Jake sat nervously on Bella's bed waiting for her return as she took a shower.
"Oh, ah, where's Lis?" Bella's older sister, Sam, asked.
"In the shower." Jake answered, feeling awkward.
She looked at him suspiciously.
"Who are you?"
"Ah, Jake, her boyfriend."
Sam's eyes went big in shock.
"Oh, excuse me."
He looked at her strangely as she left.
I was half way done when I heard Sam's voice in the bathroom.
I sighed annoyed.
"What? I'm trying to take a shower in peace."
"I met Jake."
I froze at her words.
"Oh?" I said, not sure how to respond.
"Why didn't you tell me you were dating?"
Shocked, I spun around, opening the shower door. I looked at her as if she was crazy, before I got out and grabbed a towel.
"Dating, what are you talking about? We're not dating." I replied utterly confused.
Sam shared my confusion.
"Really, because he just introduced himself as your boyfriend."
I cringed at this.
The truth was we never had that talk; the I'm a virgin talk or are we friends or more talk. I never dated before; I wasn't sure how it worked.
Did one person just saying we were together all it took to confirm it?
Truth be told, I wasn't sure what we were. I mean, we just started hanging out these past two months and pecked on the lips once or twice, but that was it.
"Jake hasn't seen me in anything other than shirts and pants." I said, thinking out loud.
My sister looked at me disgusted; fashion was not something she took lightly.
"I don't even wear makeup, well, sometimes chapstick." She shook her head in disgust.
I smirked amused. I knew I was pushing it but it was fun to see her be the uncomfortable one for once.
"So you're not having sex?" She asked bluntly.
I flinched, just the word sex made me disgusted. I shook my head back and forth.
The next thing I knew, Jake was by the bathroom door, and I was still in my towel. My sister eyed him suspiciously as he began to speak.
"I'm going to go, Lis. I'll see you at school."
I gave him a weak nod as he left.
Sam looked back at me confused.
"What, no goodbye kiss?"
"I told you, this just started, whatever it is and plus, you staring him down probably didn't help matters."
She rolled her eyes and laughed.
"I don't think it was that, I think it was the towel."
I looked at her weirdly than down. This was the most revealing thing Jake ever saw me in.
"Awkward." I stated.
"It's a date."
"It's not a date."
"Yes, it is."
My sister and I argued like this for hours. I finally gave up, frustrated.
"We're just going to the movies." I said in protest.
"If that's not a date than the jokes on me." My sister replied.
I lightly laughed at her, making her annoyed.
I felt disgusted wearing what my sister picked out for me. I was wearing a freaken skirt and tang top, so not me.
"Well, if it is a date, shouldn't I be comfortable?"
I continued, trying to pull my skirt down more, though it was impossible.
"This is not comfortable." I said pointing to my outfit.
Sam rolled her eyes.
"You'll get over it."
I groaned as the doorbell rang. Sam jumped up excited. I, of course lacked enthusiasm, sighing.
"Oh come on, your ruining it, smile." Sam argued.
I thought if anyone was ruining the moment, it was her. I forced a smile; she took it, going to the door.
Jake looked nervous seeing Sam answer the door.
"Oh, hi." He greeted.
"Hey Jake, come on in!"
I came down the stairs, rushing pass Sam. Not wanting more attention on me than necessary. I was a rare breed, that's for sure.
I heard my sister groaned at my lack of effort.
"Okay, let's go." I said, practically running out the front door, grabbing Jake's hand in the process, not giving him a chance to speak.
I went to my side, waiting in the car as Jake eyed my outfit weirdly.
"What's with the clothes?"
I looked down disappointed.
"Oh, my sister." I answered rolling my eyes.
Jake nodded his head, starting the car.
"So, what are we going to see?" I asked curious.
Jake kept his eyes on the road as he answered.
"Ah, Twilight looks alright."
I lit up at this.
"Oh, yeah!" I exclaimed, playfully pushing on his arm.
He jumped at my sudden outburst as I continued.
"I heard that was a good."
Not to mention the main guy is pretty good looking.
Jake just nodded, watching the road.
Once there, I felt weird. There were couples everywhere. I finally got my sister's message. I groaned, tensing up as we walked, crossing my arms to my chest.
"You okay?" Jake asked concerned.
I finally noticed him.
"Yeah, fine. I just didn't realize so many people come to these things."
He laughed, somehow untangling my arms, taking my hand in his.
This was weird.
It's not like it was the first time we held hands, but it was night, with couples around.
I thought back to what he told my sister.
I groaned again though Jake didn't hear. Thank god, because I couldn't think of a good excuse this time.
As we waited in line, he dropped my hand. I was grateful. I looked around at the other couples. It came so natural to them. I wondered if it would ever be that way with me.
I flinched when Jake whispered in my ear.
"Are you okay, you're not sick are you?"
No, but wait, it could change.
"I'm fine." I said putting on a fake smile.
I wasn't sure if he bought it, but he let it go.
We took our seats. I was so excited to see the movie.
Maybe I have a mood swing disorder?
Soon it got dark. I watched intently as the screen came on. I could see a couple in the corner of my eye, making out. I rolled my eyes, hoping Jake wouldn't get any ideas. We never made out before, thank god. So, he wouldn't start now.
At the movies, how tacky.
"Who is that?"
"That's Edward Cullen."
I sighed contently. He truly was beautiful.
Suddenly, I felt Jake take my hand. I gasped not expecting this. But let it go, too engrossed in the movie.
The way Edward was looking at Bella. Any girl should be so lucky.
I felt Jake's breath on my ear.
"She's not half as pretty as you are."
I tensed, keeping my eyes on the screen.
I continued watching, feeling the awkwardness coming back.
He lightly kissed my cheek, and then turned back to the film. I don't know why but it made me blush. Maybe because I was thinking it was Edward. I grinned, and continued watching.
"How did you get in my room?"
"You do that a lot?"
I started to tense up, seeing the actors intense stares, knowing there would be more than just talking. I winched, uncomfortable as they went on.
"I just want to try one thing."
They moved incredibly slow towards each other. My heart was pounding. Their lips barely touched. I sank in my seat. Finally they mouths touched.
I let out a gasp I didn't know I was holding. Shockingly I felt Jake tense up as well. I didn't turn though too captivated by the movie. I began to shake my leg, nervously.
Edward's mouth twitched, they both gasped, as I did not too long ago. Jake let go of my hand. I was sure I was griping it too tight. My hand instantly went to my mouth, biting my nails, nervously.
Bella began kissing Edward back, moving over him.
I felt Jake touch the leg that I was shaking. I stopped as he whispered in my ear.
I rolled my eyes, focusing on the film.
Not realizing Jake's hand was resting on my knee. The actors kissing got passionate. It didn't help that people in the theater started kissing as well. Gasp and groans from the film where spinning in my head.
Edward urgently threw Bella on the bed.
Damn he's sexy.
Hungrily kissing her lips, then suddenly he pulled away.
"Oh come on!" I yelled frustrated.
I guess I was kind of loud, because people started shushing me. Jake snickered, squeezing my knee.
I sunk lower in my seat, embarrassed. As a result, Jake's hand moved slightly up my knee.
Without thinking, I swatted his hand away. I wanted to apologize soon after; I knew I probably hurt his ego. I heard him let out a frustrated sigh.
He said nothing, going back to the film.
Once it was over, I happily got up. Jake followed, though not with the same enthusiasm. As we headed to the car I watched Jake as he kept a distance from me.
I rolled my eyes and forcefully took his hand in mine. This was a big step for me. I silently smirked. But Jake yanked his hand away.
"You don't have to hold my hand; I know you don't like me touching you."
I was shocked he was acting this way. I decided to let it go, going to the car. He seemed more annoyed by the second.
I prayed it wasn't a long drive back. We didn't talk the whole ride. I cursed under my breath. I knew this way a bad idea. I got out, without saying anything.
Once inside, I heard his car sped off. I looked at my overly excited sister. Her excitement left as quick as it came.
I just shrugged.
"Nothing, me being me."
I walked to my bed, crashing on it.
I was screwed. The truth was I was lucky Jake held on as long as he did.
I decided to let it go, getting ready for bed.
I was annoyed when I heard a knock on my door.
"Go away Sam!"
She opened the door cautiously.
"Umm, I don't know if I should be alarmed, but he's um, outside waiting for you."
I looked out the window. Sure enough, Jake was standing by his car. I for one was confused. I went down, not caring I was in my pj pants and shirt, nothing revealing.
Unsure, I slowly approached him.
"What is it Jake?"
He looked up from the ground. Pure silence. Annoyed, I let my frustrations out.
Jake sighed, annoyed himself.
"What are we Lis?"
I was taken back, not expecting this.
He put his hands up in frustration, than through his hair.
"I mean are we friends, are we more; do you want to be more than friends?"
From where Sam was looking, it probably looks like we were fighting, which wasn't completely off.
I groaned, not really wanting to answer that question. It was a trick question and he knew it. If I said yes, I wanted to be more than friends, it would be awkward and I would have to explain why I freaked at the movies.
If I said no, that I just wanted to be friends, it would hurt him and who knows if he still wanted to be friends. I sighed frustrated as well.
"Jake, can't we just say whatever happens, happens?" I asked hoping he would agree.
He looked more annoyed as I tried to get out of answering.
"I just want a yes or no answer." Jake said firmly.
He was right it wasn't fair to wheel him around if there was no chance. I knew my limits, even if I said yes, something would come up, just a touch and I would object. I wasn't ready.
I gave him the only answer I could think of.
I was afraid to look at him. He slowly nodded.
"Ok, I'll see you at school than." He said before taking off.
I did it, I hurt him and even more, I hurt myself and I wasn't even sure why I did it. I sighed going inside as Sam gave me a pity look.
"Not now." I warned, heading to my bedroom.