Hey guys... I know it's been ages. I suck...
I got my oldest daughter back in my care now though so I just don't have any time to myself with the 3 year old and the baby... *SIGH* BUT she has preschool on mondays so I'll try and get some writing done while she's not here.
This chapter's not great... I kinda forced it a bit because I wanted to get you guys a chapter but Jasper didn't want to talk.
DISCLAIMER: SM owns Twilight and the characters, I just give them drugs. The poem is one I wrote in school, it's pretty morbid when you read it all.
The water's catching up to me...
Don't fall down, don't stop now...
When we all fall down
There's no one left to catch us
The water waits, and then we drown.
It all Falls Down
That was the last time I saw Maria, Charlie had arrested her for drug possession and dealing. I didn't give a statement; I didn't even need to, all the evidence was found in her house and car. The last I heard she was sitting in Seattle County Jail and had been renamed "Muffin" by a butch lesbian named Sandra.
Carlisle's quiet voice brought me back to the present. "So what do you think happened when he opened his eyes? This isn't exactly my area of expertise."
An unfamiliar voice answered him and I strained to hear what was said. "His cerebrum seems to be fine, there was no damage done to the main part of his brain, so if he were to ever wake he should retain most of his memories. However the cerebellum has been severely damaged so, if he were to wake, he may well be completely paralyzed."
Carlisle's voice was curt when he spoke next. "I know what's wrong with him; I want to know if he's waking up. He opened his eyes for crying out loud."
The doctor sighed. "Carlisle, the cerebellum controls his motor functions, he can't control his movement himself, you're a doctor, and you know this."
"I just never thought it would apply to a member of my family." Carlisle whispered brokenly.
"Carlisle… right now he seems to be in a vegetative state. He may yet awaken, however if he's in this state for more than a month we'll have no other choice but to take him off life support, he's already been in here for 3 weeks, we can't keep him in here forever."
"I understand." Carlisle sighed.
"Oh, and Dr. Cullen? Please explain to Esme that he may yawn, grunt, open his eyes or even move, that doesn't necessarily mean he's waking up. I'm sorry sir." The door banged closed and I heard Carlisle sob once and the chair beside my bed creak as he collapsed into it.
So I was a vegetable now, even if I woke up I'd still be a vegetable. A vegetable with intelligence and memories but no way to communicate or express myself.
"Dr. Cullen to the E.R." The PA called. "Dr. Cullen to the E.R. Bella Swan is here to see you."
Bella looked up at me with her dirty, tear streaked face. "Hi Jasper." She mumbled.
"What's wrong? Why are you sitting here on the side of the road?" I asked, reaching down to help her stand.
"Edward… He… he just left me here." She started sobbing again.
"What?" I yelled. "Why would he just leave you here on the side of the road?"
"I don't want to talk about it." She mumbled. "Can you drive me home?"
"Of course. And I'm here if you want to talk, ok?" I helped her into the passenger seat of my car, not even caring about the mud on her clothes.
We drove in silence until we reached her place, her father's cruiser was out the front of the house. "Where's your truck?" I asked, looking around for her rusted old chevy.
"Edward made me get rid of it, he said it wasn't safe and that he didn't want it breaking down and… and leaving me stranded on the side of the road somewhere." She started crying again.
"Look Bella, Edward loves you, I'm sure he has a good reason for leaving you there." I said, reaching over to open the car door for her. He'd better. I finished in my head.
"Thank you Jasper." She mumbled as she got out of the car.
I waited until she was safely inside with the door closed before starting my car and speeding off to the Mason home.
As I got out of my car I heard tires squealing behind me. I turned to face Edward's Volvo as it screeched to a stop behind me.
"You have a lot of gall to come here, Whitlock." Edward said menacingly as he exited his car.
"Me?" I asked, dumbfounded. "What about you? Leaving Bella on the side of the road like that? She's lucky it was me who found her, not some creep."
"Oh, yeah it was luck was it, you mean you didn't tell Carlisle about how I used to watch her sleep at night? You were probably just waiting for me to do something like that so you could sweep in and be the good guy for once." Edward was pissed.
"What are you talking about?" I was confused.
"You want her. You want her bad enough that you sabotaged our relationship and she broke up with me." Edward seethed.
"And what she broke up with you so you just leave her on the side of the road?" I shook my head slowly. " I thought she meant more to you than that."
"SHE MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME." Edward roared. "She… I couldn't bring her with me to your place; I didn't want to expose her to this side of me."
"What side of you?" I asked as Edward clenched his fists and took a step towards me.
"THIS SIDE." Edward swung his fist towards me, hitting me hard on the cheekbone.
That's gunna leave a mark. I thought icily.
"What the hell is your problem Edward?" I muttered, raising a hand to feel the spot he punched.
"You are. I told you that stuff in private. I thought you were my friend." Edward took a step closer to me again.
"Oh shut it Edward. You shouldn't tell people my secrets, then get pissed when I tell yours." I walked to my car.
"Besides, Bella deserves to know what kind of obsessive, violent, stalker, peeping tom her perfect boyfriend really is." I slammed my car door and left Edward alone in his driveway.
I drove out to La Push. Sitting on the side of the cliff I looked out and wondered why everything was going wrong at once. Everything we'd built up was falling apart.
"Hey." A voice called from behind me. "Jasper, right?"
I turned around and was shocked to see Jacob standing behind me.
"Yep. What do you want? Are you gunna push me off the cliff or something." I looked back out over the sea.
"Nah, maybe later." He joked, sitting down next to me. "I've got some information you might need."
I raised an eyebrow in his direction.
"Not so fast, I want something from you first."
"What?" I sighed.
"That girl. Bella." Jacob said. "I want her number."
"Why?" I asked, surely he knew that Bella wasn't like his usual fucks, she wouldn't put out.
"EH… she's a pretty little thing, and it would piss that Edward kid off to no end if someone took her away from him."
"They already broke up." I mumbled.
"Oh? Well maybe this will be easier than I though then. Do we have a deal?" Jacob looked at me expectantly.
"What's your info first? If it's something I need to know, fine." The thought of pissing off Edward appealed to me. I raised my hand to my cheek where a bruise was already beginning to form.
"Maria used to use heroin, she shared a lot of needles and ended up catching something. You might want to go get checked." Jacob looked straight at me when he said it and I could see the truth in his eyes.
"Fine." I gave him Bella's number.
"Oh, and Jasper. If you ever want something, I've got the good stuff." Jacob pulled a small bag of colored pills out of his pocket for emphasis.
"Good to know." I muttered, rising and heading to my car. "Looks like I need to get some tests done."
An hour later I was leaving the hospital with the hope that Carlisle didn't hear I'd been in for an STI scan.
"Jasper?" A quiet voice called from behind me.
SHIT. I thought as I turned around to face Bella.
"Uh, hi Bella." I muttered, looking away guiltily.
"What are you doing here?" She asked, leaning over to search my eyes.
"I... uh... I had to get some tests done." I stuttered stupidly.
"Oh. I hope you're not sick." She said kindly.
"Look Bella I have to go." I couldn't stand her being so nice to me after what I'd done. I never thought Bella and Edward would break up, ever. And now they were, and it was my fault. To top it off I'd given Edward's enemy to go ahead to chase after Bella.
"Oh ok. Well I guess I'll talk to you later." She said, looking a little upset with how abrupt I was. "Oh and Jasper? Thanks."
"Everything. Driving me home that day, telling Carlisle about Edward's obsession and how he stalked me, giving Jacob my number… You're a good friend." She smiled at me happily.
"Jacob?" I asked, wondering why she would be thanking me for that.
"Yeah, he's really helping me get over Edward and he even helped Charlie cut down the tree's right near the house so people can't peep in anymore." She shuddered. "I mean, that's really creepy. Especially considering we'd never met when he did it."
"Oh. Well, you're welcome." It was official, I was an asshole.
AN: There you have it, I finally gave you an explanation for how he opened his eyes...
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