If only you could know
How much I miss you now.
I almost cry how every time I could have moved
And checkmated the King;
But now it is over.
I will never see you again, let alone feel your presence
Near my heart.
Do you remember the first time we met?
It seemed millenniums ago
When, in fact, it was only a couple thousand years ago.
You were busy being created
To search any planet to no ends to search for
Something impossible to find,
Like a needle in a haystack,
Only this was more like a thread from between here and Earth.
I remember your sleek, white form and clear blue eyes
Staring everywhere. I was to inspect
The Eva's to see if they were sound and clear to go explore.
I knew from first sight you were perfect,
And I had no idea what this feeling was or how I knew you felt,
No, were so perfect.
Was this love? No, it could not be, I thought at the time,
I was just a fetching robot
And there was no way I could feel something so, so,
You were taken around the premises, downloaded everything necessary.
I took the Eva's around and showed them
Where everything was.
I felt my face heat whenever you asked me a question.
How did I know it was you? I don't know. I just
Knew. You felt so perfectly different from the others,
Like a newborn babe with an insatiable curiosity.
It was a perfect day, as I showed you around
The premises. And as I nestled into my space for the night,
I was thinking back to today.
Oh, and how I missed you so much
When you and the rest of the pod were taken to Earth
To look for biological material. I sadly thought
How frustrated you would become over the next few years, how
Angry, sad, lonely, and if I had tear ducts, I would have cried
Every night for you. But as I obeyed the Master Wheel every day,
I could not help but joyfully anticipate the day of your arrival.
Finally, that day came. I waited on the Master Wheel until I heard a
Service beep, signifying my presence was needed on the entry panel.
I hardly dared to hope that you arrived, as I ordered two service bots to
Accompany me. After the Eva's were lined up, I looked over every Eva,
Carelessly inspecting every one until I came to
You. And I beeped with surprise, as you were carrying the
Biological material needed. I thought with eagerness as this meant
We would be home. That meant too much for me. And as the lights flashed
Green and two bots appeared, I strapped you into place and headed for
The Master Wheel.
As the Captain was waking, I listened with dismay at what the
Master Wheel told me, as he commanded me to take the plant
And send it into outer space. I reluctantly removed it from your chest pouch,
Waiting for a moment to silently apologize.
How stressful it must have been, knowing you,
To go around constantly, trying to do your job,
And succeeding at the last moment possible, only to have
Your succession snatched away from you at the last instant,
And not even awake to realize it was happening.
I put the plant in my chest pouch,
Watching and waiting for my next command.
As expected, you were proclaimed faulty, and I sighed
And waited for you to be carted off, when
The Captain's scream turned me round,
And there, standing in the room,
Was the dirtiest little thing I'd ever seen.
What was it? It wasn't floating,
It wasn't clean. Was it a foreigner?
I would have eliminated the thing on sight, if not for
Captain's orders to clean you up.
And that was, hopefully, the last I'd seen of that, that
Thing with you, darling Eva. I thought for sure
She'd be recycled, and my heart fell
To think my darling Eva would be carted off and melted into
At least, I thought you were gone. And I
Cannot tell you how high my heart jumped
When I saw your picture on the high screen,
You being a rogue robot or not.
But I was disappointed, or maybe disgusted, by
That heap of rotting yellow metal standing next to you.
Why? How could it be him in the picture?
You have no idea how miserable and outraged I felt
When I next saw your picture,
You holding that disgrace of a robot, in your arm.
Your arm! How could you? I had know you for hundreds of years,
If not thousands, and you could only have known him for
One month. Why him? What did he do?
How did he capture your heart,
What I had been trying to do for so long?
And when you came into the office with the plant,
I was so happy you finally achieved your goal,
You finally did your job,
And I could not help but marvel at your bravery,
How, at any cost, you would get it to the Captain.
I froze you in laser (Master Wheel's orders) and sadly watched Master Wheel
Toss it down the incinerator. I thought for sure you'd be crushed,
Heartbroken, that all your work was demolished,
Finished by a toss down a lid.
Until I saw the plant slowly begin to rise,
And I could not believe it,
Not even when the head of that
Thing popped out of the lid.
I felt a feeling impossible for a robot,
Jealousy. And I could not help contain that once
It and the Master Wheel struggled for the plant.
I could barely restrain a cry of victory, once the thing
Dropped down the incinerator, useless as garbage.
And that feeling of jealousy grew fast once you squealed
And cried out in shock, as if he was a dear friend of yours you had lost.
Angry, I held you in place until the Master Wheel
Put you to sleep, shutting you back in that
Sleek white form. I nearly cried out in shock as
The Master Wheel commanded me to
Throw you down the incinerator as well.
I couldn't bear to do it, and closed my eyes to contain
My grief as I heard the echoing of you falling down the walls.
My days were filled with monotony, now that you were gone.
I'd longed to impress you for a long time, and now
That chance was over, you probably being deep into space.
I slept dreaming of you, thought of you, wondered about
Then that day, that fateful day came.
I was confined to my sleeping space for the day, until I heard
The Captain and Master Wheel crying out in distress.
And I barged out, only to find the two wrestling.
Shocked, I charged over,
And was knocked out the window by the Captain's feet.
It seemed like a millennium when I fell, and I looked wildly around
For anything – a grip to hold onto, when I saw
You again. And I looked at you and my heart lifted up.
You were alive, that's all that counted. And I extended my arm towards you
And hit the ground.
And now all that's left of me is this bit of memory,
All they could recover is this chip of memory
Just for you.
This little chip that will die any second now.
The concept of death does not scare me,
As the rest of me goes whirling away into dreams,
Sweet dreams, forever filled with fantasies with just you and me,
You and me, what it would have been like together.
Dreaming, just you and me.