Chapter 1 – Nothing lasts forever…


I took the little package, rolling my eyes at Edward while I stuck my finger under the edge of the paper and jerked it under the tape.

"Shoot" I muttered when the paper sliced my finger; I pulled it out to examine the damage. A single drop of blood oozed from the tiny cut.

It all happened very quickly then.

"No!" Edward roared.

He threw himself at me, flinging me back across the table. It fell, as I did, scattering the cake and the presents, the flowers and the plates. I landed in the mess of shattered crystal.

Jasper slammed into Edward, and the sound was like the crash of boulders in a rock slide.

There was another noise, grisly snarling that seemed to be coming from deep in Jasper's chest. Jasper tried to shove past Edward, snapping his teeth just inches from Edward's face.

Emmett grabbed Jasper from behind in the next second, locking him into his massive steel grip, but Jasper struggled on, his wild, empty eyes focused only on me.

I was in shock. I could feel the pain in my arm, as I cut myself in the shattered crystal that was lying on the floor; also, I could feel Edward's cold, protective body over me. All I could do was praying for this to end fast, so I could go home; I had caused enough trouble for one day. As I was staring at the horrified faces of my future family, I heard a sound like a thunder and Emmett's shout:

"Damn it, Jasper, stop!"

Somehow, Jasper managed to pull himself off Emmett's steel grip and now there was only Edward between me and him. Edward roared one more time, showing his teeth, but Jasper pushed him away; it seemed like the thirst and the burning desire had made him stronger. They didn't even had time to react; I was suddenly looking into Jasper's hungry eyes, and then I felt the familiar burning pain traveling through my veins, even faster than I remembered. I couldn't feel anything else, the pain in my arm was completely insignificant compared to the unbearable fire. I heard Edward's and Alice's desperate shouts and all I wanted was to be able to comfort them.

"No, Bella! NO!" Edward screamed, horrified.

I could hear everything, but I wasn't capable to answer. The pain was too big. I was still rational, because I remembered something Alice had told me when we were hiding of James. Vaguely, I remembered she said that this transformation process is going to last three days. Three days of pain and horror; I already couldn't bear it, I just wanted to beg them to kill me, but I couldn't find the strength to speak.


"What could I possibly do, son? You know how the venom affects the body. It is already into her system, everything we have left is to wait for the transformation to end." Carlisle replied.

"But this can't be happening so fast! She wasn't ready, I wasn't ready! I can't destroy her life this way, Carlisle!"

"I know, and I'm sorry, Edward. Now, Rose and Emmett, please take Jasper away from here. Esme, Alice, it would be better for you to leave."

"I want to stay with her, Carlisle. I want to be with her until it ends", Alice whispered. "I can control myself, you know I can."

"Bella, love." Edward said, his voice sounding far away. I tried to reach to him, but I felt like I was drowning. "I'll be here until the end. Please don't give up. You hear me? Oh, this is all my fault! I shouldn't have – "

He stopped. Edward's voice was the biggest pain from all; mine seemed nothing compared to his. He was blaming himself again, like he always did. And he was wrong, completely wrong. I tried to squeeze his hand, to show him that I was here, hearing him, but I didn't knew if I had enough strength. But I felt his quiver, and heard him sigh, then managed to open my eyes and see his beautiful golden eyes staring at me, looking as if he would cry, if his eyes would be able to produce tears.

"Love. I know you can hear me. Fight, Bella. I know it's hard, I know it hurts, but please, for me. Please don't give up." His voice was just a horrified whisper and it was so hard to hear him. I was far away, this pain was growing and was taking me away from the only one I loved, the reason of my existence. Then, suddenly, I couldn't move anymore; it was like some chains were holding me against the floor.

"CARLISLE! What happened?!?" Edward screamed. "Damn it, Bella, fight!"

But I was. Why was he mad at me? Was I doing something wrong?

"Bella, love, please don't leave me. If you die, I die and you know it. You are my life, love, I can't live without you. I have no reason to continue to be alive if you're not with me anymore. Promise you won't give up!"

Yes. I wanted to answer, to make this promise that would unite me with him forever. But I couldn't. I struggled to open my eyes one more time, and the last thing I saw was Edward's gorgeous face just inches away from mine. I smiled, then darkness overwhelmed me.

I love you too. Always, forever. Goodbye, I love you, was my last thought.


"No!", I moaned one more time.

What was happening? Why wasn't she struggling? Why was her body motionless? This wasn't the usual reaction at vampire venom. I saw her eyes opening and staring at me, then a peaceful expression appeared on her face. I also saw her trying to smile, a weak attempt to comfort me, I guessed. But then what was wrong?

"Edward, she is in shock. Please let me see." Carlisle pleaded.

"No." I hold Bella's hand tighter, then placed my body protectively over hers.

"Edward, give him some space. He won't be able to help her if you don't move." Alice tried to reason with me, her voice just a horrified whisper.

I moved a few inches, still holding my Bella's hand. Her skin was so cold and her eyes were closed, but that peaceful expression was still there, on her face, the shadow of a smile raising at the edges of her lips. Carlisle checked her silently for a few moments while I was thinking about how I will never see that wonderful blush in her cheeks again and the gorgeous brown of her eyes; I won't feel her hot skin anymore, that heat that felt so pleasant against my skin every time she touched me with her soft fingers… Then, a change in Carlisle's thoughts distracted me and I felt so much pain that I thought I was going to explode.

Dead. The venom didn't even had time to reach to her heart, she entered into shock and her body stopped reacting. How will I tell him?

"NOOO!" I shouted, horrified by that thought. "STOP thinking that!"

"Son, I'm so sorry, but it's true…" he replied, and I could feel the pain growing inside him.

"What?" Alice demanded, shocked and terrified. "She's not… is she?"

She wasn't even able to say the word; I couldn't even think about it.

"No, she's not." I roared. "He's wrong. Check her again."

But he shuddered and I could see the truth in his thoughts, I could read his remorse.

"I'm afraid it's true, Alice. Bella is dead."

"Don't you even dare to say that! You're lying!" I screamed, overwhelmed by the pain and by Alice's confused thoughts. She was grieving for her loss, and she was disgusted and horrified by what her husband has done to her best friend. I couldn't handle this anymore. It was too much for me to stand. I took Bella's body into my arms, then ran upstairs and locked myself into my room. It was childish and foolish from me; they wouldn't let themselves intimidated by a locked door, but I couldn't help it. I felt the need to do something. I put her gently onto my sofa then lied next to her, holding her into my arms, like we used to spend each night. I started humming her lullaby, knowing that she will finally wake up and kiss me with her soft lips. She was just reacting different at the venom; after all, she was special. I kissed her forehead, then her cheek, and finally her lips; she felt so cold. I missed her sweet scent. I would gladly accept the burning pain in my throat just to feel her scent again. I pulled her tighter to my chest and continued humming, waiting for the moment in which I was going to see her beautiful, breathtaking smile again.