family loved Megan, as anyone would, and it was completely drama free. It was the day before New Year's Eve and Kyla had thrown a party that both Megan and I decided to go to.

"Spencer!" Megan yelled, while waving her hands in front of my face.

"Huh? Oh sorry Megan, I dazed out, what were you saying?"

"I asked if you wanted a drink. What's going on with you lately, Carlin? You're heads been like out in la la land the past few weeks." Megan asked, squeezing my hand tightly.

"It's just weird being home... and I'm always a bit weird around the holidays. Sorry."

"Are you sure that's it? You know you can talk to me about whatever's on your mind, Carlin."

"I know, Meg, but seriously it's nothing." I replied, kissing her cheek softly. "I could actually use that drink now though."

As Megan and I made our way to the kitchen, I saw Kyla who motioned me over towards her. I told Megan I would meet up with her and that Kyla wanted to talk for a second, leaving Megan to venture onto the kitchen and I walked towards Kyla.


Kyla's POV

I had grabbed Spencer away from my Christmas party and brought her upstairs into my room. I knew something was up with her, and I definitely couldn't talk about it with her down there, especially when I had a feeling it had to do with Ashley.

"Alright Spencer, what is up? You've been acting really weird ever since you brought Megan back here for the holidays." I demanded, grabbing her arm tightly and throwing her into the room and slamming the door behind me.

"Things are fine with us, Ky. But that's the problem, they are just fine. Megan is perfect, I really like her, my family likes her, everyone likes her..." Spencer said before dropping her head to the ground.

"It's Ashley isn't it?"

"I can't get her out of my mind. I mean why did I go see her band, it was such a mistake!" Spencer screamed, throwing her hands up in the air and combing through her hair before resting her hands on her head.

"Spencer... it's me. You can actually be honest with me about this."

Spencer fell back on my bed and let out a loud sigh. "I still love her, and I shouldn't..."

"Why shouldn't you?" I asked aggressively, taking a seat beside her on my bed.

"Because of what she did, she hurt me, I mean really hurt me!"

"Because you know love is all just butterflies and rainbows... I know she hurt you, Spence, and that sucks. But if you run from love just because you don't want get hurt again, then you're not really living. You're just settling, and with Megan... you're definitely just settling."

"It's just she's been so great through this whole thing, I don't want to hurt her." Spencer said, fidgeting with her hands and rubbing her knuckles.

"And you think not telling her the truth about how you really feel is not hurting her? You have to tell her." I said, grabbing Spencer's hand and squeezing it gently.

"God, I hate it when you're right."

"Yeah, it's a bitch, but you do know I'm right, you have to tell her, Spence." I got up from the bed and stared at Spencer who remained sitting. "Both of them... After you talk to Megan tonight, go home and pack some clothes, and tomorrow you're going to board a plane to Los Angeles, and you're going to tell Ashley how you really feel."

"Kyla, tomorrow is New Year's Eve, I'll never be able to get a flight this late."

"It's not a problem, my dad can get you a flight... he holds extra first class seats for his clients all the time."

"Kyla, thank you." Spencer said, getting up and giving me a hug.

"Just thank me when you and Ashley are finally back together."

"Well I guess I should go find Megan then..."

"I guess you should, good luck, Spence. I'll have your ticket ready for you at the airport tomorrow morning, I'll text you the flight time. And I expect you to let your best friend know how everything goes..." I said bringing her back into another hug, this time tighter before Spencer left the room in search for Megan.


Spencer's POV

I made my way back downstairs and found Megan standing off to the side, bobbing her head along to the music with two cups in her hand. As she saw me, she extended one of them out for me to take, which I did, just out of politeness.

"Does the offer still stand to talk to you about anything?" I asked, grabbing her hand.

"Of course, did you want to go someplace quieter?"

"Yeah, it's probably best we do." I replied, squeezing her hand tighter and walking her back upstairs to an empty bedroom.

As we entered the empty bedroom, we both took a seat on the bed.

"So... uh, this isn't the easiest thing for me to say."

"Stop, you don't need to say anything, I get it. You still love her. I mean, it sucks, but I get it. I was sort of expecting this... I saw the way you looked at her the night at Bruno's and ever since that night, you've been all over the place. I knew it was about her, I was just waiting until you figured that out."

"You know you're amazing, Meg. I really didn't deserve you."

"Yeah, you really didn't." Megan joked, nudging me lightly in the shoulder and then laughing. "You still want to enjoy this party?"

"Hell yeah, I mean if you still want to."

"Of course, let's go have some fun." Megan smiled, throwing her arm around mine and pulling us up off the bed.


In California a few days later...

Ashley's POV

Being back in Los Angeles, and it being New Years Eve, I thought the old Ashley Davies would come out and play, but she was long gone. I wasn't that girl anymore and we all knew why... a certain blonde had walked into my life about a year and a half ago and turned my world upside down. And then being the idiot I am, I blew it and I let her go. Thinking back at that decision I made, thinking I was looking out for Spencer, it was really just me being afraid. Afraid of what the future had in store for me if I followed her or if she followed me. Afraid of what all of it meant and afraid that sooner or later she would see me for who I truly was. I guess it doesn't matter now... The point is, I gave my heart away almost two years ago, and I never really got it back.

"Ashley, come on! It's New Years Eve and you are standing around like a big mope. I haven't seen in you four months and this is the thanks I get for coming down here? This is your party, you should have some fun!" Cameron yelled over the music while grabbing my arms and swaying them in the air, trying to elicit a somewhat happy response.

"I've been trying all week with her, Cam. It's going to take a lot more than you swaying her arms to get her out of that mood." Alex replied while giving him a drink and taking a sip of her own.

"You know, I didn't have to you fly you out here, Alex... you could've easily stayed back in Chicago." I chirped back at the brunette.

"And miss out on the fun of watching Ashley Davies drowned in self pity? Hell no!" Alex joked while shaking her head and taking another sip of her drink.

"I am not drowning in self pity, I am reflecting on recent events in my life..." I replied while giving Alexis a strict stare.

"You're reflecting on Spencer and not being in Ohio with her for Christmas for the first time in two years...aka drowning in self pity." Alexis said bluntly as she crossed her arms.

"I need a drink."

"Self pity!" Alexis yelled as I went to the keg and poured myself a cup of beer.

"No, this is called getting drunk." I said while downing my drink, and refilling it back up.

"You can call it whenever you want, it's still not going to change the fact that you miss her. You've been like this ever since our first gig, and I know it's hard, but come on... I was rooting for you two, but after everything, I don't think she's coming back. It's been two months, don't you think she would've shown up or called you by now? Maybe it's just better if you move on... you might be waiting your whole life for her to come back, and that's not healthy Ash."

"Then I'll wait my whole life, if that's what it takes for Spencer to come back, I'll wait. There's nothing I'm more sure of in my entire life Alex, she'll come back because she loves me, and I love her. She just needs time to see that for herself. So if that means I have to sit around and 'drowned in self pity' then that's what I'll do."

"Okay how about we stop talking about this and get out on the dance floor. How about it, Ashley? It's almost midnight and you have to have a little bit of fun before the year is up." Cameron pleaded while putting his hand out for me to take.

"Fine, but I don't promise any pro Ashley Davies dance moves out there." I responded reluctantly, chugging down another drink and taking Cameron's hand and having Alexis follow us out on the dance floor.


Spencer's POV

I stood outside Ashley's huge mansion, just standing there staring at it for probably twenty minutes. As people came in and out of it, drunk as hell, all I could do was go over in my head what I was going to say to her. I mean here I was, Spencer Carlin, who had just flown across the country, ready to pour her heart and soul out to the girl of her dreams, the love of her life, Ashley Davies. I think I'm going to puke. Well there's no turning back now... it's now or never.

I made my way inside the large house, scanning each individual room for the brunette. It took me five minutes to make my way to a massive dance room packed with people. The music was blaring and being only 5'3, it was hard to see over the crowd. I made my way through the crowd, sweeping both sides for Ashley. It wasn't Ashley who I spotted first, but it was Cameron dancing with her that drew my attention. I made her way through the random people separating me from the love of her life, before Alex noticed me coming their way, shaking her head, all she could do was smile at me.

"It was about time there Blondie... I was starting to think you were never going to show." Alex shouted past Ashley to me who was now standing right behind her.

Ashley turned around and her jaw dropped as I stood there right in front of her.

"Spencer?" Ashley whispered, gasping for air, with a completely shocked expression on her face. "What are you doing here?"

"Do you think we can go somewhere and talk?" I asked, grasping Ashley's hand and squeezing it gently. Ashley didn't do anything but nod and followed me off of the dance room and up to her bedroom where it was quiet.

"Okay so don't say anything yet, I wanted to go first, and I figured since I flew half way across the country you would let me. Um... okay." I lowered my head and tried to take a big breath in.

"Two years ago you came to my school, and you changed everything for me. You made me fall in love... with this dark and twisted, sarcastic, rebel girl who was from a completely different world. And every single day that I spent with you, I fell more in love with you than you could possibly imagine. And then for some reason I didn't understand at the time, you ran and took it all away. You have no idea how much it hurt to have my heart literally ripped from my chest like that. It took me awhile to understand why you did the things you did back then, but when I came to your first show at Bruno's, I realized that I was just as afraid as you were, and instead of fighting it, I ran like you did. I didn't realize the power our love had over it until that night, and it scared me. So I tried to move on, I really did... Megan was perfect in every way, but one. She wasn't perfect for me because I had already found my perfect match and no one could've even compared or replaced her. But I settled for what Megan offered me because somewhere I hoped that eventually those feelings that I was feeling for you would fade, and I wouldn't have to get hurt again. But every time I tried to forget the feelings that I had for you, they just kept coming back..."

I raised my head and looked into Ashley's eyes. "...and now they're back. And I'm tired of pushing them down, I'm tired of running away from us, because I love you Ashley, I love you. And I never want to lose you again, I just want to be with you."

I kept staring into Ashley's eyes, looking for some sign that she felt the same way, but Ashley remained still. I broke eye contact with her and lowered my head, thinking that Ashley was about to let me down easy, but I looked back up when I felt Ashley put her arms around my waist and brought herself closer to me.

"I love you too Spencer." Ashley whispered while cupping my face with her hand. "I knew it then, I know it now, I'll know it always."

Ashley took a step closer to me so that our bodies were now touching completely.

"You're the one I want to be with, there's no questioning it, there's no holding back, no over analyzing it, it just is. You're it. You're my one."

"I am?"

"You always have been."


Epilogue – Spencer Carlin

Being the daughter of a famous rock star, music always came easy to me. It used to be my outlet to another world, my safe haven, where I could go and not have to hide who I truly was. It used to be... now my safe haven lied in the arms of Spencer Carlin, the love of my life. The girl who single handily changed my life in a blink of an eye. Being with a girl like her, love never came so easily... being me, never came so easily. In my sophomore year of high school I fell in love, and I became the Ashley Davies I was meant to be; the Ashley Davies that was meant to love Spencer Carlin.


So there it is, let me know what you guys think.

I want to add that this story was completely inspired by Everwood's finale episode "Foreverwood".

If you guys are really feeling a sequel, I left the story very open-ended so it is possible.