Chapter 15:







bellezza danneggiata


hey . its . alice

Sarah Miler

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Chapter 15: Freaking out

When I woke up the next day I felt totally relaxed. I hadn't slept this good in a long time. Must have been Edward's presence. I reached over and felt for him, without opening my eyes bu6t he wasn't there.

"Edward?" I mumbled sleepily, opening my eyes.

"I'm right here my love."

I turned around in my bed and sure enough there he was. Sitting in my old rocking-chair and looking extremely gorgeous. I realized he didn't wear his suit anymore.

"When did you change ?" I asked as I slowly walked over to him and sat sideways on his lap, were he enveloped me into a tight embrace and kissed my temple.

"I went home this morning to change. I wasn't gone very long. I didn't want to miss anything interesting." He grinned mischievously.

I blushed immediately and hid my head against his shoulder.

"Ugh, what did I say?" I knew that I often talk in my sleep.

"Oh, just that you love me."

I was shocked. Love? Love…was that what I was feeling for him. The feeling I couldn't identify. The feeling I had for my dad, too? I was confused but…kind of happy.

"I really said that?"

"You did."

"I guess…it's true…"

"You guess?"

"Well, I don't know what I feel. I feel very good when I am around you. I feel safe and totally at ease. When I am not with you, I crave your company. I can't imagine my life without you…"

Edward interrupted my babbling.

"But, Bella, that IS love. That is what I feel for you. What your dad feels for you. What you feel for me."

I was having a mind out of body experience. This was just a little bit much, but I wouldn't want to be anywhere else in this moment than here in his arms.

"So you already knew that I felt that way for you? Even though I didn't know it myself?"

"Yes, but still it was nice hearing it."

"I love you" I said quietly and immediately ducked my head into his chest. It was so new saying something like that. It felt weird but good.

"You are my life now" he responded.

He leaned in to kiss me, but I pulled away.

"I am sure I have terrible morning breath."

"I can assure you, you smell just fine to me."

"Still I will feel better after my teeth are brushed. I just need a…human minute, okay?"

"I will be waiting right here."

I stood in the door about to step into the hallway and told him: "Yeah, stay."

He smiled and me and stopped moving altogether. He looked like a statue. I smiled back and went to the bathroom. After looking into the mirror, I groaned. Just, great. One side of my face was all red from lying on it and I had sleep in my eyes. My hair looked like a bird's nest. How could someone as perfect as Edward even look at me when I looked like this?

Sighing, I started my morning routine, by brushing my teeth and splashing cold water in my face. Then I combed my hair until it was all nice and shiny. To finish it off, I put on some light makeup and checked my appearance in the mirror once again. I smiled at myself. There, now I was presentable.

When I came back into my room, Edward still hadn't moved a tiny bit. I giggled and went over to him.

"You can move now."

And instantly he stopped being a statue and smiled at me.

"Your father has left fishing early in the morning, he left you a note on the kitchen table. How about I let you get dressed and prepare breakfast for you and then I take you to meet my family?"

I was stunned speechless for a moment. His family?

"What's wrong? Are you scared?"

I nodded.

"What if they don't like me?"

Edward laughed loudly.

"You're going to be in a house full of vampires and the thing you are worried about is that they won't like you?"

"Don't make fun of me."

"Sorry, Bella, but sometimes I can't help it."

"Well thank you very much" I said sourly.

He stopped laughing immediately.

"Please don't be angry. I won't make fun of you again. I promise."

I huffed at that.

"Yeah, sure. I'll hold you to that."

He just smiled at me. How could anyone, a boy especially, be this handsome? Vampire and all, it just wasn't fair.

"Ugh, stop dazzling me!"

He smiled even more.


"Yes, dazzling. It's what you do. You dazzle me. And it's unfair."

"And are you often dazzled by me?"


I couldn't help but smile at him.

He just made me feel…good and even though I was scared of how his family would think about me, I wanted to meet them.

I spent over an hour in the bathroom getting ready and then almost the same time trying to find the right clothes. I didn't exactly own any clothes that you would were to impress your …boyfriend's parents. Never mind that they were vampires and I didn't know the first thing of what vampires deemed suitable. I had a hard time even thinking the word boyfriend. That word just hadn't been part of my vocabulary before, but calling Edward my boyfriend…it felt good…even though I didn't think it really covered what was between us. This all happened so fast…


Edward ripped me from my thoughts.


"I really don't mean to rush you, but you took almost two hours getting ready and your breakfast is getting cold."

"I'm sorry. I just don't know what to wear. And I feel so…I am confused and what if they don't like me, Edward? What if they hate my clothes or how I wear my hair? You will leave me and I …this feeling is so good and I don't want to lose that, now that I found it and…"

"Shhh, Bella calm down. It's alright, I'm here. I won't leave."

He had pulled me against his chest and only now did I realize that I was crying.

"Bella, look at me."

He put a finger under my chin and gently forced me to look into his eyes.

"What is wrong with you? If you don't want to meet my family that is okay. You don't have to. But please don't cry."

"I am just…I am so overwhelmed…I mean…imagine finding out that you are in love…that you love somebody…by this someone telling you, you said 'I love you' in your sleep. Edward, I never felt love before. And from one second to the other I have to realize that I love not one but two people. I feel emotionally drained. I feel like I can't handle it, but I want to, Edward, I want to so bad. I want to tell you, that I love you a million times. But saying it this one time this morning…I will have to get used to it…slowly. I'm sorry."

"Love, it's alright. You don't have to be sorry. I should have known. Considering your condition…"

I interrupted him.

"My condition?"

He looked apologetic.

"Well, your…for lack of a better word…obsession."

"You know about that?"

"Are you upset about that?"

"I'm not sure. How do you know about that?"

He tipped the side of his head with his finger.

"Mind reader remember? Carlisle tries very hard to keep his patients' secrets to himself, but you can't help but think you know? And then there is your father…"

"And how do you think about my wishes?"

I couldn't say 'condition' or worse 'obsession'.

"Can I think about my answer for some time? Can we talk about that certain topic later?"

"Okay, but we will talk about it, promise?"

"I promise."

Random facts about Twilight in Germany:

#14: Bella's quote on the back of the German version of "New Moon" says this:

"Verflucht", murmelte ich, als ich mir den Finger am Papier schnitt; ich zog es weg, um mir die Wunde anzusehen. Ein kleiner Blutstropfen quoll aus dem winzigen Schnitt. Dann ging alles ganz schnell.

(Stephenie Meyer: Bis(s) zur Mittagsstunde)

AN: I want to apologize for taking so long again. I hope there are still some of you reading :) Please leave a review, if you feel like it. I have a bonus chapter waiting ;)