This is a rewrite of page 409 in city of ashes.
"I swear. I was really sick, I almost died back there on the ship, you know" I said
He let my hand go, but he was staring at me, almost as if to memorise my face. "I know, every time you almost die, I almost die myself."
Jace I came to tell you-" I started
"Wait let me talk first. Before you say anything, I wanted to apologise to you." He said
"Apologise? For what?" I asked
"For not listening to you, you kept telling me that I couldn't have what I wanted from you, and I kept pushing at you and pushing at you and not listening to you at all. I just wanted you and I didn't care what anybody else had to say about it. Not even you."
My mouth suddenly went dry. "Jace, you didn't do anything wrong. You-"
"No. let me finish. Clary, I have to say it now or-or I won't say it. I thought I'd lost my family. And I don't mean Valentine. I mean the lightwoods. I thought they'd finished with me. I thought there was nothing left in my world but you. I-I was crazy with loss and I took it out on you and I'm sorry. You were right." He said
"No. I was stupid. I was cruel to you-" but he cut me off.
"You had every right to be."
"Stop, Jace! Just stop will you please let me finish?" I asked. "I like the fact that you thought that…I was the only thing left in your world…I actually mean that much to you. I came to tell you that…that" I stopped
"That what Clary?" he asked me.
"that I like you…a lot…and more than a brother, it doesn't make me sick personally…what we feel for each other, what I meant about what I said was that was how other people would feel, and I thought that meant everything to me but now im not so sure." I said never meeting his eyes. Well that was until I felt the seat sink a little bit next to me and I looked up to see him staring at me.
"Really? I mean you have never said anything and back in my room I assumed it was only said out of anger."
"No, no nothing like that. I was upset and yeah. But I mean if you don't feel the same way then you know I totally understand-" I was cut off by his mouth on mine.
When we broke apart for a breath i saw lots of different emotions in his eyes. Lust, Triumph, happiness and...love? Does he love me? Do I love him?
Hey guys sorry to end my story like this but even though i love this ending to City of Ashes i would rather have the other one because then City of Glass would be different and i love City of Glass.